Acceptance - learning to cope with the weight gain.

Hello all,

I am currently in recovery from Anorexia, and yet still, even after therapy and PHP and all the good stuff, I still can't get myself to accept the fact I MUST gain weight. I've only gained maybe 5 pounds since I began recovery in July (I was in the lower 80's now I'm upper... I don't know my exact weight and don't really want to) and I don't know why... I'm just having a really hard time with it.

The refeeding bloaty belly... the gas and pain and discomfort... I don't know. I just feel so afraid. I feel fat and I know I'm not...

I just would love to hear from everyone how they are dealing with the weight gain, the fears, and maybe some good advice to help with the uncomfortable-ness of recovery.

Thanks everyone!

Hey,

I was so relieved to read this; I'm in the same exact boat as you are.  It's such a weird thing, it sucks completely.  It's like, I KNOW I need to gain weight, but I just cannot bring myself to do it!

So I'm going to make a quick list of why I should gain the weight, and I'm going to take the chance and assume that since we're in similar situations, what will inspire me will inspire you too.  Hopefully it will make us WANT to gain weight! :)

* I won't have to avoid social gatherings because I think there might be food there!

* No longer will I not look good in my jeans because they're baggy and hanging off of me... even though they're size 00!

* When I run into people I haven't seen in a loooong time, I won't have to hear the comments like "Are you ok?" and then know they're talking about me as soon as I am out of earshot.

* No. More. OBSESSION. about what I'm going to eat next, and exactly how many calories are in it, and how many I have left for the day!!!!!!!!

* Getting breasts! (not that I was ever well-endowed in that area, haha)

These are things I just thought up on the top of my head; I think I'm going to go write more and try to inspire myself, lol.  I know it's so difficult to gain weight, I'm facing that road block too.  But try to think about how much better life will be when you put some weight on.  My boyfriend will find me more attractive; our "love" life will be better again. :p

You can do this!  If you need a buddy or anything, PM me anytime you need to talk!  We're all here to support each other!

I Hate this too, i think the main struggle is when you feel you look fine and people tell you, you stll need to gain weight but you have to think is it the illness talking or is it you when you say you cant gain anymore weight!

Reasons to gain-

-Periods so you can have children

-Be happy (No matter how much we think it makes us depressed eating better does make us happy)

Being able to stay up past 10 cos you get tired so easily

Eating food you want not food that your 'allowed'

Living and not existing

thinking about how long you can live like that!

Hope this helps xx

I am trying recovery and gain weight. I am 5'4" and was at 82 pounds and now maybe 85 pounds. I just need to do this but hate the bloated belly and my size 0 jeans are loose except as the day goes on it tightens around the belly. I also get gassy and super anxious. I am only eating 800-900 cals which is bad-I am adding 200 cals every couple of days-they say you can gain quickly at first due to water weight and starvation mode or it can rev it up. I have so many health issues and a 26 year battle with anorexia and ednos it is time to get me back and discover who I am.My weight has been 68 to 185 pounds and I want to find balance.