I actually just want to cry!

I feel like just breaking down into tears right now. I went to try on a couple of tops that had fit me in march time and now they're way too tight and clingy...admittedly they were never loose on me, but they look ridiculous now...its so depressing...i knew id put on weight but not that much...sometimes I feel like im fighting a losing battle. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough? 

arghhh i feel in so much pain right now, im just angry at myself for letting me put on the weight again, that wasn't the deal! plus im scared i dont have the motivation to lose it...please please please i need some encouraging words from people who feel the same/have felt the same.

the one thing I want to do is be completely comfortable with my body and not feel ashamed. I also want to stop eating chocolate and those kinds of fattening food, and also to stop using food to make me feel better. It pains me to know I was slimmer a few months ago...

how come you don't love yourself?  you're so beautiful-regardless of the fact you put on some weight.  Who says you have to stop eating chocolate? It's portion control baby!! :) Eat one piece instead of 2. I've been on this site a few days but I've been monitoring my calorie intake BIG time because of it...I've been going to the gym and that alone has lifted my spirits immensely.  Take control of the small stuff..the bigger stuff will fall into place. 

Don't beat yourself up over weight sweetie..I used to weigh around 150 when I was in HS I rowed so I Was mostly muscle..and over the course of 10 years I've gained a LOT...but if I let that deter me I'll continue to climb up the scale and I don't want that for me.   You deserve to be happy whether you're 110 lbs or 200 lbs...you're just a healthier you at a smaller weight;)  When it seems rough and it's hard to stick to it..do something small and nice for yourself...just relax. 

 Changing your eating habits and exercising more will only help if you have the right mind set-freaking out will not help you be successful.  So make a plan..I've become obsessive about writing everything I do down..because it gives me a small sense of control over something that I've always just blown off.  I find that I'm still eating and I'm never starving but my calories are normal..not in the several thousand region like before.  The writing may not help you but I'm sure there's something you can do that can help you stay motivated.  It's only been a week on this plan and I was able to clinch my belt tighter!!  Small step sure..but it's the first of many. 

So cheer up!!  Don't waste your tears on something you can work at.  It's not the end of the world-You CAN do it:)

I totally agree with therria
and if it makes you feel any better, since july 07 I gained 15kg (30pounds) stupidly. At first i wanted to cry as well but then I just started to control myself again, I have already lost 5 pounds since Xmas and I'm trying to continue.

Never give up, never ;)  

Just about 2 weeks ago I tried to put on these pants that I was even wearing just 3 months ago and I tore those little belt straps off trying to get them on, no way I fit in those any time soon, but I am taking my life back, it made me panic for a little bit but I swallowed it back and decided that a stupid piece of clothing is NOT going to put me down, no it is even going to make my will stronger to make this happen, I AM GOING TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT and girl, I just KNOW you can too !!!!!!  Like Therria said, it is portion control, keep a food diary, make yourself realize what you put in your mouth but don't deprive yourself cause that'll only make you feel frustrated and maybe even want to give up.

YOU CAN DO IT !!! 

Thank you so much for your kind words, they were very much appreciated. Therria4 and soliwit you made me realise that it wasn't the end of the world, and have inspired me not to judge myself so harshly but to write down exactly what im eating, also Therria4 I liked your idea of writing everything down...it seems a great way to remain in cotrol like you said!

 Feeling so much more positive thanks to your words and have now set myself new targets and goals, mini-steps at first...but getting progressively bigger!

 

 

I am proud of you, little steps is what you want, the bigger the steps you mean to take the scarier, like I said, you'll get there ! Isn't it weird how much more relaxed you feel once you made that change in your mind that you are the one in control, not the food or fashion or whatever, it's you hun !

J-fizz

Don't let it depress you, instead of letting it get to you take steps to lose the weight, it will make you feel better.

I'm in the same boat, I feel like I've let myself go a bit in the last year and instead of getting depressed about it I've been determined to make it better by spring and I've been taking little steps. I told all my friends that I was not going to eat any fried food in January. My boyfriend was a bit upset because he wanted to eat sushi pizza but I told him he had to wait until February!

Last night I went out with friends skating and then we went to the pub. I did have a pint but instead of getting down on myself I actually feel proud because everyone at the table ordered calamari, nachos and chicken wings and I declined all of them - reminded them that I couldn't eat anything fried this month. Afterwards my friends said they felt gross for pigging out but I was proud that I was able to stick to my rules.

I've been trying to do little things like that, commit to drinking a litre of water before lunch etc. and each time I do it I feel like I'm one step closer. You can do it too!

I'm glad!!  I've always been somewhat of a control freak over stupid things..my life used to be so chaotic that I would freak out about little things that I felt I had control over. My life now has settled down considerably and I've gotten the things straightened out that used to cause me to be all crazy-I used to lose a lot of sleep over it.  But now I get a good nights rest..I've been eating a LOT better and I've been going to the gym every day..whether it be for strength training or cardio.  Sleep is hugely important and I don't think people realize how it can sabotage even the best efforts.  Your body needs that time to regenerate itself.  I went out last night after dinner and thought oh I'm gonna screw up  my diet..but I didn't stop for fast food ( I was really craving Taco Bueno but their bean burritos are SO high in Sodium) and I had one michelob ultra.  Surprisingly-my day ended at 1500 calories.  I actually measured my portions for dinner...and ate just that..and I was full!!!  It was actually enough.  I got one of those kitchen scales and a big measuring cup. Wednesday is  my first day to weigh in since I started-that'll be about a week and a half into it.  I've already noticed small changes.  I promise if you make that effort-even a little-it will pay off.  Not even for your health but for your mental and physical well being.  I've never worn a two piece bathing suit..not even those tankini suits..but I'm going to this year:)

You just need to start again one step at a time. With this site I enter in everything I eat for every meal of every day and I've lost 92 pounds so far. People ask if it's hard to keep track of all of that but it really isn't, you'll get into the habit of doing it. Good luck, you can do it!

wow 92 pounds, congrats Diane!

holy mackeral, diane, you look fantastic.  nice job

Have you ever wanted to learn something very badly, you studied and practiced and tried very hard until you finally got it!  Well dieting is the same as leaning something new, give yourself time to get it right and soon it will be a great accomplishment just like other things of importance in your life. 

Take care ~Linda :)

J-Fizz - first of all - your profile pic is georgeous, I hope you realize that you are very pretty.  I know how it feels when things don't fit right anymore and I've been brought to tears myself over the past few years.  (Ah yes, even cried a little on the weekend as I was wedding dress shopping - why are most of the sizes in the shops size 8 or smaller? Darn stores!  I choose to get angry at the stores instead of myself ;-)

However - there's nothing better than the feeling of taking control and starting to see progress towards ones goals - no matter what those goals might be.  You just need to start small as others have said - focus on the positive and celebrate milestones.  I just lost 5 lbs so I treated myself to some new makeup.  Feel proud of yourself because you deserve to!

There's a lot of support on here for you if you need help to start planning, or some suggestions on delicious but good foods to have.  I challenge myself to get an "A" in my nutrional analysis each day, but don't beat myself up on the days that I don't.  I also love being able to see the make up of the food I am eating so I can ensure I'm getting enough fibre, calcium, iron, etc. and keeping my sodium down - there are a lot of good tools for you to focus on and use :-)  Let us know if you need any help!  We are here for you!

Wendy

KUDOS ayngelina on not succumbing to yummy bar food!!! That's so hard!!!

you're beating yourself up over what you eat.  you're putting yourself down.  It's just food.  It's just a few pounds.  Just concentrate for a month or two and you'll be back on track.  You can do it!

Again, I just want to give me thanks to everyone who has written to me, it really has made such a difference and its so nice knowing that there are people who are/or have gone through similar things! dianejblank, congratulations on losing 92 pounds, thats amazing, and you look amazing as well :-)! Thank you so much Soliwit for your support as well, and yes I feel so relieved that im doing it for myself and no one else, and so happy and excited about this new phase! ayngelina, well done and passing up on the calamari, nachos and chicken wings, and im sure you'll notice a difference in once month as well! therria4 thanks again for your words of support, go you on passing up the fast food after your night out, sounds like your well on your way to wearing a bikini this year! wendy dawn, thanks for your compliment and also your shared expericeces and support, it really does mean a lot to me, well done on losing 5lbs by the way! i bet your excited about your wedding, when is the wonderful day going to be? also i like the idea of treating ourself when you've lost weight, i've told myself that, as i have lots of clothes anyway, im not going to buy anything new untill ive lost some weight!

Again, I just want to give me thanks to everyone who has written to me, it really has made such a difference and its so nice knowing that there are people who are/or have gone through similar things! dianejblank, congratulations on losing 92 pounds, thats amazing, and you look amazing as well :-)! Thank you so much Soliwit for your support as well, and yes I feel so relieved that im doing it for myself and no one else, and so happy and excited about this new phase! ayngelina, well done and passing up on the calamari, nachos and chicken wings, and im sure you'll notice a difference in once month as well! therria4 thanks again for your words of support, go you on passing up the fast food after your night out, sounds like your well on your way to wearing a bikini this year! wendy dawn, thanks for your compliment and also your shared expericeces and support, it really does mean a lot to me, well done on losing 5lbs by the way! i bet your excited about your wedding, when is the wonderful day going to be? also i like the idea of treating ourself when you've lost weight, i've told myself that, as i have lots of clothes anyway, im not going to buy anything new untill ive lost some weight!

Hang in there!  I feel the same way at times.  Just get your self back on the calorie counting and try to exercise a few more min. every day.  Remember if you don't get back to counting you'll never hit your goal.  We ALL backslide, so hang in there I am trying to get back on the calorie horse again, I quit smoking and not over eating and I am up pounds.  I just have it in my head that I WILL NOT let my weight win.  Just keep trying, you may need to tweek your calories alittle bit.  YOU CAN do it!

 

HUGS TO YOU, KEEP TRYING...

Thanks for all the congrats, and j-fizz, as wendydawn mentions, keeping sodium down is really important. My dad has a lot of health issues including diabetes and often has pain in his feet but he started using this site and finds that sodium is the easiest to go over on and since watching his intake his feet have gotten better. Sometimes restaurants have "healthy" options that aren't terrible in calories but sodium is still too much, so watch out for that.

you sound like you want to make all these changes at once, dont, it will drive you to desperation.  Pick one for thise week or for the next two weeks and while doing your general diet focus on that one thing, like cut back on fat, or give up fast food as much as possible. 

Here is a weird trick I learned for chocolate craving.  First get a glass of water, then you either get a dill pickle or a fork full of saurkaurt (this is better than swallowing vinegar which works too) drink your water slowly then eat your pickled food.  Dont ask me why but it kills my chocolate craving or at least brings it to a dull roar.

What do you have to loose, neither shouls hurt you.

 

Also I keep Lower sugar instant oatmeal on hand and make it then add a 1/4 cup of natural applesauce for a healthy, sweet 200 calorie snack that stays with you.

Just stay strong hon, you can do it