admitting my problem and jumpin to recovery!

so i just really wanted to share my story with someone :) its not a serious one, i dont think, but my boyfriend said it was a problem

ever since 6th grade when i was ALWAYS the TINIEST girl ever (weighing 60 pounds), i began watching what i ate. and i noticed, if i did not eat, my stomach would be smaller and i wouldnt gain weight. so i slowly started eating less and less...so my stomach would never get bigger

my family started calling me a "bird" for they felt i ate as much as one...hahah and as i got older my calorie intake was so little i was to the point of almost eating nothing

but never did any of this cause me to lose weight, just stay thin and actually gain weight sometimes because the little i ate was always junk food that was stored because i was in starvation mode for so long

and i'd have to eat with my friends, who were always eating whatever they wanted and how ever much they wanted without gaining a pound and everytime i ate with them id go home feeling fat and gain weight

eventually, i started being always cold and hated food, even the thought of it. id look at food get ready to eat it and throw it out. id bake food for friends, so id never have to eat it myself. my intake of calories was somewhere between 100-600 a day. if it was ever over 500 id take laxatives...

then i started taking laxatives more frequently, even days i would eat about 100 calories, and i realized my problem. i'd cry every night i had food, and if i looked in the mirror tears would fall from my face because of the distorted image i have of myself

my boyfriend once looked up the facts on anerexia...noticing i had most of them. and that was the day i decided i would begin eating...normal, healthy, and not be afraid.

i was afraid to eat, because of a fear of gaining weight, so i'd starve myself and only eat when i had to. but now, for two days i've eaten 850 calories which is a great stride towards success.

i'm just hoping now it all goes well...

Well done, you have obviously bean to realise and resolve a longterm issue!!

I know it's going to be hard but 850 kcal per dy still isn't sufficient by any means, so mayb if you tried to increase your intake slowly, about adding 100 kcal a day until you at least have 1300 kcal but you shopuld go a lot hiher than this in order to regain all your necessary weight and help your body recover from a long starvation. Food is medicine, so eat healthy and your body will not only be okay but better, internally and extrenally.

You may also want to try and seek medical advice from a nutritionist and therapist to help you overcome your problem in a safe and healthy manner!!

 

Keep up the good work!!!

yes, i know...i still need around 600 more cals a day...but right now this feels like so much so gradually im going to increase it!

i wish you luck - it is good that you have recognized the problem and are working on it!

that's great!! you go girl!! sending you good vibes :)

Original Post by svkas09:

so i just really wanted to share my story with someone :) its not a serious one, i dont think, but my boyfriend said it was a problem

 

 Anorexia is a very serious problem.  What are your stats?  How old, height & weight.  My guess is that you are very young.  If you have been reading this board, you probably already know that you need a certain amount of calories just to maintain life.  Read about anorexia and what it does to your body (long term).  Read about nutrition.  

Most of all see a Dr.

You may be thinking you can resolve this issue on your own, however, if it has been going on since the 6th grade perhaps not.  Good luck.