Almost "all out" binged this morning.

0kay, this is kinda interesting, what happened to me this morning. And | just wated to share.

0kay, so | woke up, and had my usual breakfast. 0atmeal, and a piece of fruit. | finished my meal, and I was full.. But I was craving PB so badly. So I thought to myself, "0kay, just one tablespoon, and |'ll be around 300ish for the morning.." So I had some PB.. And then another tablespoon.. And then a piece of toast with honey on it, and then I grabbed a cookie, [100+ cals] And I was about to eat it. Then, all of a sudden, a wave hit me-- of guilt and confusion for what I was doing. | was doing something I thought I had left in the past. So I ran upstairs to my room, set down the cookie, and looked into my own eyes in the mirror. "Do you really want to do this?" | was talking to myself! And I talked for a bit, and realized that what I was doing (With the food) Was something of my past, and I needed to give it up. And I basically talked to myself, and said, "| forgive you for  doing what you did this morning. You're going to be a strong, healthy body, and you're getting better everyday."  And then I took a few deep breaths, and felt good! | had forgiven myself, and I had stopped what was going downward.
Then | picked up the cookie I had been planning to scarf, and crumbled it up in the trash, smiling! And that was that. My breakfast had been 500 something calories instead of 200. 0r, instead of 800. 0r 900.


Anyway, | just wanted to share that experience. It may sound stupid, or weird, but it was a personal victory for myself, and so liberating.

So you can still love yourself after you mess up too. Love your body, and accept the ups and downs. You may have messed up, but that doesn't mean that you aren't getting better day by day! Everything isn't lost.

Have a great day everyone. Love yourself.
 =]

i do that all the time, i sit here and talk to myself like a crazy person. 'are you sure you want the chocolate, are you sure you want that extra cake/toast etc ....'

it drives me mad. well done on fighting the binge. i find that trowing food away or not making it available help me with mine

I try not to keep it in the house either.  Also I buy individual servings of almost everything so I am less likely to eat more than the "right" portion.  Have been able to keep the mini size candy w/o going overboard and am impressed by that (only one little piece a day, after dinner, and it hits the spot...only 30 calories)!  If you can't just have one, don't even go there!  Congratulations on your victory!

Great job, great job!!!

*claps*

It's so hard for me, when I'm in that kind of state of mind, to NOT say to myself "what's the big deal long term if I eat this one cookie" - but you did it! 

good on you!!  you have a lot of will power and it will get easier and easier to!!

maybe don't have cookies in the house if you think that might happen!!  i know with me that i dont think about certain food unless it stars at me in teh cupboards!!

Thanks for the advice. =]

We usually don't have cookies around, but these were special baked for @ home for the family.. It's not really up to me what's in or out of the house. =|    Meh` parents are the shoppers. =]

Even if you thought that post was stupid, I found it inspirational! :D You should really be proud. Not only did you STOP in the middle of a binge, but you forgave yourself for it and MOVED on.

With that kind of attitude, you'll accomplish any goals you lay out for yourself.

That kind of self-discipline is impressive and even more so was your forgiving yourself for it! I will remember that. It is very helpful to hear.        

Fantastic, aio! You did it!!!!!!!!

Congratulations!

It's not stupid at all!!! You took a very big, important step! And you succeeded!

*Happy dance*

I find breakfast binges pretty bad too... I usually have something healthy and small, the exchange student living with me eats a bowl of chocolate cereal and waffles drenched in syrup and I crave it soooo badly! Ive started waking up earlier, having my coffee earlier, eating my little oatmeal then showering so that any cravings wear off before I can act on them.
Breakfasts out- order the fruit bowl or order from the kids menu.