AMAZING weekend!

Aside from going to see my favourite musician perform on Friday night with my old pop, and having THE gig of my life.. (It was madness, I came back dripping with buzzing ears lol!) I managed to achieve something great in my recovery.

I started to hang out with an old friend recently, we'd been having a great time catching up and she invited to out to dinner for her birthday on the Saturday after the gig. DINNER... RESRTURANT... LOTS OF PEOPLE WATCHING... PEOPLE WHO DONT KNOW YOU'RE ANOREXIC... are very daunting thoughts. I went with the intention of eating a starter as my main meal. I'll just have some soup and bread with butter I thought... But how silly I would look if I sat with a little bowl of veggy soup, whilst everyone else gourged on rustic three course meals.

I decided, that eventhough my friend knew about my problem - I was going to go to her celebration without my eating dirorder. Yes, I UNINVITED anorexia.. and went with NEW full intentions of eating what I would have three years ago.

For starters Rachael and I shared a bowl of muscles in a garlic and onion sauce.
Very smelly, but very delicious.
For my main I ordered a medium rare sirloin steak with a side of sautéd mushrooms, roasted tomato and veg. I didn't have any wine, I don't think I was quite ready to introduce a resturant meal AND alcohol at the same table.
I didn't have any pudding either - I was actually stuffed (not making any excuses) and would probably have scared myself silly anyway!

I don't mean to brag lol, but for someone who wouldn't even eat a banana last year - I think i've did pretty good. And I managed to have a great time! I didn't even worry about what I was eating!

It's great you managed the meal out full stop, certainly. I have to admit, though, while it was a triumph for you to eat out without being afraid, you went for much lighter options than you may have realised (at least compared to a usual restaurant menu). But hey, what matters are the steps inbetween, right? [: So well done.

'Yes, I UNINVITED anorexia'

What a wonderful statement.

You sound so excited in your post, it's fantastic - you should be proud of yourself.  It's a definite step in the right direction.

Congratulations.  Keep taking those steps forward.

Exactly compound! I was like, no Ana YOURE not going - IM GOING.

Lalabanana.. I know what you mean by lighter options, and I suppose relative to the menu, it was. But I havn't eaten a steak in a VERY long time. Anyway, I don't think that many people on this forum would chow down on a man-sized lasagne oozing with sauce and heaving with cheese lol.. It might have been light in comparision but the calories were hiting the right number, and im thrilled with that :)