angry eater

I eat because I donot know what to do about my emotions. I have been very angry. I was very angry growing up and used baking and food to balloon into a fat teenager. I use food to comfort myself. I am angry at myself because I have gained weight and all my clothes are tight. I do not want to buy new fat clothes. I am a yoyo weight gainer. I have my earliest memories using food because I did not know how to express the anger I felt as a child. I have thought about writing a journal. I was not allowed to express the anger.  I need to find a better way to express the pent up feelings. I have tried to talk to my elderly mother but she does not want me to bring up many painful subjects like living in a home with domestic violence. I am told by many people I am too serious. I am do not know where I can let go. I wish I had a place to let go of all my anger.

Do you exercise? Sometimes when I'm really angry I find that a good run helps me release some of my emotions. I also think that writing in a journal is a good idea (but it probably won't feel easy). I would also suggest therapy where you could work through some of your anger without needing the cooperation of your family...

Dear Angry Eater:

Dont get discouraged because of this habit. Instead, when your angry, you could exercise, write a poem, sing loudly, or scream into a pillow. That always helped me...anyway, i'm glad that your opening up and i really think that you can quit emotional eating and get to a healthy way of dealing with feelings.