Anorexia/ Binge Eating Disorder

Hi,

I've been diagnosed with anorexia / BED lately.

While I was anerexic, I wasn't severly underweight, but had all kinds of 'food fears', and didn't realize I had an eating disorder. Eventually, I started bingeing occassionally, and would starve for a day after that. Later on, the binges became a daily affair for two months. It was so scary that I came down for depression...

Ever since, things have been better. In fact, I stopped bingeing for two weeks and was relived. However, I went back to my 'healthy' eating and wasn't eating enough (but not completely starving). Then the binges came back, and I've binged about 4 times in the past week and it's scaring me (avoiding it today! :) )

 I guess, my eating disorder has two sides - I either avoid all kinds of food, or eat all of them when I begin bingeing. It's hard to change... but I'm trying, slowly.

I'm just writing to ask if anyone has similar experiences and advice?

Anyway, I know I should try to avoid focusing on my weight, but I really need to get this out. After the past few days of non-stop bingeing, the scales have gone up a couple of pounds and my stomach's completely bloated. It makes me feel miserable... and I'd just like to know is it real weight gain or water /food mass? Will the weight/stomach bloating stabalize itself after a period of normal, regular eating? I wonder if anyone knows the answer..

Cheers.

hey, i have gone through something similar i was 15 and i had been running cross country/ Track and was really good but saw all the thin guys as the fastest so i really didn't eat and i was in denial for a long time but i really didn't notice it until i started to breadown... everything suffered and i was killing myself i was 15yrs old 5' 10 1/2" and 100 -110 lbs eewww! well one day i decided i was done it was all i had ever had in life but dropped it like that. well i ate vast amounts of complete **** because i wanted to be able to not care and have what i miised out on for so long and i gourged myself and i loved it.. i knew i shouldn't do it but i kept doing it until i was 60lbs heavier in about a month and a half.. i realized i need to stop i had another problem now... well i was eventually able to slim down to a good healthy running weight i am almost 17 6' 2" and 140lbs sexxier and healthier than ever but i still binge now and then because i never got rid of the cravings! i can't get rid of them but i know i am healthy and i don't want to go back to where i was on wither end of the spectrum... it was hard getting backt o where i am now and i don't want that effort to go to waste so i am not giving up and neither should any of you! even though its hard it does get easier! so get to where you need to for you to be healthy.

Katethegreat,

Wow, and here i was thinking i was the only one going through this. My story is very simular to yours, and infact most people on here. My mother however puts alot of pressure on my to lose weight, after my eating disorder. I feel so uncomforatbale all the time, and wondered why after not eating anything and exercising extensively i would start binge eating.

I am so relieved that i am not the only one that has found this after an ED. For like the past 2 months ive been battling with this, and i never understood it because i had never heard of anything like it. So thankyou, everyone, for saying that you have or are going through this.

Thankyou.

you not alone in the fact that everyone who restricts gets the urge to binge its the bodys natural response. the binge restrict cyle is a vicious circle . the only way to beat this or lesson it is to a, reach a healthy weight minimal of bmi 20. and b. to stop restricting you need to eat a diet of 3 meals 3 snacks of all the food groups . i know this probably scares you but these binges are probably happening as you arnt eating enough . are you seeing a theapist and a dietician i would advice this for you .you need to act on your hunger dont put it off this is just another factor that can lead to a binge . im sure if you started eating a better diet these urges would lessons , the worse thing you can do though is to restrict after a binge , hard though it may be you need to eat as normal . it may be helpful if you had a meal plan wrote out if you are struggling with this post in the what did you eat forum where you can gain the supoport you need h x