Anorexia relapse. Help.

Title basically says it all. I've been dealing with a lot of drama and stress lately and today I ate very little. Those thoughts of inadquecy and making myself good enough are moving out of the shadows. All my problems seem to lead back to this girl who I care about very deeply. I just always seem to get this idea that I need to improve myself to be with her.

This might sound trite, but if she doesn't appreciate you for who you are, she's not worth it.  You might never feel "good" with her.  I of course don't know your situation though.

Cut yourself some slack and step back from the drama so you can do what you need to to take care of yourself.  Try to give yourself some quiet space so you can eat without cycling through the stresses.

I think everyone has both tendencies of feeling inadequate and feeling confident.  We have to choose to follow the confident messages.  The potential to feel inadequate doesn't really go away, but I don't think it's supposed to.

We're humans, and have to learn to strike balances (such as being aware of our flaws, and working to better the ones we can, but not getting down about them.)

I think this is better for us, and actually it is more attractive to others as well!

I hope something here helps.  Keep your chin up~

How old are you, hun? Just wondering. If I remember right you're still pretty young, and honestly, regardless of age - you should never have to change yourself to conform for someone else. You are you and if she can't be happy with that then she's not right for you. If you're young as I recall, you have a life ahead of you to meet more girls that'll accept you for who you are in the here and now. :]

But you need to be well enough to face that future, and undereating won't give you that! Though, one day's slip is just that: one day. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and man up to yourself. You can put this right with a tasty breakfast (or a mid-morning snack/lunch... I'm not sure when you'll see this!) and a self-applied kick in the rear. Don't feel ashamed, inadequete, "not good enough". If all else fails, do you have a team you've worked with in recovery? Or a parent or friend you can talk to? Sometimes it really helps to get all those feelings of lack of worth out in the air so they're out of you and gone, to help you move on.

Importantly, though, you have to eat. You can fight this demon off. [:

You are worthy of recovery. What did you learn from this relapse?

I know how this feels, and it's basically the root of my ED too, it's when I feel like a failure and don't deserve food. I had a slight relape a few weeks ago, and it was the worst i've been since starting recovery last december. I didn't eat much all day, and it had nothing to do with feeling fat or thin, I don't want to lose weight but that day I simply didn't care because I didn't think I was worthwhile anyways.

But I also still had in the back of my mind, as I'm sure you do, that rational side htat knows you deserve to be healthy. I went home and ate dinner with my brother, I wanted to talk to my mom about it too. And I did admit to my mom that I had had a lot of trouble eating again but when it came to exlaining to her my reasoning I coudnt do it. I broke down into tears when she told me she loved me, and couldnt explan to her that I didn't consider myself worthy of feeding myself. I can only imagine how much that would hurt for her to hear that the daughter she loves more than anything feels this way about herself.

So I know this all sounds so negative, but it did help me to realize how others would feel when admitting to this, and to know that they would feel this way because they do love and care about me and want only the best for me. Try to put it in this perspective, this girl might not be right for you, or may not realize it, but i can assure you she also does not want you to be unhealthy. And either way you DO deserve to be healthy! think about all theother people you have in your life that love you, your famly, your friends, they all want you to be happy and all know what a wonderful person you are, so treat yourself as such!

I'm sorry you've been feeling this way--stress & anxiety definitely seems to be a trigger for people with eating disorders and I've had to deal with it myself as well.  (Especially now that the holidays are upon us--things are just so rushed these days that there is no time for rest & relaxation or time to eat properly).  My suggestion is to take a step back from the drama & stress that is currently going on in your life and take some time out for yourself.  Try to eat something every 3 hours to fuel your body/mind--plus, you will be going against those damned "eating disorder thoughts" and making yourself stronger.  Your health is much more important right now than anything else and you ARE worthy of a full recovery.  Good luck