anxiety...

SO I'm super excited, I'm going to be interning at Disneyworld starting next week.  I cannot wait, but I'm super nervous esp. since the ED. I know I shouldn't let it bother me, but Im so scared what everyone is going to think of me esp. since I've gotten so skinny.  I mean I know they prob. don't know what I'm going through and that I'm trying to gain since they didn't see me before the disorder, but I still tend to be crazy in any aspect revolving food.  I've become extremely health conscious (I really do want to gain weight the healthy way not just stuffing my face with candy and fried food) and I get anxious when having to go out to eat or eating fast food and I'm pretty sure that most of the college students and co-workers are probably the opposite.  I wish I didn't care and could just go and enjoy myself.  Any advice? I hate living like this and thinking about every meal and worrying that if I indulge I will gain tons of weight.

sorry just needed to rant a bit to people that probably understand.

My suggestion is to treat this as an opportunity to be the 'new you'.   The confident person that you'd like to be and not the anxious person you describe.   As you say, your new colleagues don't know your history and they don't know you're trying to gain weight.  So if you act normally, eat well and don't tell anyone about your problems.... they will take you at face value and treat you just like everyone else.

Have confidence.  I'm sure you'll be just fine.