anyone else have a bad day...or two?

yesterday I ate so much I had around 4000 calories.
today I did really good day until about 15 minutes ago (8:00pm)

I was at 1280 calories and I binged and now I have ended at 2650 :(

I feel like I will never get to my goal weight at this rate when I binge, I binge bad.

What set you off on your binge?

How were you feeling?

Were you really hungry?

Did you eat enough fruits, veggies, carbs and protein today?

Drink enough water?

welllllll this us what my day looked like

breakfast
piece of flax toast with almond butter
yogurt
cup of coffee with skim milk

snack
bowl of organic cereal with skim

lunch
cucumeber and carrot with low cal dip
bowl of soup
1/2 a grilled cheese sandwhich

snack
another bowl of soup

dinner
chicken breast
steamed peas, beans, broccoli
1/2 cup rice

dessert
1/2 cup fat free gelato

and after all that I binged on the cookies.

yep.....had those days.....just pick your self up and the next day work harder and your food log and work out

i had two bad inge andpurge days in a row!!! errrrrr

lost control, had a great day. had a nice dinner of a salad on baby spinach with a nice piece of grilled salmon. lots of water. then had 7 oz of ice cream (not even remotely light) and tried to purge despite my BEST efforts not to. the ice cream would not come up. so i stopped. i need to stop. at least it wasnt a binge....

 

we are all gonna fail sometimes. gotta keep tryin tho 

Oink420 don't hate me for saying this, but if you were trying *that* hard to get it back up, that wasn't your BEST effort not to. Trust me. If you're really trying not to purge and it erm, gurgles out, that's one thing, but if it just doesn't happen and you're trying to force it, that's not enough resistance. You're better than this, girl. You've beaten it before, and you can do it again. I believe in you!

 

Same for the rest of ya'll. I've had a bad couple of days too but you know what? We can all rebound. We can all come back. We can all make it through this rough patch and come out stronger on the other side. We can.  

torpidire...it was so hard to erase all the talley marks on my dry erase board. but at least it wasnt a BINGE purge, just a purge. ew did i just say that. its so stupid, i could have kept the calories in me and been nourished and healthy but i just couldnt do it. i was going to live in a single next year and be an RA for the free housing but I am not doing it now...thugh financially I need to, i honestly cant have that much freedom...i'll do it all the time i think. i never did this until college, and i think i'd make it worse

I did. I ate fine all day then I all went horribly downhill when I went out to Max & Erma's with my theater friends after our show tonight.  I was pretty hungry though, because this was around 10 and I hadn't eaten since 4:30.

breakfast:
pecan pancakes with a little maple syrup, half an orange, coffee

lunch:
hummus, spinach, and cheese in a whole wheat wrap, banana

snack:
walnuts

dinner:
beef & vegetable soup

snack/meal?
potstickers, soft pretzel sticks & queso dip, black bean roll-ups, fruit smoothie

I just feel so disgusting after eating all that extra stuff.  Honestly I could have probably just had the smoothie and been fine with that.  And I never have binge meals like this, I don't know what happened.  Oh well.  All I can do is forget about it and eat really healthy tomorrow.  This is so frustrating for me because I know I am supposed to be recovering from disordered eating, but then this happens and I freak out and think I'm going to become fat again.  Which is stupid.  I hate this back-and-forth internal battle I'm constantly fighting.  I wish I could just eat normally like I used to.

Hi there oink420 and kellybb. As a moderator I have to let you know that we cannot support those who are unwilling to get help for their disordered eating behaviours - including binging and purging.

Since you are admitting that you are trying to purge or are successfully purging I recommend you seek help from a professional or from a parent, school nurse, counselor etc.

It is obvious you have a problem which is too difficult to tackle alone, and unless you are actively trying to recover your posts are against the spirit of Calorie Count.

As far as links you can look at, and this goes for everyone, check out the Calorie Count Eating Disorders Guide for a start. Also the about.com section on eating disorders, the Eating Disorders Resource thread.