ate like 1400 IN ! HR: BUT NOT A BINGE

Hi so i have been dealing with binging since trying to recover.  it is basically any night i am left alone,  sometimes when my boyfriend is there but he can get me back some controll,  its one reason i dont like to be alone now, or i just dont keep much food in the house....but this weekend i am visiting family and they had an engagment last night so i was home alone,  i ate tons o thier food! they know i am recovering so i dont hink they will mind.  and all of it from the fallafel to the maybe 1000 cals of sweets and breads, my fav things.  i was totally in control i wanted everything i ate and it was so tasty,  if i ever ate that much in the past i would have hd a real full on hurt myself panic attack,  but i did not i just took a bath, while eating candy and went to sleep and woke up and i think i will go make breakfest.  I need desperatly to learn how to eat correctly so i am not in a binge restrict zone but last nite was great and i am only here 2 nights so i dont think it will effect me much.  oh ya and this was after a 10 hr train ride so i had no exersize, nothing that day wow.  hoped i gained a lb!

I think that's a good thing, bobo! I myself had an MM ice cream cookie sandwhich yesterday while yelling at my ED to shut up. It was so good and I am glad I had it. Now I know what it tastes like and I can say, eh it was great once, but I won't binge on it. No food is worth it. What helps is if you trust your body's hunger signals a little, my nut says. She says that if I ate more during the day, I wouldn't be so hungry at night. I used to eat more than a thousand calories every night studying because during the day I would severely restrict. Trust me, it's nice to eat, but nicer to eat when you are hungry and not totally bloated. I am trying out her advice. Wish me luck. Yesterday went ok, so may today will, too!

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today i had a massive breakfest , shared a pizza for lunch with salmon, shrimps and cheese and tonight....they offered dessert because i will visit my great aunt today and i will have to eat anything she offers me....which could be god knows what. but i will do it because she is old and it will make her happy. and i will feel no guilt and hopefully will have a light dinner, but if i eat a whole bunch again....i will be ok with that too. For some reason when i travel, if for a short trip my ed takes a holiday also.

I just realized i am writing from a diffrent computer and my spellings even worse then usual because some of the keys are sticking so thanks for putting up with my crazy spelling post

hey! i think that is awesome that you did that! so what if for a few days you ate the way you wanted to. thats what normal ppl do and they can because they stop when theyre full and their metabolism adapts to that. im recovering too and i notice that when i go on vacation once and a while my ED takes a little break. like over the summer i went to my cousins cape cod house for 2 days and we went out for icecream both nights. i got a regular sized full fat icecream both nights in a chocolate covered waffle cone (!). it was so good and im glad i didnt give myself enough time to think about it too much. haha sorry if im rambling on but anyway i just wanted to say that that is awesome and that we will recover!