Becoming More Aware Of Your Weight

I'm not just talking about being too large - I'm talking about recognizing what you really are.

The other day I was looking through old pictures of myself and I saw one dated 2 or 3 years ago. I was so small! I couldn't believe it. I realized that the way I feel now - unattractive and overweight - is how I felt THEN. I was too blind to see that I was healthy and completely fine. I was so insecure that I feel it partly led me to where I am today, truly overweight (not just my imagination).

I was looking through posts of a group on this site and there were so many of women who were anywhere from 120 - 130 pounds, complaining about getting to their goal weight, worrying about a wedding they had to attend and look nice at, and other things like that. Don't get me wrong, if you feel healthier at a lower weight, then go for it.

But I hope for myself that when I reach the size I want to be, I'll recognize it.

What do you guys think? Do you believe that you are aware, in all reality, of your weight?

Well, Ive been obese since early childhood, but I know that looking back on my life so far I definately wish that my weight hadnt effected me so much.  Sometimes I worry that when I do get to my goal weight that I will be a little bit lost because I have literally spent my entire life battling obesity, so I wont actually know how to function as a person who doesnt need to lose weight.    I feel bad for people in the 120s and 130s who are as miserable as I was back when I was at 250.  I hope that Im not that way when i get smaller.  Im like you, I want to recognize when I am healthy, so that I can truly be happy.

I went from 150 to 120 and am now maintaining. Sadly, I am one of those people who does not appreciate being at their goal weight to the extent that I should. I thought that when I lost 30 lbs the insecurity would go away but it hasn't. It's pretty internal and is something I am working on.

I'm 5'6" at 138lbs. I don't have a goal weight - I'm just trying to get rid of the extra fat on my body...such as my love handles, gut, and big thighs. I know I'm not fat so I don't stress too much about losing the extra weight, but it would be nice to not have love handles anymore. I'll know when I've hit my goal weight - it doesn't have to be a certain number. 

You are soooo right!!! When I was at 132 @ 5'7, I was taking GNC Fen Fen because I wanted to get below 130.  I am guilty of always comparing myself to someone else.  Great post.

I have always been challenged with my weight, its a constant yo-yo but I have realized that I can never stop "dieting". I need to always keep an eye on my weight and what I eat and drink. Good luck in your challenge

Always had a complex about my image, ever since the 7th grade when some girl inn my class pointed out that I had chipmunk cheeks (she was a *****, popular, thin, etc), well shes since then borderline obese... she got hers in the end. 

Anyway never was I overweight, 5'9 highest weight was 145lbs.  But in the past year I started greatly restricting calories and dropped my weight to 117lbs, probably lower, because I weighed myself after a meal and a lot of liquids...  Never really realized how gross I looked being skinny, because I wanted the gaunt face look, but I looked horrible compared to pictures from highschool and whatnot. 

Worst decision of my life to start dieting/develope an ED...  Worse then my decision to start smoking, worse then anything.  Fortunatly I found CC and a few very special, knowledgable individuals on here that care and have helped me with weight gain.

So yes, I am aware of my weight now.  I wasn't aware for the past 8months up till march, but I am now.

body dysmorphia, to some degree or another, is rampant in the world today. myself included amongst the guilty..

osainto, I think that's amazing that you were able to overcome the wrong perceptions about your body. It makes me sad to think that that the mean words of a classmate perpetuated the complex when you were a kid.

For me, I think maybe the wrong ideas about my weight started when I was around 13. I was 130 pounds and around a size 5 and asked my mom if my weight was normal and I remember her saying that I was probably a little overweight.

Now, 50 pounds heavier, I feel really sad that I never realized that she was wrong. I love my mother and she's a great person, but she's always been iffy about my weight.

Anyway, I find your story inspirational.

this is seriously so true. why do we do this? last year i was around 115-118, which was higher than my usual 110, and i remember thinking to myself, if only i was 110 again....anyway, i've healthfully gotten back down to 110 and now am still looking to lose a few vanity lbs. its like theres always something you think you can improve. its more of a self image problem than any type of weight problem. im 5'2 by the way. i pretty sure 110 is my happy setpoint kind of weight, i pretty much eat what i want as long as i work out and can stay there as long as i dont overdo it. but you know, why cant i just accept this and appreciate it and move on? i feel like theres alot of pressure being a woman in our society. we're not "supposed" to be too fat, too thin, too muscular, too flabby. its obnoxious really. and who is to tell us what we are "supposed" to be? i struggle with this all the time. its difficult to truly love yourself i think. even people who we think are perfect, models, movie stars, friends etc. think there is something wrong with their body that they would like to change. but im really trying to learn to accept myself for me appreciate it!

Rikaj, I'm sure that you are a really beautiful and 110 is a great weight to be at. The best way to stick it to our stupid society is to refuse to change anymore =)