Binge...again.

Once again,
I binged.
And I know alot of people don't want to hear this but...
I simply need to type it here so that I can feel 0.01% better than how I am feeling right now.
Okay so today, I came home from school, and found out that no one was in the house.
Just me and myself.
So I told myself to get one little low-calorie snack,
so I started looking through all the cupboards for those low-calorie snacks.
And I found a box of whole wheat crackers (6 crackers=100calories)
And then I found a small mars bar.
So I took it to the living room and starting eating, thinking that I will not binge!
But then,
I just stood up right after finishing like, 12 crackers, and that mars bar,
and then I went to put peanut butter on other crackers.
And then I ate the whole box with peanut butter and processed cheese on each cracker.
AFTER, I made two pieces of toast and put a whole lot of peanut butter on each one.
Then I started eating vanilla ice cream right out of the box.
And after like 7 big spoonfuls, I got a sugarcone and stuffed the ice cream inside the cone.
Then I ate it all, and my stomache was hurting and bloating!
But I couldn't stop at all!!
And then after,
I ate around 5 more large spoonfuls of ice cream and put the rest bit back in the refrigerator.
Then I started eating the Post cereal with blueberries and almonds in it out of the box, and I finished half the box.
Then I ate around 2cups of plain rice and tofu.
I think I want to die now.

Like right now, my stomache is 10 times larger than normal.
And it looks like I'm pregnant.
And I feel so bloated, yet I can't even vomit.
And I can't even sit properly without shivering.
Helphelphelp!

Feel free to type whatever you wish!

Tis a forum after all!

Try your best to be  kind with yourself,

binging is an easy pitfal l, I had about a

month of it!

Getting up after a fall can prove to

be a spark for long term success, ya' know?

I feel sad for you b ecause I know

how bad the guilt feels&n bsp;but don't puke.

Try listening to some music, that proves

helpful for me. Make sure  it is something

uplifting!

Feel better! Life is grea t! 

Gotta look out for yourse lf,

body and mind.

Not one without the other ! 

 

Ugh!
I feel worse than the last time I binged.

hey, i binged today too. :(

• 1/2 cup fiber 1
• 5 mini coffee crisps
• chocolate almond bark
• 6 tablespoons of peanut butter
• a packet of DRY oats
• a couple grapes
• half a block of brie cheese
• 4 turkey pepperettes

and even right now, i'm contemplating whether to go get some more peanut butter or not. i've already effed myself over today, might as well enjoy it.

no erica! :( dont get up and get more!

it won't make you feel better...remember that

we have to fight this binging together
im trying to make yesterday my last binge ever
and your binge today is not as bad as mine was yet... you can stop it now!

 

that's what i always think when i binge
"im already f--ed over, i might as well eat everything i want and crave right now and enjoy myself since tomorrow im starting over and wont eat anything i crave"
but after i finished off all my mounds bars yesterday (my favorite candy bar...now all gone) i did NOT enjoy it

we CAN beat binging! 

t_rexia:
Your binge is alot healthier than mine!
I had like NO fresh fruits.

I think binging can feel god-awful... the guilt is horrendous. but I love the fact that every day is a new day. it sounds corny but if you think about it, it can be a real relief. look. maybe you slip up big time. but when the clock strikes midnight it's a new day. the calorie count goes back to Zero and you get another try at hitting your calorie goal. mostly, I think it's important to focus on what you're going for. not what you've done. you won't stop feeling bad by focusing on how much you've binged. you'll only feel better by focusing on moving forward.

binging is a huge problem for a lot of us. I have done the EXACT same thing you did yesterday - standing there at the fridge and observing that I have NO CONTROL over the fact that my hand keeps digging in the leftovers and stuffing my mouth so quickly that I can hardly swallow before I shovel another handful in. I don't know what that happens (I'm sure there's a giant psychological evaluation that's got my name on it sometime in the future!) but I *do* know that the "be kind to yourself" suggestion is the best one I have heard today! I know because it works. I've been through it.

you'll learn self control sooner or later. for now just be kind to yourself. And remember. Today is a brand new day - what you did yesterday doesn't count anymore. 

I too find myself binging all the time.  I've been yo-yo-ing for quite a bit now.  I'll lose like 7lbs and then gain it all back or more.  As soon as I get home, I go right to the fridge or cupboard.  It doesn't matter if I'm hungry or not.  It's such a struggle to stop this.  I really appreciate you guys talking about it.  I know I"m not alone on this binge thing.  I try to talk about it to my boyfriend but he says to "just stop."  Easier said than done.  It's like your stomach takes over and makes you this ravenous person.  I'm trying to teach myself to just stop and think before the bingeing thing, but ugh!  I like food damnit!!!  I eat whether I like it or not.  I'm the type of person that if I get to a point where I"m starving, I'm the most crazy person you've met.  My friends and family can't stand my mood swing when I don't eat.  That's another battle to try to control.  Anyways, thanks for letting me vent!

I think what we want is a food that is really satisfying, I bought some frozen berries they are kind of hard to eat it take a minute to eat each one and the whole bag is 300 calories so I just eat berries next time I want to binge, I'll tell you if it works

 

read this article.  It might help

Mindful Eating

That article was great! Thanks so much for pointing us toward it. I took a class this semester that touched on mindfulness, not just in eating, but life in general. That really put it in perspective. Definitely going to try that out at my next meal! 

i know exactly how you feel and i know its the worst feeling ever ever ever ever. i even didnt get out of bed to go to my lecture today because i was so disgusted from my binge last night. its a horrid horrid horrid disease.

Thanks for all your support!
I'm trying the elastic technique right now.
And I'm like so close to binging again :(

I'm a really big fan of keeping the food in the kitchen and moving to another room to eat.  Also putting food into civilized bowls or plates and using utensils to eat instead of just going straight from the bag.  I try to do this all the time and it has cut down on some of my mindless grazing.

I find that putting food into the proper portions...although veggies don't count for me because they are low in calories I really need all the vitamins and nutrients they have...and putting them away all ready for whatever meal I'm going to eat them for is the smart thing to do.  Cook a pizza? Cut it up and store what you're not eating in one portion ziplocks, you might go back for another portion, but you'll be slower going for a third or a fourth...that is if you cook one large enough to have 3rd and 4th portions.

I do not buy the mini peanut butter cups from Trader Joe's.  I absolutely love them and will eat half or the entire container in one sitting...I could try getting them and portioning them out, but it is my major weakness so I don't think I'll push myself just yet, perhaps after I've reached my goal weight. 

Ok, I know it sucks that you binged and felt like crap.  Been there. 

One thing stuck out to me from your first post: you took your initial snack out of the kitchen to eat it.  I think that was really smart of you, and I think it shows that you're enough in control that you're going to be able to find strategies that work for you. So don't be discouraged, you CAN beat this.

Being alone in the house was always a trigger for me too. It helped to plan an after school snack and pack it up in a box that I kept in my bedroom. Then I had no reason to go into the kitchen at all.  Of course, that kind of strategy works best if the snack is something you genuinely like, but not something (like a Mars bar) that's going to make you want more.  

now that i think about it
being alone is a huge thing when i binge

i never binge when there's people around...or if im at home, i'll sneak food up to my room and binge there

right now im trying a new strategy...im going to purposely make sure im around someone everytime i eat anything. even a grape!

today, my mom went grocery shopping before dinner and i was alone in the house for like an hour! the urge to binge started to come on and i was starting to get scared, because if i gave in i would lose control
so while i still had some control over myself, i dragged myself to the bathroom and took a nice, looooooooong hot shower.

by the time i was done, my mom and dad were both home and they had dinner with them, so i ate dinner...and that was that. (whew)