Binge Eating...

  I'm 15, I started watching what I was eating in grade 5.  I can't remeber the last time I have felt comfortable in my own skin.  My weight has gone up and down and back up 25 lbs over the last year and a half.  I'm just so sick of it; sick of everything.  I can never eat normally.  It scemes every night I write out a new diet plan only to "cheat" and binge for the rest of the day.  There is no real meaning to this post, its more of a rant.  I just wish I could be like I was when I was a little girl again; happy and free.

I can TOTALLY relate. I've been on diets all my life. My weight has yo-yoed from 112lbs-165-110-140-126 now. I've had every ED going over about 7 years. I binge uncontrollably and then try and starve mysedlf to compensate-I've always binged but it just seems to get worse and worse. I feel disgusted and ashamed almost every time I eat and I hate what I see in the mirror. I'm 18 now and I'm so scared I'm going to be like this for the rest of my life. No one has a clue because I'm so happy and bubbly on the outside but inside I feel so weak and broken and when your a healthy weight no one suspects you have any problems with food.

What I would say to you is that you don't want to let this ruin your life for another three years until you're 18 like me. I wish I had tackled the problem earlier- it seems like some of the best years of my life have been wasted. I'm working towards changing that now. Please talk to someone a friend/family member/doctor if you can it sounds like your depressed and may need some help with that. I'm sure you're a beautiful person on both the inside and out but I know you won't believe that so you need to confide in those you can trust to convince you. At only 15 your too young to cope with this by yourself (sorry if I sound a bit patronising I don't mean to its just I remember at that age how fragile I was).

I hope you can work towards getting better, if you'd like to talk please msg me.

All the best x

I completely relate. It happens with me. It's why I've started a new account. because i was so ashamed of my lack of progress.

What my aunt, who used to struggle with this, recommended was that you tie a bit of ribbon around your wrist, and everytime you reach for something that ribbon is there in front of you to remind you. I'm starting this tomorrow because I can't always have my diary or motivational photos with me.

I can relate as well.. dieting should not be restricted and unpleasant! Going on a diet means showing the world your level of discipline - have fun AND be healthy at the same time. :D

Binging will only make matters worse. If you are craving a certain kind of food, eat it! In moderation, of course. By doing this, your body will not develop the urge to overeat.