binge-free challenge, anyone?

So I've got into a pattern of binging once a week.  In order to avoid falling back to be emotinoal eater, I'm gonna kick binges for good.  I know some of you out there are binging even more often, say by keep track of each other's eating habit, we can really help each other out.

Just got a chance to read back through the posts from the last few days.   Mom-Kyra...  You WILL do this.  Sucks to take some steps backwards but as long as there are more forward steps than backwards steps...well that is all you can hope for.    I wish you would start journaling!  I keep checking to see if you have started....    I am much better at keeping up with my CC friends who journal as I check out their journals several times a week.... I have found it to be an excellent support system for me.

Awmsbailey! WHOO HOOO DAY 8!  That is so good!   How are you feeling?    

Unknown   Not quite sure how to "join"  but what I just did was start posting how many days in a row I have been binge free.  And I get lots of support from the ladies here. They are the best!    Also, different people have different ideas about what constitutes an actual "binge"   For me, it is about out-of-control eating, mindless eating.  But it is different for everyone.  Some go by the number of calories consumed and I think others may even go by the bulk (volume) of what they ate to decide if it was a binge or not.

for some reason, i keep saying to myself 'today im gonna go to mcdonalds and get that new sandwich" or make some weird thing up in my mind that im gonna eat something bad but the good news is that i havnt been following up on it. i actually did go to mcdonalds to get an iced coffee but it was so gross that i dont think id be tempted to go back.


i have done well so far today.......and it helps that its hot out and seeing girls with shorts. lol, im in jeans and a zip up sweatshirt. i totally need to lose weight if im gonna feel comfortable in any summer clothes =/

I am doing good, but would be better without killer allergies/cold?! I am trying to talk my lazy butt into waking my son up and going for a stroll around the neighborhood. I am just in lazy mode today though! I have no appetite either, which is a plus for my situation. I feel okay though other than all of that. And I do *promise* to myself and all of you that I will get out and walk even if I feel sick! :) I better get out there soon, so I will have to hit this topic up later and give you girls some motivation!

*Amber*

Hey, I am totally back on track now that I have thrown out both the scale and tape measure.  Before I did, I had lost 7 inches.  I feel really good for the first time in a while.  I am enjoying this food log soo much and the activity points.  I am soo thankful God pointed me in this direction it has really helped in changing my mind about food, diets and weight!  

I agree with you tully! I have always had to go through weight loss alone and when I wasnt motivated then no one motivated me and I just felt hopeless and alone! I was "on my last leg" when I walked tonight because it was hotter out and I am sick, but I thought of all you girls and I smiled and picked up my pace! It was like you all were cheering me on and it was motivating! :)

*Amber*

I guess this last week is about my demons showing their ugly heads.  Sorry to say, but I have binged again.  This whole last week has been a hit or miss.  I am going through some personal changes with relationships and I think that could be triggering this.  I am aware of my situation and am aware that I am just giving into my flesh instead of even thinking about it.  So, tomorrow is a new week and I am committing to 7 days free of binging.  When I put a time slot on it, I seem to do better.  Thanks for letting me rant. 

Ok, it is a great day her in Jersey. I drove to work this morning with the top down.  I am not going to binge today.  It has been 3 days.  I know i can keep it up.  Monday Monday. This is almost as tough as the weekend, but hopefully the great weather will be a good motivator for us.

Okay, I'm back.  It's been a busy weekend but I am, as they say, back on the wagon.  On Friday night a guy took me to what is considered to be the best Indian restaurant in San Francisco and I did indulge there (not indulging in that kind of food is a crime against nature).  Still, because I've been true to my diet on all other occasions I have managed to maintain with my weight only fluctuating 2 lbs (up and down) over the last two weeks.  That's pretty impressive considering I did binge that one day and I'm now at the tail end of PMSing (I'm due tomorrow). 

So I'm not crying anymore and my ability to pull it together is largely due to this board.  A friend and fellow author recently revealed that after being bulimic on and off for a decade she has now permanently damaged her stomach lining.  She is in chronic pain and her condition could end up being fatal ten to twenty years down the line.  Considering that she's only in her mid-thirties, that's really awful.  I keep thinking about all those years she suffered silently with no one knowing what was going on with her.  It goes to show how important it is that people with an eating disorder find other people to talk to about it.  I feel proud of myself for becoming part of this board and in my opinion everyone here should feel proud of themselves too.  Just addressing this is a huge thing. 

I am glad you are back, you had me worried! :) I am on the wagon, but its hard right now for me to find a healthy medium between not binging and eating enough. It is weird to be in between the two, but here I am. I haven't binged yet, and I am on Day 11 or 12 - not sure. Well, I hope your friend will be okay, and I am sorry to hear about her story. And I am glad they caught her condition before something worse happened.

Day 2

I know what it's like awmsbailey....I either binge or not eat enough.  Consistantly, when I try to not binge I go too far and eat too few calories.  I dunno what the hell is wrong with me.

Anyway, day 2 no binge!!

:)

I know what it's like awmsbailey....I either binge or not eat enough.  Consistantly, when I try to not binge I go too far and eat too few calories.  I dunno what the hell is wrong with me.

Anyway, day 2 no binge!!

:)

I feel the same way, "stuck". I think Ive killed my metabolism too. I havent lost ONE pound and Im on Day 12, been really good even getting my exercise and everything. I am gonna eat more cals today, but hopefully not trigger myself to binge. I hope I can do that! :(  

Geez, today is TOUGH!  I have such a HUGE urge to binge.  I'm PMSing but that's only playing a small part in this.  I'm waiting to hear back from my agent about how my last book proposal is being received.  He's been hard to reach which does not bode well for me.  On the other hand, it doesn't necessarily mean all is lost.  I've learned that with this agent he will sometimes put me off if he thinks he's going to get some kind of news one way or the other within the next day or so.  But still, if it was great news he would have emailed me or returned my call (which I placed a few hours ago).  Like Tully said, not knowing is the WORST.  I keep gravitating toward the refrigerator and yanking myself away in the nick of time.  I scheduled my work-out (a long one) in the middle of the afternoon so I would be unable to binge if I either didn't hear from him by then or if I had heard from him and been unhappy.  But now the work-out's done so I need to move on to the next strategy.

I think what I'll do is take my laptop to a cafe and work on a script to submit to a film agent.  That way if my literary agent DOES call back and tell me that the editor passed or is offering me some insanely low amount of money I'll at least feel like I have another iron in the fire.

Thank God I don't have a lot of snack food in the house right now or I'd really be in big trouble.

day 3

Aw, good job Tully keep it up! :)

haven't been on here in ages, and haven't binged in 5 weeks now, which is absolutely phenomenal if I do say so myself.  The counselling has definitely helped partly I think due to getting the 'ugly little secret' out and also finding out why I was binging.  I have a healthier attitude towards food also.  So it is possible to get out of the cycle, there is something that works for everyone.  It's just finding what works for you personally.

Tankgirl,

What do you talk about in counselling?  I have been thinking about doing that myself...

18 days binge-free and counting...

tankgirl, I couldn't agree more. Opening up here and letting that dark secret out is absolutely what helped me get to where I am right now. After I reached out on this forum, it was also easier to talk about the problem with a friend. Now that other people know, I feel like I don't have to deal with it all by myself, and that has seemed to shrink the hold of the terrible binges on my life. I mean, I didn't have 200 or even 500 calorie binges, they were 2,000-5,000! Making myself completely ill and feeling the effects for days.

Now, since it's been almost 3 weeks since the last one, I'm finally seeing the results of all the good that I do during the week (I was pretty much only a weekend binger). So, it's paying off in many different ways. Thanks again to everyone here...and here's to another day of heathy choices.

Shayna, we talk about what ever but at the first session she had me run thru sort of a 'life history in brief' so she could kind of get an idea about me and asked probing questions from there.  Then at later sessions we talked about ways to deal with food and how to deal with the feelings which cause me to binge and what I can do if I am thinking about binging, sort of distraction techniques I guess.  I assume it would vary dependant upon the counsellor one goes to.  Now we talk about how I am managing and are working on some other issues which came out thru our other discussion which sort of tie in with the binging.  As the binging is the symptom or reaction and we are working on the why, if that makes any sense.