i just binged for bfast! HELP ME!

i am recovering from undereating for the month of march.. 2 weeks ago i started eating my maintenance, and i feel so much stronger.. but idk what happened, i had 2-3 binge sessions this week. :( why do i feel so famished? and i cant control my eating. i always feel hungry that i ended up eating a lot in one sitting, even though i have between meal snacks.

here's the thing, 2 days ago, i binged on tuna spring rolls, and had a total of 2500 cals that day, without exercise, so i'm about 800 cals above maintenance (i'm 18, 153 cm tall, 95 lbs).. then yesterday, i ate 1600, and exercised for 30 mins cardio. i had a good day yesterday, very healthy one. BUT today, first thing in the morning, i just binged on bread, 2 choco-cheese bread, which i guesstimated to be about 400 cals each since i think it weighs around 70g. not sure. plus i ate tuna spring rolls again, just one which is about 200 cals.  so that's 1000 cals for bfast. T_T and the bad thing? my stomach hurts.

idk why do i have such uncontrollable urges to binge nowadays, i didnt really do it for the sake of binging but i was really hungry.

i feel like i gained a lot of weight already, i'm not sure though coz i don't have my scale now. i just measured up my waist and other parts to see any changes, and i don't think there is any but i look fatty around my waist... i'm just so lost right now. i want to get back on track.. i just have no idea how to stop this. so horrible :(

First of all, are you sure that you've updated your burn meter now that you are in maintenance?  Putting in the proper information about yourself and activity levels is crucial to getting an accurate snap shop of how many calories you need to eat a day.  And since you are in maintenance...you want to be hitting close to that goal, not creating a deficit.

Cravings for food are often side effects of the kinds of foods we eat.  You may be eating the right amount of calories each day, but take a look at the food you're actually consuming...you need protein, high fiber carbs, and even fats for your body to 

---feel satisfied mentally

---fuel up properly

---ensure the absorption of fat soluble vitamins

---and keep hunger pangs and cravings at bay, longer.

I used to be the same way.  Except when I binged I wasn't hungry and I'd eat until feeling sick.  I know the feeling of being out of control and wanting to get on track.

The way I stopped was two things.  I realized I wasn't eating enough calories and when I started eating more HEALTHY calories the cravings and the need to binge soon stopped.  Calorie count told me to eat about 1200 calories but with the high intensity workouts I do that wasn't enough.  I now eat 1600 (weight x 12) and I am still dropping lbs.  Also, factor in foods you enjoy eating.  If breakfast is your thing and you normally feel hungry in the morning eat a little more at the meal and make it okay to do so.  And drink a lot of water.  I drink a ton of that crystal light type stuff (except it isn't crystal light because they use aspartame) and it makes me feel like I've had something sweet and I also don't feel so hungry.

Also..I found something that motivates me to be healthy and eat healthy and that seemed to put me in a better frame of mind whenever the urge came to binge on something.  I've still done it a couple times in the past month and a half but thats far better then before when it was every few days.

You'll stop don't worry.  Maybe your body is needing nutrients and the extra calories from undereating for that month.

maybe you're right. my body is still adjusting from the deficit and i think it just wants more fuel. but does it have to be really like this? i've been in control for the past months, i can resist overeating, but it seems like now, i lost all my self-control. it's so sad. and the guilt is killing me. i know i cant blame anyone but myself. :(