Bingeful Weekend

Ooookay so I had a binge yesterday. It was actually not very big (about 6000 calories), but still the largest binge I've had in about 2 months.

Because the entire 6000 calories was consumed in the space of only about 30 minutes it caused me a lot of pain (like my stomach was ripping or something) and I had to fight hard not to accidentally throw up. I would have kept eating but the food in my stomach was filled so high that it was blocking my throat and I couldn't physically swallow. My eyes were watering it hurt so bad.

20 minutes later the pain was not as bad and I started eating again.

This  sounds like it should have been a "bad experience", but I loved it. I think I loved it. I'm daydreaming about it now, and all morning I've been wishing it was yesterday again so I could feel that way again.

Since the pain obviously does nothing to discourage me, I'm hoping public embarrassment and accountability might help. That's why I'm posting this.

Somebody tell me to stop fantasizing about food and to go finish the homework that I've been procrastinating on!  :(

You know what to do - you just have to go do it. So, GET out of that kitchen, FEEL the pain of being without the taste of food, and go do your homework! It will be boring and not enjoyable, but the time will pass and after you finish your homework, or finish a certain aspect of it, it will feel MUCH BETTER then continuing to eat!

You have binged and you will already feel bad about that; that does not mean you should make it WORSE: JUST because you already feel bad, it will still make a HUGE DIFFERENCE if you stop NOW; if you keep eating for no reason and binging you will feel EVEN WORSE; if you stop now, it you prevent yourself from feeling MUCH worse.

Each time you manage to stop a binge only feels like a small action, but just think, the sooner you stop , the sooner these small actions will add up. The more times you can resist a binge the more motivation you will have to go do your home work because you will be on a “ roll”

Tasty food feels enjoyable and it is common for people to be addicted to the feeling of enjoyment that food provides. You must learn other ways to derive enough enjoyment so that you can stop depending on food.

I say learn because it is hard to get enjoyment from things other then food, for a lot of people! So you have to force yourself to do things you think you may like instead of using food and over time you may over come the intense urge to use food for enjoyment.

DAYUM! That WAS a binge!  And I felt bad last night about eating half a bag of honey mustard & onion pretzel pieces!  That brought me up to 1,750 calories for the day!  I vowed to do MUCH better today...and then ate 600 calories of polish sausage this evening when my neighbor invited me over for a fireside chat!  It's OK...it's OK...(and I'm saying this to BOTH of us)...because tomorrow is another day.  And today, I WILL stay on track!  And I know, so will YOU.   It's not how many times you fall down that makes the difference.  It's how many times you get back UP!

LOL, it is nice to see that I'm not the only crazy binger in love with food!  At least you did acknowledge it and make a post about it, I didn't even have the courage to log all the crap I ate this weekend, I'm sure it would hav by-passed your 6000 calories though!

Anyways STOP fantasizing about the food and FINISH your homework.  That will also make you feel better!  It really couldn't have been that great if you were in pain from it! 

I think this saying applies here....Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start over again! I think it has become more of a motto for me though.  I have very little self control and seem to do this every weekend