~~Bingers Anonymous~~

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

Hi, I was wondering if I could join as well?

I've been on CC for a couple of months now, and I've realized that I"m definitely a binger. I always thought that I had it in control... but I've failed miserably in the month of October, and don't think I can do it alone anymore.

October was just a series of binges and yesterday I was at my worst. I was stuffing my face from 5-7 pm. Went to a friend's house, ate chocolate (snickers, m&ms, twix) and chips ( which I haven't had in over 2 years), then I came back... and inhaled everything crunchy in my house - granola bars, crispers, crackers, asian stick snacks... the whole ten yards and more.

I promised myself that today would be in control... buit I don't know if I can keep that promise.

have fun at your gettogether united!

you're totally right about feeling deprived later if you don't eat with family. go out there, enjoy yourself and come back home happy and full. :)

what a weekend. i wouldn't say i had any binges but had so many different get togethers that i ate horrilbe.  i knew on friday this weekend would be packed so i did my work out plus an extra 3 mile run.  BF came over friday and wanted pizza, luckily i had will power and talked him into chicken stir fry, but he still brought some icecream, i had a few bites and turned the rest down. since i hate do eat infront of him i didn't over eat or binge that day. 

Saturday came and i made sure to work out extra hard, i took an areobics class and did a 30 min run/walk interval. the reason...i found my god mother who i haven't seen in about 20 years and she invited me on sat for lunch. she is mexican and the best cook ever....homemade Spanish rice, enchiladas, tortillas, beans, salsa, and bread pudding. Luckily she dished our plates and I only had a one enchilada, one tortilla, a scoop of beans and rice and a small piece of cake. Had I been alone, I would have devoured much more, but she sent home leftovers?.the only reason I haven?t eaten them is because that same night my BF had some family in town and we went out for dinner and my favorite Italian place. I was as good as I could be, steamed muscles in a white wine sauce on spaghetti with salad, but the bread?two pieces with butter!!  Again, the eating in front of people keeps me from overdoing it, but once again I have leftovers.  Today, day off from gym but BF makes eggs, oatmeal and apple-danish for breakfast. Luckily we went to a car show and walked around for 3 hours.  Then one last visit with the family?..I was starving, hadn?t eaten since 9am and now it is going on 4pm?Red Robin. Usually I do well, stay away from fries, since I don?t eat any fried foods but not today, I got a California Chicken burger minus bacon and mayo but ate it all and the fries included. I?m paying for it now, stomach cramps and all. 

So where am I going with this?.i have tons of leftovers, and I?m now home alone ready to dig in. But I really don?t want to, so I came to read some posts on CC and to post an email myself. I wrote everything because it is taking time and I hope with more time passing I will not go into that kitchen.  I?m actually in the bathroom on the floor with my laptop, it?s the farthest room from the kitchen.  I feel very guilty for what I ate this weekend and I haven?t even begun to try to log it in my food journal.  Part of me doesn?t care to know what the damage was and part of me panics not knowing.

Here is a question. Do you ever think that logging calories causes more anxiety than just having the binge or does it make you more accountable for your binge and therefore you think twice about the next binge?

Well, hopefully I will get through the night and start my week again?.good luck to all of you this week. Be strong!!!

I am here. I am desperately trying to eat healthily and not overdo it. I am so close to ttom and it is cold here. I want to eat everything in sight and then some. I managed to still have my pre-planned lunch today, but I ate some not very healthy snacks so I definately need to stick to my healthy dinner tonight. I am drinking a ton of water though and so far I could have done a lot worse. Plus I had minimal carbs for breakfast and lunch so I should be good to have my rice for dinner.

it's the people that are important, not the food. that's a great thing for me to remember, as it tends to be a problem...thanks united!

I've been popping in & out of this sight & reading all the post.  A big welcome to all the new people.  I have been really struggling lately, as I see several of you also have been.  I was wondering if it had anything to do with moving into fall.  I always hate to see winters come.  Lots of changes need to be made.  I can still walk outdoors, but its just not the same slogging through several inches of snow.  Winter already has its hold on us here in Alaska.  I always get a little down going into winters.  Once I've made all the changes (ie walking on the treadmill instead of walking outdoors, getting more used to the cold & shorter days) I can deal with it ok.  But sometimes making those transformations can be tough. 

I continue to fight those cravings for sugar! I have not been logging my food & that is a big mistake.  Seems I get tired/bored of doing it everyday - but, then start crazing like a cow and eating little bits of this & thats & the calories really add up.  For me, logging is a good way to stay on track.  It helps lots, but when those cravings start calling I do not always have the power to overcome them.

My goal for today & future days is just to really concentrate on my water intake.  I have been slacking with not enough water consumption.  If my belly is full of water, I don't hear the calling of the sugars as much.

Everyone ~ have a great day.

Hello all, I'm new here and just joined Monday. After deciding to try to lose the lbs once again, it's day 3 of my diet and I already binged last night. Ugh, the shame.

Thanks to having zero trick or treaters, I had 4 reese cups, and 2 kit kats. If that wasn't bad enough, late night, after dinner, I fixed myself another plate of rice and chicken stir-fry, plus another egg roll to top things off. :(

I honestly don't know why I did that. I just couldn't resist! I just logged all of that and it was horrible!

Oh well, I'll try again today. Does anyone else just feel the need to stray from your diet almost exclusively during the late night hours?

Hello Whitney and welcome!

I always seem to stray away the worst at night. I do so good during the day because I am around so many people. I do the worst with controling myself, when the kids are in bed and my husband is not home. It is very good that you are logging it. At least you can keep track of what your doing. You shouldnt feel bad, just look at it this way.....today is another day. It is a fresh beginnig and we will try to do better. I joined just a few weeks ago, and I have found lots of support  from this sight. If you feel a binge coming, run to your computer for support. There is always somone here to help you through it. I have made it through many bad nights by just logging on and chating with others. It helps keep me out of the kitchen. Keep your chin up.

hiii eeverybody, i tired sooo hard and became sooo motivated that i was gonna bing for 2 weeks! i set myself a date and everything! than lastnight i slept over at a friends house and woke up this morning (she left early) and found tons and tons of food i dont have in my house. at first it wasnt a bing, i was just not caring, but than it became into one... is this normal to have a really ruff time to stop it compeletly? i need to find the determination to stop it, and i need to find it quick. does anyone have any feed back, or tricks, or just anything?! i really wanna get better.

*note to what i just wrote above.. i ment to say NOT!!!!  to BING!!!!!!!!!

Oh GOOD - an area for me - this is what I did last night - I ate 8 miniature nestle bars, a reeses PB cup, a miniature 100 grand and a handful of candy corn.  I actually fell asleep with a half eaten bag of Runts on my nightstand.  Then I darted awake at about 4am thinking "WHAT did I do?" and feeling just awful about myself.  I have been so good - is it just self-sabotage, or is it something else?  I have posted my concerns under a different thread, but then found this one and decided BA is where I B-long!  I am going to try other's tips - making an effort to notice when I am satisfied - in theory it should be after just a few bites of something very sweet.  Also, there was tip on this thread about drinking a lot of water to try to head of a binge you feel coming on.  Anyway - glad I found this group!

Thanks for the support Wendi, I think you're right about controlling oneself when no one's looking, I think that's exactly my problem. It's so good to find people who understand. I successfully avoided another candy binge today, so I'm improving. It especially helps when I remember I have to log it all.

I think I will try this water and waiting trick too.

Have you guys ever read Geneen Roth's books?  She is pretty amazing and has personally battled her weight. She is also a contributor to Prevention magazine.  Anyway some good advice out there I thought I would share.

www.geneenroth.com

Welcome to all of our new friends!  Sorry I've been out of touch, I've been dealing with my medical situation and it has really gotten me down the past two weeks.  See journal entry if you want the details.  I'm also having knee surgery tomorrow, three days after getting off the ankle brace.

I have been completely out of control.  Mostly not quantity but definitely quality.  Somehow, I don't think getting in my daily calories from Hershey bars qualifies as healthy eating.  I am GOING to get back on track this weekend, but it's been really hard.  I'm struggling to find my motivation again, but I'm going to do it.  Please kick me very hard, several times a day to keep me on the straight and narrow!

egaad!!! Another binge! One huge "x" on the beginning of my november page too! grrr! Those halloween candies are the death of me. They just keep triggering new foods.

I think I'm in a junk food phase or something. A few weeks ago I was craving crunchy/crispy stuff. Then it was the chocolate phase (finished off a WHOLE package of those miniature Halloween candies just now) and right now I think I'm going to advance onto my pizza/hamburger stage... uh oh.

Darn, and when I was so good for 3 days. Bah humbug.

I don't mean to sound disrespectful or anything but I am wondering why people continue eating even when they are uncomfortably full?  Could someone please fill me in.  I am not saying this to sound arrogant or anything, I just have never experienced this before...one of the reasons may be cuz I am constantly hungry but I just find this very interesting.