~~Bingers Anonymous~~

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

Ok... don't know what it is, but the last 2 days I have been fighting the mad munchies BIG TIME.  I have done everything I can think of to ward them off, including drinking boocoo amounts of water (I think I've had about 10 8-oz of water today) and having low calorie snacks and so on and NOTHING is doing it... it's like my body is in CRAVE mode.  I keep drinking water hoping it will fill me up - nope.  I have a couple of pieces of toast - nope.  Had a pretty filling dinner and then 2 hours later I was looking for food again.  What gives??  Up til then I had been doing really good, not having much of a problem with the munchies and even my bingeing was (for the most part) under control.  But these last 2 days - if it isn't nailed down and edible, I want it!!  I've lost 20 lbs since I started the diet and I keep telling myself that I've done so good, don't blow it, and it's like my stomach and my appetite doesn't care - it wants FOOD!  Help.

willow, u think it's the remnants of T-day? I know I have been suddenly lax about my restraint on munchies, since a day after T-day, AND I am hungry a lot now. Perhaps the weather too... getting colder & colder. *slap my own face* whew! Gotta focus.... Think of what type of exercise you want to do tomorrow, and perhaps laid out a low-cal menu for tomorrow?
oh yeah, I was told that protein intake helps reduce hunger. I was hungry last night and literally my stomach grumble... that was only 2+ hrs after dinner. So I boiled some edamame (always keep tht handy in the freezer) and after finishing a handful, I was actually full. Didn't even finish the rest. May want to try that. Good luck and Hang in There!

Okay. I am a binger. The first step to recovery is admitting it, right? Okay, well, first step done.

Yesterday was my last day of binging.

From here on out, no more!

I seriously feel like crying. It's 1.38 am and I'm stuffed like a pig. I ate 3 bars of  chocolate at 12 when i wasn't even hungry. I've  been eating continuously throughout the whole day.

I really don't know what's gotten into me. I'm a whole 15 lbs heavier than I was a month ago. I totally broke down in the month of October, and it's carried on through the month of November. I want this binging to stop! It goes on every single day and I'm full to the brim every single day. Right now my stomach's a melona nd I can't go to sleep because it's it's so uncomfortable. I was in full control in September... but I lost it.

i keep saying that it will be my last day of binging, b ut it never is. I don't know how to stop myself. I'm despairing. I just want to stuff myself in a whole and not come out until I'm 15 lbs lighter.

single tear... that is so hard.. I know....  Here's what you have to do..  get rid of all the high cal/high fat/high sugar food in your house.  You cannot have any around right now...  (later when you get a handle on this binge you can, but right now you cant.)  Its like an alcoholic with booze.  This has nothing to do with will power. 

Next..  get raw veggies and fruit....   (more veggies than fruit tho...)  drink water.  anytime you get hungry, drink two glasses of water...   this will help for a few minutes..... but then you will binge again.. on carrots or grapes... or tomatoes or spinich or whatever...

Go outside and walk.. or garden or anything but hang around inside...

I have been binging for the last few days too... but on healthy stuff....  I have that totally full feeling too...   and its because what we are trying to fill is not food..  someone or something is hurting us...  and we need to figure out what..   and do something about that ....  then the binge will end..

good luck...

love Kai

sweet_tart wrote:
willow, u think it's the remnants of T-day? I know I have been suddenly lax about my restraint on munchies, since a day after T-day, AND I am hungry a lot now. Perhaps the weather too... getting colder & colder.

I don't know what it is... don't know if it's my depression gone haywire, or just total boredom, or my bingeing rearing it's ugly head, or the stress of everyday stuff coming out this way, or what.  I actually did really good on Thanksgiving - I only had 1 plate of food and didn't even finish it.  I really didn't eat much on T'giving, oddly enough.  And I kept up with the water, and managed to show a loss since then.  I told my husband last night about how bad the munchies have been, so that I have someone here aware of what I am going through and feeling, and he was supportive and understanding.  I just wish I could understand the 'why' so I could deal with it.

I don't know, maybe it is the whole thing with winter coming, and it getting colder.  I don't know.  Maybe it's knowing it's the holidays and I really have gotten to a point where I don't like this time of year and just wish I could skip from Halloween to New Year's. 

I know last night I binged.  First time in quite a while - at least since I started this diet.  I can feel it.  My stomach is upset - I've been having to take Tums because my stomach is so upset and I have heartburn (something else I haven't had in a while).  Even as I was eating the food I knew, somewhere in the back of my head, I shouldn't have been eating it, yet there I went having another bite.  I know if I step on that scale that it's gonna show I gained, and I'll have no one to blame but me.  Right now all I want to do is throw up and get rid of the food in my stomach so it will stop being upset.  Don't worry though, I won't.  And it's not a purging kind of thing - it's just that I want to get rid of this sickening feeling in my stomach.  I feel so bloated, so sick, so YUCK.

On top of everything, I set my alarm for 7 AM to get ready to take my daughter to school and to get dressed since I have an 8 AM meeting at the school for my son's IEP review.  (IEP = Individualized Education Program - he is home tutored due to intense headaches that he sees a neurologist for.)  I am SOOOOOO tired and just want to go back to bed.  My knee is hurting (fell on the treadmill last Friday at the gym and 'burned' it up pretty good on it) and just want to crawl under the blankets and sleep the day away.  And I can't.

OK... now I'm getting into a journal entry and I'm sorry I've gone on... meant to just answer the thing about T'giving and it sort of rolled on from there.  My apologies.

I hope you are all having a better day than me.  ::hugs::

i had my binges under control...made it past the halloween candy but then the weekend before thanksgiving i gave in...ate way to much...i did good for a few days then the office party came and then thanksgiving day. i passed on potatoes, no stuffing no rolls but ate too much of the appetizers and cookies (that i said i wasn't going to make but made).  then the next three days....i just ate and ate. i feel horrible today. my tummy hurts and i have a cold sore that usually comes from stress. i think i got it because my body was stressed from all the fat and sugar...it wasn't used to it and i over did it. 

i did what Kai said...this morning i went into the cupboards and fridge and tossed all sugary, binge items out!!!!  i packed my lunch with lots of veggies and fruits today and oatmeal. i will not go hungry but i will not put anymore of that processed food into my body. a new start with out my trigger foods....

Jamie Im in the exact same place as you right now!!!

"i will not go hungry but i will not put anymore of that processed food into my body. a new start with out my trigger foods...."

I say this everyday, when its the end of the day and I know Im done, but the next day, its the same thing over again! It has been going on for a few months now, and I need it too stop. I was doing so well, I had lost 25 lbs, and now I have put back on 15! OMG, I cant believe this, its like a dream! Help me!!

Hey I'm Shannon and I'd class myself as a binger. I have to have alot of self restraint to stop myself from just eating and eating and eating. Biscuits are the worst they just don't seem like they could have many calories at all so I could eat packets. Crisps are the same. I've found it hard in the past to cope and eaten for things like being tired, being bored, feeling moody. I miss eating so much. I especially eating tonnes of chocolate and drinking coke. :(

Dreagirl...i know it is so hard each and every day. there isn't a day that doesn't go by without my internal battle with food. if someone heard all that is in my head they would go crazy....it makes me crazy at times. 

i don't know how to control the binges except when my trigger foods are not around.....even at that i can eat all the good foods too....i guess what is the harm in eating a ton of lettuce???  the point really is how to gain control over these urges...somedays are a little easier than others but most days are a struggle. 

be kind to your self....i know it is hard when you see that you have gained weight back. i gained almost 20lbs back but when i'm nice to myself and feed myself often through the day and give myself compliments instead of putting myself down....those are the days i don't seem to binge as much.....also when i begin to panic it makes them worse....take a deep breath we are strong...we can do this.

This is to dancegirl28! im going through the excate samething your going through now!!!! im about to get my period also, and gave into the binges! also i feel the same as you do about eating healthy, than feeling as if you are depriving your self!!so don't worry your not alone!!!! we'll get through this!!! WE ALL WILL!!!!!!

Ugh I'm having the same problem.  I'm beginning to hate october && november! But you can't go back.. right? :/ So, right this second, i am going to start seriously losing that 20 pounds i gained in 2 months.  Whats hardest for me is to still be happy && myself.  I feel disgusting and fat. 

I guess the best things to do are to remember that if you eat something you didn't mean to don't blow the rest of the day, it'll still matter.  Think before you eat.  Its just like talking.  And putting weight aside; Think about your health.  Hopefully I'll follow my own tips tomorrow, and start doing great all OVER again.  *big nervous exhale*

I'm not really a binger, but I do have certain foods I have difficulty controlling, i.e. cookies.

I haven't brought cookies into the house since I lost a lot of weight years ago. The problem is, today my roomate (who super-thin and can eat whatever she wants) decides she's going to bake chocolate-chip peanut butter cookies and says I'm free to have any. She doesn't know I've had weight issues in the past as I'm pretty normal know.

Anyway, I ended up eating 6 and be/c I did that, decided to eat even more crap for a total of 2970 calories. And that was after having a really great weekend. I was so frustrated!!

I just have to have a great day tomorrow and try and get some more walking in.

anyone else have an overeaters annon. that they go to?

anyone else have an overeaters annon. that they go to?

I got kicked out of one once.  It was a long time ago and it was an extremely disfunctional group...  ruled by a clique of insiders with a bunch of treatment center rules (they had all been together and bought the bill of goods).  Us newcomers either went along with the party line or we got kicked out.  I got kicked out...  it hurt a lot because I was just looking for help and I was confused... 

OA is terrific for support and understanding as long as it is healthy. 

PS.. Jamie.. good for you... and dont worry if you have setbacks..  you know what to do and how to do it...  and you dont have to be perfect.. we get to cover this territory as many times as we need to to get it right..   (((hugs)))

I'm a binger.

It is horrible, once I start I can't stop until I'm so full.

It is really making me depressed. I got out of the binging for a few weeks but it's coming back.

Up til this last weekend, I was doing really good, and for the most part had the binges under control.  Right now I'm waiting a couple of days before I can see a weight on the scale I can "trust".  I wrote about it in my journal (too long to go into again here) but I feel like crap - physically, emotionally, psychologically.  I'm just hoping I didn't do too much damage to all my hard work.

Oh gosh, i thought i am the only one who have problems with this!!!!!
i used to have anorexic n get back in track, but now, i mean in the last one year, i moved to the USA n i cant deal with any diet!
i live with a munchie roomie tha cannot get fat, but i do keep on gaining. n i am in relationship now which added more pounds (or kgs) on me
i binge alot, n i dont even know what binge means since i never really realize that i am a binger.
oh my, we should all stop binging >_< i hate myself