~~Bingers Anonymous~~

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

arggh ive eaten 4000 today, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Hi, everyone.

I am a binger.

I have been on the binging spree for the last 4 days, that's after 2 1/2 weeks of successful weight loss. I feel like those few days have taken me all the way back to the begining. But I am going to STOP today and get back on track.

My short term goal: no binging for one week, this Monday thru Sunday.

Thank you for this thread... I don't feel so alone in this.

basementgirl,

I can definitely relate.  I do really well for a week or two and then off the wagon I fall.  Sometimes it's caused by my period, sometimes boredom, frustration, any reason really.  I eat really healthy and then I eat twice as many almonds or something goofy like that, and that sets me off.

And it's amazing to me that some many of us struggle with this yet look at the "cultural" ideal out there of what we should look like?  It's no wonder we binge...sorry, shouldn't get on my soap box here.

Anyway, I too am looking to connect with others that have these same struggles that undermine our success (I also occasionally use laxatives - although I think I'm at 2 weeks without any - something to be happy about I guess!).

Good luck!  I don't know the recipe for success with this one other than every day is a new day.

(((Hugs))) to you guys! I know everyday can be a struggle, it's not easy. Just take it one day at a time, one hour at a time. This thread and the people I have met here have been a huge help. Whenever I start going crazy and start thinking about food, I log in and read journals. Supporting each other has really been a good thing for me. I am going to add you guys to my friends list if you don't mind.:) We can do this together! Hang in there:)

christinak74,

absolutely add me to your friends list.  No one really knows how much I struggle with these issues so it will be nice to actually be completely open about it and...hopefully overcome the same crippling struggles.  I've actually been reading posts for about the last hour and a half (after a binge and feeling already bloated from my period!) and I'm amazed at how many people struggle with this.  I'd definitely like to eventually be the poster girl for overcoming bingeing and mindless eating!

Thanks for the reply!

christinak74,

Thank you for your kind words. I would absolutely love to be your friend. I am new to this and the message boards in general. Overeating and binging has always been such an intense source of shame for me I couldn't even admit it in writing... Edviera is right, it's amazing how many of us go thru it and I am hoping to draw help and support from all the wonderful people on CC. Good luck to all of us and nice to meet you guys.

I am happy to meet you guys too!:) I check this thread almost everyday, so if your struggling, post here! If you're having a great day, post here!:) There's also a great group of people here that will help you out too. Have a great night!

I will definitely check here and post here frequently as well.  Tomorrow is a new day and a day to not respond to everything with food.  Basementgirl, I'd like to add you to my friends list for giving and getting support.

Sheesh, life is too short to spend so much of our energy on this struggle - and food is to be enjoyed (in moderation) not feared!

Hope you both (christinak74 and basementgirl) have a good night!  Hope to see a successful day from one of use posted soon!

I wasn't aware that there were so many bingers.  I have been to overeaters anonymous and that helps.  But Calorie Count has helped even more so.  I ocassionally have my slip ups, it usually happens for 4 days in a row when all I want is carbs, carbs, carbs!!!  But tonight I was watching a show on TLC about over-eaters, and I mean the 460 pounds over weight over eaters, and I thought to myself that this bingeing thing is really unhealthy and I could be doing a lot of damage to myself.  So, I really have to focus on balancing a healthy life stye, which is 80% of the time with admitting that it's okay to have a LITTLE piece of chocolate from time to time. 

Okay, that's it. 

AC

Yes, I bet there are many more bingers than we think...

Well, I just typed out everything I ate yesterday to make it more of an impact and sheesh, no wonder I felt bad.  But today is a new day, a new day not to respond to life with food or to just eat something because I want it, or feel like I deserve it.  I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted from the struggle.  What's strange is the binge thing has been around only for the last couple of years (which really isn't too surprising considering I got divorced 3 yrs ago and then was in a really bad relationship after that).  But it's been the worst the past 8 months or so.

Well, I hope no one gets tired of my posts because I'm going to come here often for support and to vent when I feel like I'm getting to that place where I want to binge.

EV

Thank you Rhonda,

Yes, being and feeling alone is how I spent most of my life. I have a lot of friends and am currently re-building a relationship with my sister (who has helped me with this without even knowing). I am successful in whatever I do however never thought I was good enough and strived harder. It was an endless cycle. I have made the conscious decision to applaud myself and smile when I am happy and to be open when I am not. Self worth is extremely important to me and I am on the path to finding myself. I set small goals and keep myself busy. I appreciate your words and for your reply. Encouragement is what we can give each other and I look forward to being part of something that is making a difference for me and others.

Does anyone else have a problem with being a "pleaser"? I think a lot of this has stemmed from that. I try and go out of my way to make everyone else happy and put myself along with my feelings last.

Thank you again!

Wow so many of us are going through the samething. 

Hi everyone,

Today is my first day on CK and I'm loving it.  My goal is to lose 30 lbs by June 1st and hopefully I can if I stick to my diet and excercise and control my binging.  I'm like many of you.  Eating so well for the first week or so then off the wagon for a few binge days and basically back to square one.  I want to kick this habit once and for all.  Good luck to everyone and remember it takes one day at a time.  :)

Hi, everyone,
Hope you are all doing well today!
XO

Today I started a book recommended to me by a friend. It's called Feeding The Hungry Heart: The Experience of Compulsive Eating by Geneen Roth. Has anyone ever heard of this book/author?

So far, it's amazing, but I'm only on chapter 2, 'cause I keep re-reading every page -- many things described in this book are resonating very strongly with my personal sad experiences.

PS - Elizabeth, I added you to my friends list too :)

basementgirl, tasha, christanak74,

Thought I'd let you guys know (you probably already do know this, but I just discovered it) that you can read the journals of those you've marked as friends.  It's been very helpful for me and I've started journalling on cc now instead of separately.

basementgirl, thanks for the tip on the book. I will take a look.

Hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Elizabeth

Hi Julia and Elizabeth!:)

Julia, I have never heard of that book, but I think I might check it out. I am always looking for a reason to go to the book store.;)

Elizabeth, I left you a comment in your journal.:) I love reading everyone's journals. It's a great way to communicate until they decide to give us personal messages. (Which I think they are working on;))

Have a great day ladies!:)

I am glad I am not the only one who can have a great week and then have two nights of binging.  It make me so sad and mad and annoyed.  I haven't found my emotional trigger, but it is just so very frustrating.  I have only 10 pounds to lose, but I can't go long enough without binging to do it!  aghhhhhhhhhh

kristenring,

Yes, you are not alone.  And I do the very same thing - great for a week then total melt down.  And I also understand not knowing the exact trigger because sometimes it can start with just wanting some almonds...and the downward spiral begins.  It's weird because some days, many days, I can have unbelieveable control and then well, you know.

Also, I am also very active/athletic, 36F yr old with 10 pounds that torment me (and I do mean torment).  So, I say all that to say if you'd like a buddy, where we could help eachother be accountable and do something different, react different when the binge is hitting, let me know.

I see that you are in NC.  My sister, who is very dear to me, lives in Raleigh.  I'm in TX (currently being tormented by the weather! sabotaging my efforts to go outside for a run!).

I will post my email in my profile if you'd like email directly and I'm going to add you to my "friends" list.

Hope this  post finds you doing better!  Keep your chin up!

Elizabeth

last night i had a bad binge. Its really discouraging especially when i am just starting dieting again after a failure before. But i guess it gives me a reason to not be bad for a while. It was the stupid reese's hearts in the candy dish at my moms.

Sorry hon, Just pick yourself up, dust off the cobwebs, and start again today with a new fresh start.  Every day is a new opportunity to do it right. 
You can do it.  You are worth it!!

I am 9 days binge free and sometimes I have to take it second by second.  But the seconds add up and soon you have made it a minute.  And then the minutes add up.  And then the hours.

Let me know how you are doing.  I am adding you as a friend.

edviera,

would love a buddy!  I too am tormented by only 7 or 8 pounds - and isn't it sad that "tormented" is the right word?  I'll send you an email!  :)