~~Bingers Anonymous~~

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

I've never purged. Though I will shamefully admit that I've tried. It wasn't even at my house. It was at my aunts house on Christmas. Merry Christmas eh? But I do often "purge" by exersizing, but I never feel better.  I'm so determined. Have you ever purged?

Unfortunately I did go through a phase of binging and purging which I have managed to come out from and now I am just left with the binging to over come....so far today has gone ok,what about you? and i am going to the gym later so i am feeling optimistic! also i would just like to mention how i have looked at your pictures and you are very slim and pretty-very jealous ...

Emily!:) Thats great news that you have overcome purging. I am very happy to hear that. You are making progress, even though it may not seem that way to you. Keep at it sweetie, just one day at a time, one hour at a time. (((BIG HUGS)))!!

First of all, thank you so much. And honestly? Right back at you! I'm doing very ell so far. I made a meal plan for this whole week and it makes it so much easier to follow a healthy diest when I just think "I can only allow myself too have what's written" So today? I did amazing, and I feel better already! I know this wont change overnight, but even if I don't binge this whole week I'ts WAY better then everyday, sometimes twice a day!

We can do this! Woo hoo. Oh, and thumbs up on going to the gym, being optimistic AND overcoming purging!

edit: 8:15 pm. SMALL small small binge. But not even really, cause I had control.  It wasn't like I felt out of control and at the whole house. Only 1/4 c ice cream, 1 slice of banana bread, 1 c of ceral and 1 piece of bread. Adding up to: 500 calories.

Not horrible. Not amazing either. I still ate 500 UNDER maintenance. So basically. I lost 1/7 of a pound today! ha! who knew!

Woooo Well done you! I am very impressed with ourselves. Today we had a cake sale today at school so for dinner I had 2 brownies, I know this isnt very healthy and some would consider a binge but for me its amazing cos usually i would have eaten the whole damn tray so I am very pleased with myself! Keep it up and you can do it!

Hey! So how've you guys all done so far this week?

I did really good from sunday until friday morning. So 5 days. That's a new record for me! I'm sooooooo excited! And even when I DO binge, it's most controlled and conscience. Sounds kind of dumb, consciencely binging haha, but you get the point; the binges are getting smaller more controlled and less often

This forum has really helped.

hey yall! well, i just read an article about BED and im pretty scared bc it describes me completley. this is the first time that ive admitted to binging, but i do it all the time and i cant stop. i just spent the past hour eating things i didnt even want and i dont really know why. i really need help, so anyone who has any advice please give it to me, i would really appreciate it

Smelko, this week has definitely been better than most weeks and I know exactly what you mean about consciously binging..its like most people would consider it one maybe but for me its soooo much better than what i sometimes do...keep it up and lets have a good weekend!

i binged again. i was "consciously binging" for like 2 days but i've failed again and given in to temptation again. i miss being in control.

hey subway, its ok! everyone has hard days where you just cant help it, i understand bc i do that too, and its so hard to stop when you know that you should. i figured out recently that my binges are caused by something more, and that its subconcious. on that days that i DONT work out, i binge, completly out of control! but i didnt realize that till i thought about it, and i do it bc i feel like ive failed. so now i make it a point to work out everyday, maybe not for a long time, but long enough where i feel like ive accomplished something, and i havent binged for 5 days! so maybe, if you really step back and think about WHY your binging, not just stopping, you can reach a point where saying no is easier, and you will be in control, ok? i hope i helped at all =]

Well...I'm at a loss for words and can barely type as I have tears in my eyes.....

I'm a binger...in fact I have a lot of problems with food and I lie awake at night telling myself tomorrow will be better and I'll get everything on track but it's a struggle.

I need to get this sorted as I fear it will destroy me and everyone around me. I honestly don't know how it has come to this, how does it get so far?

I'm currently beating myself up over a very bad day of binging and I know that for the next few days I will barely eat anything to make up for it.

I have to change and at least I have admitted it on this forum. That's really a breakthrough for me so for that I'm thankful

Does anyone else have trouble binging at night when they're trying to fall asleep?  I always have trouble falling asleep, think eating will help, and before I know it I've eaten 1,000 calories worth of penaut buter and chocolate! 

cherrieberrie - you are not alone in this.  i too have problems with food and binging.  try not to be so hard on yourself.  you have done the best thing you can possibly do - talk to other people and share your struggles. 

i have only been here for three weeks but knowing that there is a community out there rooting for each another has helped me cope tremendously.  the first time i used the word 'binge' was on this site, when i posted for the very first time.  it was such a relief to finally get it off my chest and put it out there.  it sounds like you can relate to that.

hang in there girl!  you can do this!

julie

p.s. feel free to send me a msg anytime you need some support :)

Wow.  I never actually realized that I was bingeing until I saw this thread.

I have a very extremist personality.  In almost every aspect of my life it's either all or nothing.  Including food.  I'm either an insane food nazi or I eat everything in sight.  No sense of moderation whatsoever.

It used to be easy for me to hide my binges.  I just got married, though, so my husband is always here for me to hide from.  It's disgusting and I feel so badly about myself afterwards, but I just keep eating.

Making cookies is out of the question.  First I eat about 1/3 of the dough AS I'm making it, and then I eat another 1/3 of the cookies when they come out (and are all warm and gooey, yummm).

I tried purging once, 'cause a boyfriend made me mad so I wanted to throw up the pizza he'd bought me, but it didn't work.  I gag at everything on earth, but I couldn't make myself throw up.  I'm glad now, though, 'cause I would have gotten so wrapped up in that.

Anyway, I've been binge-free for a day.  Not much, but after almost an entire week of bingeing every day, it's a step.  I just joined this site, so hopefully it will help.

I really want to overcome it one day.

Why cant I just stop bingeing? Why?! I just dont know. All I want to do is just stop. Its so hard.

I know I cant stop because I LOVE FOOD!!!!!!

I like everything about it: how it tastes, how it makes me fee, how it smellsl..EVERYTHING!!

I am trying to concentrate on how I really feel after it. Not just how I feel while I am eating it. If we get this mad why do we do it?

I just started getting back on track on Monday and I was good on calorie intake even with a small chocolate chip cookie...what did I do at 9pm after class alst night? Went to the grocery store bought a brownie went home ate Chips and Salsa w/sour cream and then ate my brownie!

Oh it sounds so gross now! I am new to this site and just found this post. Maybe by fessing up when it happens we can help each other get past it!

Ok I know I just posted but I hadnt read your post yet sarabamanda. I know what you mean...my fiance just moved in and it is hard. I have been getting fast food and eating it in my car and therowing it away so he wont know. It seems so crazy when I put it out there...It is good to know there are other people out there that are working on the same stuff I am.

insecure_teen:  thought the same thing recently... "Why?!" 

It is very maddening when you know the problem but seem helpless to correct it.  And just when you think you have it together... one binge later and your world falls apart. 

It is like drugs in the sense that it only takes one relapse episode to throw you back full swing.  I've never had one binge that didn't lead down a horrible path of multiple episodes. 

I have started a new program called "Mastering Food" that is an online program of 12-weeks.  It has helped me some (it has only been 3 weeks, however), and as I'm progressing, I HAVE learned some interesting things about food and why it is addictive to bingers.  For instance, in my recent "discoveries" I have found that when I finish the meal I have allowed myself, there is a kind of "lull" after the food is gone.  It is like a depressed, unmotivated, bleak feeling. 

Reading more on this, I have found that food addiction can be caused by the over-stimulation of certain brain chemicals during binges that causes a "high"... no, a REAL high... as in it becomes addictive.  I truly believe that from my experiences.  There are times I reach for a "snack" from bordom, or from avoiding tasks needed to be done, etc... and from there the bingeing starts because of the feelings I get from the food (the addiction/"feel good chemicals" in the brain being released).

How's it going?

did you find the thread in the new forum???

looks around...

:::sigh:::

i'm picking up the pieces and starting again tomorrow...

Hi All,

I'm new to this particular thread and I'm really glad it was posted.  I've been battling B.E.D for years now (I am a recovering anorexic.... not bulimic since I could never get myself to purge).  I've been binging and I'm really trying to get better.  This is taking over my life and I feel disgusting and miserable all of the time because of it.  I just feel so trapped.  I'm caught up in this horrible cycle where I starve myself during the day and lose ALL control at night.

I don't know about anyone else out there, but I basically wake up every hour and need to eat.  It doesn't even make a difference if I eat normally during the day, my body is just so used to waking itself up for my "hourly feeding".  Its so gross.... I sometimes wake up with crumbs in my bed, and peanut butter or cream cheese or chocolate on my lips and in my nails.  I can go through a box of cereal in one day without any problem. 

I really am trying to get past this but it can be so hard!   I kind of binged today (not too bad, but I didn't keep track in the food journal and I should have ).  Tomorrow is a new day, I guess.  I hate how I am doing this to myself.