~~Bingers Anonymous~~

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

Im back with some more ranting...

Another bad day ( my last post was about the nutty jumble bars)...

cereal for breakfast, 100 cal popcorn for snack...and then in celebration for my last day at my job, we ordered take out from my fave lunch place on the biz card :)...I was good with my cup of chili and spinach salad (dress on side) but then duh duh duuhhh...my sis and I split banana pudding, but Im talking the mother of all banana puddings.

She had a few bites (like a normal person) and then my inner beast came out and finished the whole damn thing! like 5 servings! I knew I shoud stop, but I just couldnt. I ate until I couldnt move. I have been sitting in uncomfortable PAIN for about an hour. I almost wish I could throw it up, but I wont go that far.

I am so upset with myself, because I have been so focused on losing weight for a beach trip next week, and it seems as if I am self sabotoging myself ( lost and then plateaued at a decent weight)...

Whats next? The good half wants to walk around after work and have a LIGHT dinner, but the evil half says f#*! it and eat more. Argggg....I hate all of these little voices.

Wish me luck...Im going to need it for tonight (Friday)

Anyone have advice?

Hi,

This is my first time here. I've read some of the posts and I can certainly identify. Over the years, my binging has progressively gotten worse. I've tried so many things.

I've changed to a vegan diet a month ago (I've been vegan before but slipped back - it's a lot for health reasons but I stay motivated for ethical reasons...) Anyway, during the day I eat healthy well balanced meals but then in the evening, I binge on junk food.

I'm living in Korea (and I am surrounded by mostly very slim Korean women - not like being in North America - shopping for clothes here is depressing!!!) and I work from 1pm to 9pm. I keep telling myself that I will go for a walk after work, which would also help me unwind, but I end up getting junk food at the corner store (right next door) and playing around on the computer or preparing material for school the next day.

I will commit to going for a walk after work tomorrow evening, which is Monday and I will commit to coming back here and giving an update. It helps when I am accountable to someone.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Chantal

Is anyone elses binging going badly? Mine is going crap and I just cant seem to stop no matter how many times I try...ahhhhhh!!!!!and they are just getting bigger and bigger..

I have been binging a lot lately too, at least once or twice a week.

if you had to estimate how many calories you have in a binge, what would it be?

depends really but between 2000 and 3000 i would say

Eugh I got myself in a proper breakdown state about college agian and went and ate like a days worth of calories in flapjack, this saddens me deeply.

Oh well tomrow id another day posative metal attitude, just like Mr Motivator says! :)

do you find that everytime you binge you dread putting on clothes the next day? im dreading it...i binged last night...whats new nowadays?!

My first time here ladies...I can admit to you I am a binger.  Now that I think back I guess I always have been.  I am short (4"11') due to osteoporosis.  Yes I am older than 98% of youin's, but I need help and movitation too.  Accountability is probably what I need most.

I have many health problems and HAVE to get weight off...not just the 10 pounds I lost last month, but at least that much for the next year.

Yes I can admit also I am just plain FAT now.  I quit drinking (5 years ago...I was on my way after drinking daily for 20 years...to being an alcoholic), and smoking (it is a year May 9th)...but I started eating chocolate...big solid bars...everyday.

And I went from my steady normal of 170 (yes I was fat then too), to 239#...

My pain doctor refuses to work with me anymore and told me to bad if I am in constant pain...lose weight and it will ease.  (The chronic and constant pain are related to injuries of my back, as well as Fibromyalgia, and several diseases related to bones, muscles, and age)

My primary only wants another doctor to take responsibility for my chronic pain meds...so I am  out of luck in anything.

I found this site and , now I found you ladies.  I will try to do anythng I can to stop my binge eating.  My meals are good...my calories recorded and I do well a few days a week, and then I sabatoge myself for a few days eating anything I can find,  and start over.  My hubsand has to have cakes and cookies in the house always for his lunch and after he gets home from the bar...he craves sweets.

I will come here and tell you about how it goes and intervals ...I hope everyone does well the rest of the week.

I've had what seems like a life long problem with BED.  I've tried OA only to find that it's not my thing.  I've found this forum helpful in knowing I'm not alone in my unhealthy relationship with food.  I want balance in my life and that includes enjoying food and exercise -- neither binging nor being overly obsessive about "dieting" and fitness.

I've started a blog (brooklyn binger) to help me journal my journey to that "normal" place.  Where I can eat well and feel good.  Please come by and visit and comment.

Welcome Sandy and smbklyn!:)

My name is Christina, and I'm a binger. I totally understand your struggles and how hard it can be to overcome binging. You've come to the right place for support. So please, when you are having a bad day, post here, when you are having a great day, post here! Please feel free to add me to your friends list, or PM me anytime.:)

Again, welcome!:)

hey! okay, let me give a little personal history: i started purging when i tried to starve myself, about 3 years ago. The purging soon turned into bingeing then purging. My weight went down (140) but it was due to loss of muscle--not change in size & serious leg flab. I made a commitment to stop the awful cycle i was into: starve, bing, purge. So far it's going alot smoother than i thought it would-i was just at my breaking point & there was no one left to go but up! my last binge hadnt been since late october...until 2 weeks ago. i was at home for a vacation & was feeling uneasy about being around my recent ex as well as under the pressures of coming home "accomplished." I recovered, or so i thought, until last night...it was awful! The thing is i know WHY i'm doing it (read-FINALS!) but i still cant stop. Also, my roomate was gone, leaving me alone with food (something i avoid!) Anyways i'd love any tips you can offer!

currently: 158 (same pant size as 140 but with MUSCLES!)  i have gained weight since my commiment to stop binge/purging & am struggling to lose that last layer of fat!

Exercise: 3-4/wk swimming 30-60 minutes, 4-5/wk walking at incline 30 min & biking 20min, some running throughout too

(sorry for the saga!) thanks!

Hi Jenn:)

Here are a few things that have helped me. First, try to figure out what your "triggers" are.  Boredom, anger, frustration, that time of the month. Once you have figured out your "triggers" you can then figure out ways of dealing with them. When I am bored, I find myself in the kitchen, so I try to have something to do instead. Coming to this site really helps, writing in your journal, or writing in your friends journals. Or maybe taking a walk or going to the gym.

If possible, get rid of any "trigger" foods. Mine are peanut butter and chocolate. Although, peanut butter sometimes helps me with cravings around that time of the month. A slice of whole wheat toast and a little peanut butter cuts the carb craving. I just can't be trusted with a whole jar.;)

Try to keep healthy snacks available, like carrots or celery. Make sure you are drinking plenty of water, and eating enough throughout the day. The worst thing to do is let yourself get too hungry. You are less likely to make healthy choices when you are starving.

If you find that none of these work, and feel a binge coming on, drink a glass of water and wait 15 minutes. Sometimes the urge will pass. If not, brushing your teeth will sometimes do the trick. Or just plain getting out of the house helps.

This may sound corny, but I will look myself in the mirror and say, "you can do this!" lol It helps though.:)

Hope this helps a little.:) Take care!

I had a major binge today. I have been having problems with this lately. Sometimes I feel like it is under control and it comes back with a vengeance. I feel so badly about myself when I do this.

I have a fiance and a baby boy. When I binge I feel like a selfish ass because we are supposed to have a healthy family. My fiance is in awesome shape, always has been and has phenominal self control. I feel like if he goes out and the baby is asleep, I binge. It's like a given. And I am always afraid he will come home while I am in the middle of scarfing and I will be exposed.

I don't even know where to begin. The only healthy thing I ate was about 6 baby carrots. I eat fast food RARELY. It makes me feel disgusting. That did not stop me from eating 2 breakfast burritos, a sausage biscuit and bacon, egg biscuit. That's like 1400+ cals. A few hours later I ate a whole bag of microwave popcorn, a huge bowl of sherbert, chocolate milk, 2 rice cakes with pb and honey and a piece of gourmet chocolate. I feel like I am missing something? Maybe not. Isn't that sad though that it is such a blurry mess that sometimes I am not sure if I remember all the crap I ate.

So anyway, I think I am at about 3,000 calories and it's not even 6:00p.m. I feel so disgusting. I want to go for help but that means I would have to tell my family and I don't think I can. People at work or relatives always tell me how good I look to have a 6 month old baby, if they only knew what I did behind closed doors.

Sorry for the book. I just needed to let this out. :(

Hello.

I am a binger as well. Tonight I ate so many cookies I think it was probably about 15 or so. I feel so sick right now. And that was after having a Big Taco Deluxe and tortilla chips at a mexican restaurant. I am so mad because I made a vow this morning not to binge today, but I just keep doing it again and again and really hating myself. I am thin now but I feel as though I am going to gain so much weight if I keep this up. I hate eating like this. I see other people eating little portions of meals and getting full and I wish I could eat like that. I try to make up for binges by fasting for most of the day, but usually it just turns into another binge. I don't know what to do. I think I turn to food just because it is the only thing that really seems to make me happy. I am always thinking about when I am going to eat next. It's just the taste of the food that really makes me want to just keep eating. I really need to just get on a healthy diet and eat right. I cannot keep doing this to myself.

Thank you all for listening.

Aye,  my binges have been coming more frequently again..I was doing so well for awhile too!

I try to remember back to last year (my 1st year at college) and I'm really pretty sure I didnt have this uncontrollable munching problem...and I don't know quite why it started, but I want it to stop!

I'm a healthy weight (5'3" muscular 130lbs) but last year I was down to 124 at one point.  My binges usually aren't more than 1000-1500 cals at a time (which I guess technically may not be considered a binge) but I just have days in general where I want food...so I eat the high-cal granola cereal (seriously, I had about 1800 cals worth...2/3 cup is 212 cals!), the 2 packs of zebra cakes, the bear claw, the slice of pizza, the poptarts, the sweet tea...oiy ve.

I think I'll be okay once I go home in a week and eat most nights at my boyfriends (with fixed, very nice homemade meals, a small dessert, and no snacks) but I want to arrive at a nice healthy weight..not show up and say "hey look, I gained weight!" haha.

I want to go back to when I was able to eat a nice soup and salad for lunch, and a healthy meal for dinner, and be fine. 

I'm reading a fascinating book right now on the plasticity of the brain, and how doing something over and over just reinforces the pattern...so I try to look at it from that perspective..every time I binge, I make that pattern even stronger...which scares me.

*sigh*  I want to stop sayinig tomorrow

God,I can relate so well with what all of you are saying. I am in such a horrible cycle-I binge in the evening, starve myself all day and then another binge comes in the evening...its horrible and the worst part is that no one knows because to most people I seem normal and if anything they think i eat too little...i feel like saying IF ONLY YOU KNEW..

I just want to say taylor-your in such great shape! I am so jealous! I really really need to kick myself in the butt and I just cant...I hate dwelling on it cos I get so depressed about my body...Its such a viscious cycle and I hate myself for it.

Hi Insecure_Teen,

I know all too well about that vicious cycle.  I do the EXACT same thing.  I practically starve all day, I workout like a madwoman, and then the evening comes.  It's the Jeckyl and Hyde syndrome.  I hate Mr. Hyde.... it's this monster that wakes up and just can't get enough.

I wore my skinny jeans today, and I think that made me cocky, because I just totally binged.  I feel so disgusting right now.  I really hate myslf for this nonsense.  Ewww....

And I was doing so good too....  ughhhh.

Hi,

I just read some of the posts since I last wrote. I can identify with the hopelessness that I read about and I am happy to read some of the success stories too. Last Sunday, I committed to going for a walk after work (this is my prime binge time). I did it. I did not commit to anything else but I felt so good that I did not go and buy junk food. (By the way, I make sure that I have no money in my pockets when I go for a walk - it would be too tempting to stop in at the store.)

I did not binge for 4 days in a row - what a success! I did eat some junk food on Friday night and last night (watching movies with my husband) but I am not going to beat myself up about it. All I have is today and I have planned my meals for today and I will do my best to eat those and nothing else.

By the way, Overeaters Anonymous has also been helpful to me in the past - I learned alot of good habits there and received a lot of support - just a thought.

Have a great binge-free day!

Chantal

I think my biggest problem with binging is that I still want to do it. I am still getting something from it.  There are times that I can say wait a minute what is going on?  But, if I really want to binge I do!  That is the problem for me.  I have had times in the past couple of months where I stood in the pantry, looked at the food, and told myself this will only make you sick.  I did walk away and those were triumphs.  I am frustrated with this problem.  I thought it would be easier to over come yet it is harder than I thought. I have been binging on and off since 13 and I am now 46.  I used to use laxatives and starving etc.  At least now, I just binge.  I really want to change this behaviour.  I continue to work on it, pray about it and try to find other ways to soothe myself.  The biggest part to me is I am still getting something out of it.