~~Bingers Anonymous~~

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

Does anyone else pack really healthy lunches and snacks and end up eating everything during the first few hours of the day, so that by 2pm, you've consumed everything, feel really full, and now have nothing to snack on later in the afternoon when the sugar and chocolat cravings set in?  I do this all the time and it is so frustrating.  Any advice on how you've managed to pace yourself?  Even though the food I've packed for the day is all healthy and intended to be eaten, I consider not pacing myself to be the problem.  It feels like a binge.

-Brooklyn Binger

I binged again. This past weekend was ok. Sat. I was sick so I had less than 400 cals but yesterday I was back to normal amount. Today I ate a banana, a few grapes, and a 60 calorie jello pudding for breakfast, then had some left over pasta and salad for lunch/dinner. but tonight i just came home and binged. i finished off a bag of sunchips, ate some mushrooms with ranch dip, ate the white part of a hardboiled egg, ate a few bites of some apple crisp, ate an oatmeal cookie, ate a few bites of some honey graham stuff from quaker oats, and ate some about 14-16 mini-rice cakes with some whipped cream cheese. what is wrong with me? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i am so mad. why didn't i just stop with the sunchips? i will work out tomorrow morning though. i have to. i need to do better. i keep saying this, but i know i will not change.  

Everytime I eat something I need to make sure that I write it down. This is the only thing that helps me. I will plan my meals out.

Hi Mikeiscool....

I know, binges are so annoying.  I had a binge weekend, and I felt gross today.  I worked out hardcore today, but it's frustrating to think that the workout was merely to UNDO damage.  I feel like I'm not being progressive in that sense.

Your binge actually didn''t sound too bad (if that's any consolation!!!).  Writing it down is a good idea, but my problem is that when I snack I really can't even remember all of the stuff I ate.  Good luck tomorrow though.... Tuesday is as good as any other day!

tully,i know what you mean about still wanting to do it. its like binging is the only time that i am not feeling guilty about food and i just feel free to eat whatever i want (obviously when it stops this isnt the case) but this week i am going to try so hard not to let myself binge. i can do it.i know i can.

HEY EVERYONE- SORRY FOR THE CAPS BUT I NEED TO HEAR YOUR FEEDBACK AND HOPE YOU SEE THIS MESSAGE. I HAVE HAD ISSUES WITH EATING/BINGING/STARVATION MODE/OVER EXERCISING. Has anyone ever tried to receive professional help for binge eating? I have battled it for a few years now and I am sooooo frustrated with myself. I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow so hopefully she will be familiar with BED. There is nothing more frustrating than binge eating, especially just after you have had an amazing workout.      & nbsp;      

Hey Grande!
Yes, I am currently getting professional help by an eating disorder psychologist (I had been to a regular one previously, and he did NOTHING.. just didn't know enough about it).
I have been diagnosed with EDNOS because I have so many food issues, and so far, the doctor is helping a bit.

It's very difficult for someone else to help you because in the end, it is YOU that puts that food in your mouth. That said, my progress/recovery is very slow because it is so hard for someone else to control. It is very tedious at first because you think, "HOW is this helping".. but they do get you to do VERY useful things that really change your relationaship with food. Search "Cognitive Behavioural Therapy" online for more info.

I would highly suggest to anyone to seek professional help before it controls your life, like it did mine.

I am losing weight again and feeling OK, although depressed because of many things, but the binges are not controlling my life anymore. I still have many issues with food that we are trying to work out, though.

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE and hope you are all doing well.

Hey ozfiz- thanks for the reply! I will see how the appointment goes well tomorrow. I have searched for eating disorder psychologists/psychiatrists before and it is so hard to find someone who specializes in that field. how did u search for that person.... did u get a referral from your doc or did you ask the insurance company? Thanks again- you are so helpful :)

I'm going on day 4 of no binges-hopefully this post doesn't jinx me.  I have two more days left of finals then I'm home.  I told my mom about my compulsive overeating so hopefully when I'm home it will help having some support.  I went to an OA meeting last monday again and I think I really like the meetings, just to have other people there sharing common struggles.

Hi healthnuttie.... yup, no binging!  And congrats on day 4!

Eeek, its TTOM for me, so you know what that means.... the cravings kick in!  For me it's chocolate and carbs!  By the way, how is OA going?

hi, im new to the forum and binging....well i was anorexic severly for a long time(reached a low weight of 85) until recently i began binging uncontrollably around christmas. i am 5'7 and have gone from 110 to 140 since then. i am so unhappy with my self/body and want to loose weight but cannot stop binging...i know through threatments and inpatients i have been in that they warned all anorexics that itcould potentially turn into uncontrollable eating, and they were right.

its day one for me...and im hoping to make it to day two, which is something i havent done in a long time. if i make it to saturday without binging, i am going to get a special treat(download a few itunes for workout or a new top to wear out that night.) if i dont make it well i dont get either. good luck to everyone else. feel free to message me i would love to get/give support.

welcome mustloose- your definitely not alone in this struggle,  food issues is definitely one of the hardest to beat, since we need to eat to survive.  I wish you the best in trying to get rid of these bad habits.  Just know that your not alone and you can do anything, just take it day by day. 

marla- goodluck on trying to swerve away from those dang cravings, I know sometimes they can feel overwhelming. But you can do it! The OA meetings are going good- its just like AA.  I really like it because I know that everyone there knows exactly how I feel and I don't feel like such a freak because I can't control my compulsive overeating. OA has taught me that I can't do this on my own,  only with support from others and my Higher Power.  They suggest getting a sponsor but of course my human nature is telling me I can do this on my own- still not sure if I really want to get one.  I have a friend that went to a meeting with me on monday and we might just use eachother to be accountable. Theres one on the weekends too taht I'm gonna go to since weekends are always a struggle.

hey everyone! hope you are all hanging in there and doing well. welll... i went to the doctor today and she is setting me up with a psychologist (sigh), I hate telling my entire eating story. she also is recommending that i see a nutritionist. i finally realized that basically the only way for someone to get over binge eating, is to do it yourself. counseling helps, but its my own fault that i continuously over eat. it is so hard that it is easy. i am so proud to say that i am two days binge free :). ahhh how annoying is all of this? glad i'm not the only one who suffers.

its more than annoying-no words can describe the way i feel waking up the morning after the binge feeling oh so bloated...overcoming binge eating is not like quitting smoking or drugs cos you can live without drugs..you cant live without food.

thats the worst part!

okay so im starting on day 2. i cant believe i made it through day 1. i have been able to not binge for 3 weeks now. i have a question though..i feel like my binges are extremely disgusting compared to everyone elses. like i will go form one place to another, wake up in the middle of the night to go buy 20 dollars worth of junk food, skip class and binge eating up to 10000 calories a day. i sometimes feel like i should be admitted to an institution because i cant hanlde myself.

i know how EXACTLY how you feel about the morning after a binge. you don't want to move, you don't want to go anywhere or see anyone, don't want to put on any clothes because "of course" they won't fit (even though they probably will fit just the same as before the binge).. our minds just tell us our bodies are way bigger than the day before. I am SO happy to say that I am binge free day #3 (that is if i don't screw up today). I used to see people having binge free day #'s and i used to think to myself, wow how do they make it through the day without a binge? i was so jealous, now i am there. I hate to say this but i think this is all a process we just need to go through. i remember when I was so bad that i would starve myself alllll day and finally have a binge at like midnight, that cycle was the worst.:(. that was two years ago and thank God I am wayy past that. Now I just need to work on watching what I put into my mouth. It really helps to journal before you eat ( if you have enough will power), pre package your food out, put your food on a plate then eat it, never eat in the process of making your meal, etc. I'm sure you guys have all heard these methods before but sometimes just hearing it again helps to refresh things. I wish i could take my own advice haha. Well I'm actually gonna head to the gym and start the day off right. GOOD LUCK to everyone and i hope your day goes well. Just remember, this is a phase and it will pass.

mustloose,

Being bingefree for three weeks is extraordinary.  Well done.  While it's hard not to compare your binges to the binges of others, you should try your best not to judge yourself (especially because we're usually so harsh when we do).  Whether someone binges on a box of oreos or a bag of carrot sticks, the act of binging is the problem and the calorie intake is a side effect.  It's destructive behavior either way.  Focus on how you've have gone three weeks binge free and what an immense accomplishment that is.

Do you feel much better and do you have more energy now that those extra 10,000 calories aren't dragging you down emotionally and physically?

Brooklyn Binger

Hi, I've been binge-free for 5 days1 I'm going to suggest a lot of people on here check out http://www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org ; because this is where I got the inspiration to try and get better. The site is geared more specifically for eating disorders than for weight loss. I also think it's more helpfully organized than this site as far as forums go, and so many of the people I met online there last month when I started are so supportive and kind.

Anyway, I did want to wish everyone well and luck in the coming weekend!

I'm here to confess, I have been really good with my food choices but last night was bad. At work they had a company meeting that provided lunch (pizza). I was only gonna have 1 slice, it was the veggie with pepperoni - the healthist one they brought. Later during our meeting I decided it had tasted really good so I got another slice. (I hadn't had pizza since March).  They had chocolate chip and oatmeal raisin  (store bought) cookies too.  I had 1 choc chip. And a drink - Diet soda (0 calories - :) )....Well I skipped 1st break, but took lunch - I had what I planned to eat for lunch - Salmon with pineapples and not planned: 1 oatmeal raisin cookie - they were still there, I had to have one of them too. At next break I had my yogurt with wheatgerm (my norm for first break) and unplanned: 1 more choc chip cookie--why hadn't my co-workers eaten them?..... 2 hours later, on my way home I had the SBD cookies (100 calories) and when I got home I had another slice of pizza, because I brought an extra pie home for my family (Since my co-workers did not eat all pizza we were allowed to take the extras home).  I figured I already screwed up with all the pizza I had, so I had a bowl of ice cream with about 2 T of crunchy peanut butter. Oh I forgot to mention I had a dill pickle half too Before the ice cream. Then I went to bed (I work 3rd). It's now 10 hrs later after my last binge day -  I still feel full and feel like crap--I have a headache, my stomach feels bloated/upset.  Why did I do that to myself?  Did I forget to mention- My doc says I have elevated sugars (pre-diabetic). This is probably why I feel like sh*t, my gloucse is probably way high right now.... My plan is to drink water and maybe a healthy snack when I feel better...Tomorrow I'll be good again.  (I've been eating good for quite some time now, so I believe this is why I felt like I could take the day off from dieting - bad choice on my part)

Thanks for this posting.

I am new here and I admire the openness shared here eating disorders.

I have been on a six month bindge of half gallon ise cream each night 9-10 PM I weigh 310 after I had lost over 70 pounds for 3 years. The desire to eat takes control of me and each day I think it will be diffrent. This is not unlike the "insanity" in AA's second step.

 Good luck and God bless

 Glen