~~Bingers Anonymous~~

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

blah, i planned a binge for today/cheat day, but i feel pretty bad about it. i dont know what to call it.. but regardless, i fell crappy.

i do resolve to continue my normal eating tomorrow, though. it just didnt feel right today..

heatherm- It's probably your gaggin reflexes don;t have any reaction cause they are so used to it. So this could work to your advantage if you are looking to stop the binge-purge cycle, now you know that if you binge you cant throw up so it might make you think twice and resist against it. I dont think my face swells, but maybe i just cant tell cause i have a naturally round face. The bleeding, pretty sure its not good. I too have blood in my plem and I threw some up yesterday. Kinda scared me a little.

YAY ME! I think I just stopped myself from binging, i could feel it coming on but I only ate a 100 calorie ice cream sandwich, some greek salad and a couple bites of potato! Im so proud of msyelf.

good for you karliann. i also resisted binging yesterday. i overate and dinner and felt guilty and just wanted to binge, but i stopped myself before starting. i just had to remind myself that it wasn't worth it. good luck to everyone today.

Yeah, when you're in a binging trance, you know that you're on a binging trance. The thing is...you don't care how guilty you will feel about it later, so you just go ahead and eat your heart out. I wish there was a way that I could tap into some other state of mind, that tells me to just stop. Yet sometimes when you're binging you think, "well, I have already ate this much...why not eat some more???". It is very frustrating, and it is a shame that so many of us do it regularly.

I consider myself a healthy eater, but sometimes I just go crazy. When I do, I feel the need to threaten myself by saying, "since you ate all that, you shouldn't eat the rest of the day..."

I usually don't eat the rest of the day because of this guilt.

I know that it is possible for me to go a whole entire week eating nothing but healthy and nutritious things, but then I will slip up, and I will feel like all my struggling to be a better eater was in vain...

So, I think I will start to post on here what I am about to eat, and all of you can convince me not to.

How does that sound?

I must confess, I too, am a binger. I never let myself go as far as I have wanted to since I have always struggled with weight and would stop myself. The worst is when we have ice cream or when someone makes cookies or brownies. I will eat so many in just a little time. I love food.

When we go places for vacation or recreation, I always think about what kind of food I can get there. I love the idea of buffets just because there is so much food. Luckily my husband doesn't like buffets so we don't go to one often.

I have also found that when I am seriously trying to loose weight (like starting to count my calories) I can't even touch the bad stuff. Other wise I will eat too much. I almost went for a potato chip but I knew that I couldn't eat just one.

The individual packets also help me. I don't even make cookies anymore because I end up eating them all and my husband is left wondering where they all went days after they all were gone. :(

fricken pb got me again. DAMNIT!

yes it got me too today although i didn't eat so much of it. i did so well up until tonight and then i had cereal, a little cottage cheese, a hunk of leftover cake, a few pretzel nuggets, a few lays chips, some rigatoni, a couple bites of fried chicken (without the skin), mini bbq rice cakes and some grapes. i just get so disgusted. i made a plan of what i would eat today and once i deviated at lunch it just seemed to go downhill tonight. i think one of the main reasons i do this is to procrastinate because i have homework that needs to be done and eating just seems so fun at the time but not afterwards. i feel bloated now, but not sickeningly full. in fact, i could probably eat again. but i won't. oh well. i hope everyone has a good holiday. tomorrow is a new day...

today i have done good, yet i feel like i've just binged. i got my pb2 today and i'm excited. i tried a few bites and it tastes almost the same as real pb. i also ate grapes for breakfast, a yogurt, and an ear of corn. plan to eat very light tonight if i eat anything else. hope everyone is doing well.

i hate that i can feel so completely in control one minute and then be in this weird state of mind where im eating all of this food and i know i shouldn't and i don't really want to, but i can't get myself to stop. today i felt like chocolate, and i told myself i shouldnt buy any because if i did, i would binge.  i bought a bag of hershey's minis anyway, and ate almost the entire bag, the whole time one part of me was thinking how foolish i was and how awful i would feel, and the other part would not stop.  how do you get the sensible side of your brain to win in those situations, and before the episode starts? i feel like i should be able to figure this out.. i just need a plan.  i would love some advice, so i can finally get my life on track.

I know how you feel...last night at 12:00 I had 3 rice cakes and some carrots, and then grabbed a handful of cereal. and went to my bed, got up again grabbed teh box of cereal and brought it back into my room with me and I almost went through teh whole box. I was so discusted with myself.

I'm BED/anorexic. Is that possible? I fit all of the criterea for anorexia, but I'm a compulsive binger. Odd.

 I just ate a loaf of bread?  not a slice, but an actual loaf.

Mmm? it was good =)

So... I just messed up and binged on blackberries in a huge volume... woops...

helpmeoutthere-if im honest, i couldnt think of anything better to binge on...

I have found alot of hope and strength at OA meetings. Does anyone else attend?

Wow, I totally didn't even realize that there are people like me out in the world. Even though me thinking that is completely ignorant, it's true. I only really heard about BED a few months ago. Before that, I was under the impression there are only 2 forms of eating disorders [bulimia and anorexia], I didn't realize there was just a binge eating disorder.

I tend to keep track of the days where I binge. If I binge a lot, I cross out that day on my calendar, if I have a bit more than can be accounted as a "cheat" I only half cross out a day. I've gotten better. I'm trying to stop eating when I'm bored, or as an emotional number, and it's kinda-ish working... However, if I binge really badly as bad as this is for you, I don't eat at all the next day. I just drink loads of water. I guess it's more of a mental thing...

wow, i'm so glad i can across this forum today. I am an emotional/bored eater. Right now i am jobless and stay at home all day so it's hard to avoid the box of cereal or bag of cookies EVERYDAY! I'm going to try what you're doing fatty18 and mark the days i binge on my calendar to try and help control this.

Meh. And now I've done it again and had a whole 32 oz container of light 'n fit yogurt in a sitting. I was just going to have a taste, just a single spoonful, and by time half of it was gone I went "scew it" and ate it all. Meh. it could have been a lot worse. At least it was light so it was just a 320 calorie binge, which isn't that bad by my standards.