~~Bingers Anonymous~~

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

karliann, i noticed you said in one post that when you went away from this site you didn't binge as much. i wonder if coming back may be a trigger. i know that this site means well, and i often look to it for support, but sometimes i think it may actually trigger me to binge. just a thought. i sometimes wish i could just not come on here, but it seems like i'm addicted ever since i found this site.

katergater

I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN! I knwo exactly what you mean....I went for a long long time without binging, and I was thinking....I should be having teh urge to binge right now...so I did but like I think it was mainly just in my head wondering why I didnt have the urge to binge for so long, so when I did it was actually a binge...I was in control and like I actually felt like I couldnt so I stopped after I ate just a couple things.

and yes I have trouble sleeping when I eat less. I will get  trhought a whole entire day of eating good, got the calories I need and what not....and then Ill even crawl in bed and the all of a sudden thats when I hop out and go to the kitchen and binge.

ugh. i binged again today. i feel like crap. yuck.

I was so positive this morning. I really tried to eat properly. I ate enough. I even had a really proper breakfast. And then I popped to the shop early afternoon to buy some washing up sponges and somehow came out with some biscuits (???). I ate the whole 250g in one sitting without enjoying it at all. It just depresses me. I'm going to try and continue with my plan of eating enough outside of binging in the form of proper meals, because I think that it'll help in the long-run ... but it means that my intake for today will be over 2500kcal - not terrible, but ... ugh. I just don't know WHAT happened! I feel sooooo awful now, too. I HATE THIS.

Hello, I am a binge eater. I seriously read all the other posts on this site and feel so at home, because I realize I am not alone. BED is an eating disorder, just like aneorexia, and bullimia, but as we help each other through our struggles, we can overcome it together!

 This is my 4th day with no binging. I've been on CC for 4 days, so I truly believe it is helping! ive already dropped 2.5 lbs. I thank the OP for starting this post, I have a suggestion though! Since we seem to be a pretty large group, considering the number of posts already, do you think we could start a daily Bingers Anonymous thread?

Thanks, cant wait to continue the challenge. I think one thing all of us bingers have in common is the mindset, tommorow is a new day, Never forget that.

Love always, Laugh hard, Live like you mean it.

Ghawaiigirl47

dreamer88---I've had days like that too, but I have made a HUGE step in recovery the past few weeks--it's been 9 days clean:) Anyways, I hate to classify good or bad foods, but it might be a good idea to throw away ANY of your triggers in your house BUT...just for now. That's what I did but then....if I had that URGE to binge no matter what I was doing that day, I walked over to the grocery store and bought a SINGLE snickers bar (my trigger)...I had to wait to get back to the house and you know what? It was that day I realized I didn't want one b/c it didn't so that good. It's aaaaalll in our heads, we don't binge in front of people b/c we're not eating for the food, we're eating b/c of our emotions. Don't feel bad dreamer88 no matter what YOU are in control and that's power!

I've been struggling with this for what seems like forever. I've gained so much weight and my stomach hurts all the time and I'm still never satisfied with anything. I'm always depressed and disgusted with myself. I feel like I'm giving up. Every binge just gets more and more and MORE. More food, more calories, more desperation, more numb. More gross aftereffects as well, but that may be too much information. I don't know.

Yeah. I should stop feeling sorry for myself and grow a pair and just try harder. But right now everything just feels so low. And it makes me want to binge even more.

I've been binging for the past 3 days!
I had some stuff stolen from my mums locked vehicle and it just... threw me out of my life-habits.
I threw diet-caution to the wind.
I ate cookies, i ate straight from the peanut butter jar, i ate chocolate, ice cream, pikelets and cheese.
... And i just can't stop.
I tried to stop this morning, then i went and had more cookies n' cream ice cream for breakfast!
And now i've eaten something horrible like 3000 calories (in total).
I've gained something like 3 pounds according to my scale, though i don't know if thats real weight or just because i have so much food inside me.
I'm not hungry, I haven't been hungry since my laptop was stolen!
But i keep stuffing my face and i get this anxiety bubble that presses up my throat and the only way to relax is to stuff it back down with more food.
... And i know being distracted helps.
But i don't have anything huge to distract me.
I have to buy some wool to get back to knitting...
My boyfriend doesn't know what to do to help me, so he just hugs me.
My family would just say "Oh well, you need to gain some weight anyway! you're too boney! blah blah blah blah blah".
Then pretty much all my friends i've gained from online have eating disorders so they would just think i'm ... i don't know, weak or something.
So i'm turning to myself to fix myself but i don't know how and instead i'm just gaining other psychological problems...
Sorry, i got caught up there and slipped into a rant.
I am NOT binging again tomorrow! I simply REFUSE!

I never knew there was an actually a binging disorder. But after reading these posts it sounds exactly like me. Crap well at least its not just me. I have been binging for a few days on and off and am scared ill gain all my weightg back. Yesterday I got up to almost 3000 calories AARGGHHH! I almost started on this morning after 4 tacos but I hope I nipped it. Well I def am tagging this thread good luck evevryone

OOH. Here I am again. As usual, I've really overeaten and feel like crying. I don't know why I bother to make new posts on this thread ... I might as well just Copy and Paste the same thing!!!

I did perfectly today until about 8pm when I ate a chocolate bar as a treat and to get my calories up ... and it was reduced. Then I thought I might as well carry on eating ... YUCK.

100g of pine nuts (which, apart from anything else, are ridiculously expensive) for almost 700 calories in about five minutes ... I think that was the worst part of my binge.

Sometimes I feel as if I must want to actually binge, somehow. As if I want to mess up, like. I didn't even enjoy those stupid nuts, you know? There was just one bit of me which wanted to eat the highest calorie thing possible.

This is just a hideous cycle to be in. I eat because I feel like **** ... and then I feel like **** because I've eaten ... and then I either starve myself for a few days or "purge" ... and then I feel like **** for not eating or because I'm so revolting ... and then I eat some more ... and a little more! And it just goes on and on. It's nasty, man.

Has anyone on this thread gone to the doctor about their eating? I was kind of thinking about it the other day ... but I don't know if they'd really take me seriously because my BMI is 18.5 which isn't overweight or underweight and this problem of mine hasn't been going on that long, relatively speaking. Plus ... I hate going to the GP about anything ... let alone something this embarassing!

Sorry ... again! That really was too long, wasn't it?!

GRR ...

I  hear you all loud and clear!

My problem is that I binge on like 2 or 3 days and feel soooo uncomfortable ....anyone else liket his where it hurts to move and drinking h20 to flush out all the crap hurts!!!!

help help

I'm like that.
I'll eat to the point where i feel physically ill (hence why i call it binging) and then i just keep eating... which can go on for a matter of days!
... Hi, my name is Claire and I am an emotional binger!!!

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i binged again tonight. i skipped lunch because of totally being stressed out and nervous so i got home and ate an ok amount of veggies but then i took a nap and just got up and started eating pretzels, sunchips, baked lays, some banana bread and cereal. i don't feel real sick probably because it's still in my calories for the day but i'm just so upset because it's like over 1000 cals at one time. ugh. but what's scaring me is that i'm getting up from naps and stuff and going straight for food and i don't even think i'm fully awake. i don't know how to stop this. oh well. i'm just drinking water now and i'll probably work out in a little while.

mikeiscool....when I wake up from a nap is when I am most prone to binging, I find me self soooooo sooo hungry. So I wait like 10 minutes and drink some water when I first wake up and then I get out of having teh urge to binge, yest im still hungry and I will let msyelf eat after that only I dont eat as much.

ugh. binged again, 2 days in a row. what's new?

Karliann 'm Like you I went for soooooooooo   long without binging and eating lke crap lost 20ish lbs and now I'm right bck to were I sttarted. I find if I'm drinking red wine...not white cause I guzzle it b/c its cold and refreshing....but warm red wine that I sip I actually eat less..I whish there were a freakin magic bullet to quit this fattning fu(&!$G  CYCLE  

Karliann 'm Like you I went for soooooooooo   long without binging and eating lke crap lost 20ish lbs and now I'm right bck to were I sttarted. I find if I'm drinking red wine...not white cause I guzzle it b/c its cold and refreshing....but warm red wine that I sip I actually eat less..I whish there were a freakin magic bullet to quit this fattning fu(&!$G  CYCLE  

My name is Jana & I'm a Binger-- I'm the fastfood binger-- the worst kind I know-- Not only do I love the fast food but I'm the one who goes to the drive thru and orders at least 4 different items because I can't choose just one. Then I eat all of it and feel like poo poo for the next 4 days.

hey, i'm emily. i've got serious binging tendencies. it's really ugly and something i sort of hate about myself. i guess my question is this: tonight i was sort of binged. it was all on "diet" snacks: sugar free desserts, pretzels, luna bars. i kept counting the calories out of sheer masochism and i ate 2165. but i burned (according to cc burn meter) around 2400 calories for the day, because i did the elliptical for an hour and also spent about 20 minutes walking around between classes.

 so, what does that mean, anyway? is a binge a binge if i still "burned" more calories than i consumed? i mean, obviously, its still a binge. i still feel that keen emotional shame that comes with the binge. but... is it detrimental to my diet?

any advice, and minimal scolding, if at all possible, would be most wonderful.