~~Bingers Anonymous~~

Welcome to BA. My name is Nicole and I'm a binger.

i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!

i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.

anyone with the same struggles??

Since I suspected refined sugars and carbs were the culprits of my binges, I decided to cut them out of my diet completely this January.
So far, so good and... no binges yet!
And I am not even thinking about all those "trigger foods" anymore.
180 degree turnaround for me, I am shocked and SO happy!!!

I was really beating myself up after supper.  It was not good.  I was so hungry and I just kept eating.  I have exercised all three nights like the 12 week program said, my problem is we are very short on money and whatever is cheap in the grocery store is what I buy.  I have a family to feed.  We live in a really small town and it is 20 miles to the nearest Wal-mart or grocery store.  We have a local grocery store but they don't carry a lot of the healthy foods.  In fact really nowhere close carries the foods you see in the health magazines.  It's easier when you live in a big city like St. Louis.  You can find such a better variety.  Here you settle for what you can get.  So that is a major struggle for me.  I'm so frustrated. 

hi all.

my name is lizzie and i think i am a binger?

i discovered this site a while back but never knew this forum existed!

ive only recently developed this 'thing' and hate whats its doing to me and my body. i cant help but eat all the wrong foods. there was a time in my life where i wouldnt even dream about putting a piece of cake past my lips, but now i can easily have a slice without hesitating or thinking twice so i'll have another and thats when it all begins..

its worrying because i cant just have ONE slice of cake or ONE piece of chocolate without going into 'binge mode' or thinking 'WELL YOUVE BLOWN IT NOW, YOU MIGHT ASWELL CARRY ON'

they say balance and moderation is the key. but i find that so hard. how are you meant to eat your trigger foods without each moment turning into another regretful binge?

i have noticed that it always seems to happen whenever my parents are out or im home alone, because thats the perfect opportunity right? or even if its something i might of eaten that makes me think ive blown it already, so ive blown the whole day! its not so much the savoury things i crave, i just crave the sugar and the sweet taste, which i think is where most of the problem could be coming from.

below is what a binge of mine once consisted of:

- spoonfulls of peanut butter
- spoonfulls of chocolate spread
- sponge cake w. cream filling
- fairy cakes
- chocolate swiss rolls
- individullay wrapped chocolates
- dry cereal
- biscuits
- cookies etc..

once the damage is done, i always think that it will be the last time, and that tomorrow is a new day but then it happens again! im tired of abusing my body, and how it has changed because of this. i just want to get out of this vicious cycle ive somehow fallen into.

its worrying because i almost wish i went back to the girl i used to be who forgot what sugar tasted like because she hadnt eaten it in such a long time. though back then i was drastically underweight, obsessed&n bsp;and very unhappy, but at least i had the control of what i no longer seem to have.  

i need help.

I think I'm developing a bingeing eating disorder... I know ice cream and sweets aren't the right way to deal with a breakup, but it makes sense to do what the movies tell our subconscious, no? I've eaten a bowl loaded with even more unhealthy toppings for the past three days. And I've realized how every few days I sneak a few spoons of peanut butter (with honey or jam to sweeten it), more than a few of those unbaked cookies from the freezer, or just more than enough healthy food. Once I start going bad, I don't stop until I go to bed. I'm also always embarrassed when I'm seen having extra snacks into the night or afternoon, I try to hide my snacking because it's so unhealthy. I normally eat extremely healthy meals, and I guess I assume that they make up for the bad foods I eat between meals. I currently weigh 150 and feel too heavy for what I look, which is quite fit (with an hourglass shape but larger on top and bottom). But I'm tired of this unhealthy cycle and want to give my body the best care possible...

i binged today. not good. and now i'm just depressed and disgusted. hopefully i'll get a chance to work out and it will even out.

hey guys, my name is taylor and I'm a binger.
in fact, I ate half a container of ice cream a couple hours ago, and now I feel horrible.
my top binge foods are ice cream, cereal, and peanut butter.
I'm gonna go hop on the elliptical to hopefully burn away a few of those cals...;;;;

great, i just binged on 4 oatmeal raisin cookies from costco.  not i really feel sick in the stomach because i had a large dinner.  i'm feeling really down right now.

aah...i binged last night and i'm sick of it :(

wow I cant believe how much this sounds like me.  It seems like the more I try to loose weight the more I eat.  I need to loose 10 pounds but I would love to loose at least 20.  I have been struggling with my weight forever and I have been able to keep of the first 40 for over 5 years but the last 20 kills me.  I do good for a few months and then I go on months of binging.  I stop at fast food and eat a few different meals at once!  Last night I got off work and went to the store and bought cheese and sour cream and came home and ate 3 plates of nachos!  It is soooo wrong.  I live with my b/f and kids and I am all for healthy eating and they think I do, they buy junk food and I don't touch it until they are gone and then I eat it all and then go replace it so they never know.   

okay so I worked on tuesday and I think I had had like 1600 before I went to work and I was like okay Im not going to eat anymore today, I will get home at 9:00 and Ill just watch tv and fall asleep, well wrong! On my break I had 2 small ice caps, a bowl of soup with a small bun and butter, 3/4 of a bagel, a cheese crossant, and 3 donut holes, and after work I bought a large hotchocolate I had 4000 cals that day.

yesterday I did really good all day I think I was at liek 1250 calories after dinner at like 7:00 and then I had 7 cookies! which was 1340 calories. so then i got mad and I got my mom to take me to the track so I could go for a run, and I ran over 4K. Then what do you know I come home and have 3 bowls of cereal which was 850 cals and I ate some almond butter with the spoon so that was another 1000 at like 10:00pm. SO i ended up at 3700 cals.

thats 7700 calories in 2 days! averaged out thats 3850! I put on 2 pounds worth of fat plus an extra 700! shoot me now! :(

todays been good though so far 440 and its 2:00, and Im going to eat something else in a second.

I started to binge and then stopped myself. That's got to be a first! Well, rare, anyway. I had a banana, some berries, a lot of chocolate, a dried fruit bar and some raisins - really could've been worse, my intake for today is under 1800, even.

Frozen berries are a great thing to binge on, by the way. I know, the act of binging is horrible whatever you eat, but at 270kcal for 500g you can't massively overeat calorie-wise, you feel more refreshed than ill, they take a long time to eat, they're healthy ... and they're pretty yum.

karliann, if it's any comfort I had 6000 or so a few days ago and only gained 1lb.

Good luck!!!

The frozen berries thing really works! Plus, for me, after a certain amount of frozen berries, my teeth start to tingle and hurt because they're so cold and sooo sweet that it almost forces me to stop eating because it hurts, lol. Another thing I found that's good is fat free whipped topping, the kind that comes frozen in a tub. I eat it when it's still frozen so it's a lot of work to eat, so it takes longer. Plus, there's only 20 cals per scoop, so even if I eat the whole thing, it's not terrible. I know none of these mechanisms are a solution, more of a quick fix, but if all I need is something to just get me through to the next minute until I can stop and address the problem, that's not too bad, right?

i'm cursed. i've been binging every other day pretty much this whole month :(. i binged today, but i know why...it was emotional. i had an internship interview and i'm afraid it didn't go well and i'm worried...so i came home ravenous and just kept eating. i want to go at least 2 days w/o binging. it's so annoying.

Ok.. so I just ate my Lean Cuisine Chicken in Peanut Sauce and I'm done for the day. But... I don't want to be.... I WOULD like to eat about 17 more things.. but I won't. Instead I grabbed a Diet Caffenie Free Mt. Dew (I know it's not water.. but it's something to change it up a bit, yet still calorie free).. so I'm going to slowly drink that in hopes that it will take away my cravings. I hope...

Tomorrow is a new month 2/1/08....
I binged yesterday and today breaking my 10 day binge free stint. I can't wait to start over and get to my goal. I know this can be accomplished if I put my mind to it.
I binged for the last 2 days due to emotional reasons. I was nervous about reaching my own goal and sabotaged myself.
I was also tired and exhausted.

Okay so I almost binged last night.  I ate healthy all day but was of at 1 and for me the hardest time to control my binging is when I am home.  I had a handful of nuts and some biscotti crackes, not much and then waited for dinner, WHICH WAS HARD!!!  I ate a good portion for dinner, but then my sweet tooth kicked in!!! My b/f was home so I had a few hershey kisses, about 5, and even though I wanted more, a lot more!!! my boyfriend had fallen asleep on me so I could not get up without him waking and seeing what I was doing so it all worked out. Thank god!!! 

  I am going to try the frozen berry trick, I already do the cool whip

GRRRR!!!!! I just binged and the only reason I stopped was because I know I needed to write about it.  It was about 1300 calories, so not as bad as it could have been, but I still have to go out to eat tonight with my parents so obviously I have to go work out first!

i keep binging!! errr!! that's it i am starting a challenge to go 35 days without binging or purging or eating junk food... i hate this sooo much

you guys are all like me! I'm so thankful i found this site!! I have a problem of binging then restricting. It sucks, and i'm so sick of it!! Yesterday i did really well, then i came home and my mom was making fresh brownies... mmmmm.... i can still smell them! And their sitting on the counter and even though it's 8 in the morning, I want a bite! But i know 1 bite will lead to many more... so i'm trying to STOP myself!

Starting tomorrow i'm setting up a goal for myself to not eat dessert/sweets for 15 days... I can do it, right?!

I  always get this mindset of, "i just can't do it, so i might as well eat like crap." BUT... i dont want to do that anymore!!! "I can do it, I can do it, I can do it!!!!"

I ate the stupid brownies!! And now i keep eating, eating, and eating them! I am so mad at myself i just want to hit something! And i want to cry :( Why do i just keep eating all this junk food? It only makes me mad at myself in the end. I've gained about 5 pounds in the past 2-3 weeks. I'm just so sick of it. Starting tomorrow - DAY 1 OF BEING BINGE FREE!