Bless me, Forum, for I have Binged.... absolve me, please.

So I was having a HORRIBLE day yesterday, and enough food was never enough.  I didn't log anything.  Just ate and ate and ate and ate.  First day I've done that in over two months.

On the plus side, I binged on healthy (or at least sort of healthy) food.  These are the items I clearly remember:

I had three yogurts, instead of just one.  Each 80 calories.  Total of 240 calories.

I ate one entire wrapped package (a third of the box) of Ry-Krisp onion dill crackers - total of 360 calories.

I had four hard boiled eggs WITH the yolks and then one extra egg white.

I had two Eat Right "fitness bars* - chocolate caramel, and tasting for all the world like I was stuffing the most decadent Godiva chocolates in my mouth.  Each bar has 100 calories.

Add to that a whole grapefruit for sure, and cauliflower torn off the head and eaten straight from the fridge.  A baggie full of sliced watermelon.  That kind of thing.  The whole day was under 2,000 calories, I'm sure of it - and it was all emotional eating, not out of hunger.  (And I didn't drink enough water.)

So that was bad.  Not so much for the amount of calories I ate, but for the binging nature of it.  And I'm now going to say three Hail Marys and leave it behind.  And am very thankful that it wasn't binging on things that would have been far worse.  I need to get rid of this guilt, though.

There's no need to feel guilty.  I don't know what your daily calorie goal is, but that sounded like a healthy cheat day to me.  The grapefruit and cauliflower are negative calorie foods, so unless you dipped them in fatty dressing, they don't really count.  Just get back on the wagon tomorrow and you'll be fine.  It'll probably even help your diet in the long run.  Also, maybe you should look at what your regular daily intake is- it could be that it's too low. 

Hey, it’s okay! Just remember how bad it makes you feel and that it is NOT worth it, so next time you feel an urge to binge, you can remember how you felt!

Your right, it is not WHAT you binge on, it is the act itself that you want to avoid!

Try not to do it again, and assess your diet to make sure you get enough carbohydrates/proteins/fats/and total calories to SATISFY you - a LOT of people get the carbohydrate/protein/fat balance WRONG, and then they crave the thing they need more of!

I hope you have found what works well for you in your diet, then you can deal with the emotional/non physical reasons behind the binges more easily.

It is hard to deal with non physical urges to binge when your body actually genuinely NEEDS certain food!

As I am reading and typing this, I'm eatting my second piece of a 220 cal per slice pie I made.   If I can stop at this piece, I'll be ok...but the rest of it is looking at me!  Two pieces is too many, but the whole pie would start a possibly never ending binge.  I know if I eat too much more of this, I'm going to start looking for the next thing.  It feels so good during the binge that I tend to forget how horrible I feel afterwards.  I'm still using good food as a "treat" for doing so well on my diet...grrr, have to change that mindset...Thanks for your reminder of how it feels the day after a binge.  I think it was just what I needed to stop at this piece of pie.  I just finished it, and now I'm full AND satified!