I really blew it

I am not new to this site but the last time I logged in I weighed 121 lbs in 2006 I now weigh a wapping 160 lbs I should kick myself I really blew it!   I shouldn't have ever have let myself get this big again but I quit smoking 4 months ago and have been eating ever since  GRRRRRRR!!!!!  I am so disappointed in myself!!

I am so totally with you!!!  I quit smoking 3 months ago and haven't quit eating since.  I had lost 35 pounds and was down to 165.  I was doing really good and liked working out in the morning.  Now I'm back in my fat clothes and everything is tight.  I am so angry also.  Why o Why did I lapse back this far?  I tell myself daily that all it takes is one day and I could be right back but I just haven't made myself do it yet.

So I'm there!!!!!  We should start a group! 

I think that most people who give up smoking start eating more and gain weight . I tried to give up smoking couple times,but started again because i was gaining weight too fast . I would like to give up smoking but i know i will get bigger,and i dont want to get bigger.

So dont be disappointed in yourself,because you gave up smoking !!! WELL DONE !  And when the time is right you will start dieting and will lose that extra weight - one thing at the time .

You came back to this site - so i think that is the first step to your weight loss . There are some really nice people on CC who will support you & will give you advise that you need .

You gave up smoking - you should be proud of yourself !  

I completely understand what you are saying!  I used this site to lose 40lbs and finally be at a healthy bmi (barely but I felt good!)  - then I thought I could maintain it alone.  Well one day almost 2yrs later I stood on the scale and BAM it read 176lbs!  I don't know how I let it happen, shortly after I dragged my sorry **** back to CC I became pregnant and now the most I can do is try to moderate my gain, which is impossible when I can flucuate 6lbs of water in 2 days because my body has turned into a sponge lol. 

I am at 20 weeks now and have gained 14lbs at my last appointment my doctor mentioned I have been gaining too much I felt so ashamed! I am only 10lbs away from being 200lbs and the next 20 weeks are when the baby is actually going to gain weight! I stopped weighing myself lol if I never see the number 200 on the scale that means it didn't happen right *sighs*. 

I have upped my cycling and walking distances (but not intensity because I am to far along for that) and am watching my calories very closely so hopefully I only gain the minimum 0.5lb/week for the next 20 weeks.

*bigger sigh*

Hey at least you have an excuse for gaining weight don't worry about the weight so much just worry about what you eat.  fruits and veggies so the baby will be healthy when it gets here.  I absolutely have no excuse when I really started sliding was when I was working two jobs and going to school full time.  I just made it okay in my own mind because I didn't have time to plan eating it was always on the run, whatever I could grab.  Not a good excuse now I am going to have to start back all over again and I have actually gained past my original weight when I came her last time.  I am so mad at myself!!!!

Yea-I have to say being pregnant is a good excuse- I did that too-I got to almost 200 before my 2nd son was born and I never really got rid of that until recently.  I still claim baby weight (he is 6).  I started at 199-got down to 164 and was feeling great-but back to 176.  I have gained back 12 pounds!!!!

I just need some motivation.  Once I start I do okay.  I just haven't made that start yet and I get more  and more pissed at myself every day!!!

yeah after the baby you'll do great!   you'll get back in the swing of things and if you exercise at all it will also help you feel better sooner.   I have two kids myself 15 and 11 and this is the real kicker I didn't really gain weight until my youngest son was 5 years old!  I only gained 19 lbs when I was pregnant with him so mine is just letting everybody else's needs come before my own.  I really am pissed at myself cause its nobody's fault but mine

hi wyogirl,

I am so mad at myself too!  I am back in my fat clothes and unconfortable in them as well.  I guess we both fell off the wagon.  I quit smoking which by the way I love!!!!   they are my friend they are always there when I need them and they never give me any grief, my mother has been diagnosed with COPD and has to stay on oxygen for the rest of her life and I am her genetic recreation so I quit.  But I cannot stand being fat.  I never had to deal with it before I was 85 lbs when I graduated from High school but I have crohn's disease and could never keep any weight on until I had surgery to remove several feet of intestines.  they put me on prednisone which is a steroid and I have never been able to keep the weight off since

Ahh I had slipped 25lbs before getting pregnant, but I like to think it is all just baby weight.  It makes me feel a little better lol, and then I don't have to admit to anybody else that I just got lazy!

Quitting smoking is definately harder to do then get pregnant!  If you ladies have the willpower to do that you can definately get back on the healthy eating train, my DH has quit smoking like 4 times and it makes him so miserable I am almost relieved when he starts again! 

I've never been a smoker but I did quit drinking coffee, I used to drink it all day at work you would never see me without a cup of coffee in my hand, and then I would drink a couple cups in the evening I can easily say a min of 10 cups a day (luckily I drink it black) - if i went a day without coffee I wouldn't be able to get out of bed the next morning because of a wickid caffeine withdrawl headache.  Come to think of it I think my weight started going up after I quit coffee, there is just something soothing about having a warm cup in your hand that makes you not need to find something to eat in the kitchen.

One day about a year ago on a health kick I decided to give up, it was probably for the best I can't imagine going through coffee withdrawl while being all pg & hormonal :P

Isn't it crazy how the weight just creeps up on you?  You notice you're gaining but it doesn't really hit you til one day you hardly recognize yourself.  I knew I was gaining weight but I didn't realize how much til I got on a scale.  I have always been small and I expected I was ten or fifteen over weight.  Wrong- I was thirty. 

The weight comes on in no time but takes forever to get off.  Its so much easier to gain then it is to lose.  But at least you have caught yourself now and can make the steps to losing the weight. 

Hey now, all you quitters PLEASE don't be angry for the weight gain. I was a smoker for over 30 years and when I finally quit the last time, I put on A LOT of weight. It killed me, I didn't recognize myself in the mirror and I kept asking myself if it was worth the aggravation. That was 2 years ago and I am finally dropping the weight and am absolutely 100% over the moon that I am still a non-smoker. I hurt my knee very badly not long after quitting, which delayed my weight loss, increased my weight actually, otherwise it would have happened much sooner. My doctor told me from the beginning that eventually the weight does come off once your body adjusts to the changes. My has just started to go away, but it's happening. Stay strong and proud of this accomplishment. You are awesome!

Hey,

I just want to congratulate all the people who have been able to quit smoking, regardless of the gain.  I started changing my entire way of eating about a month ago...  Used to drink around 40 oz of soda/day, skip breakfast, and eat pretty much anything I wanted until all hours.  I am not hugely over-weight, but as a 5'3" guy, I'd like to get from about 170 down to 145 or so.  I stopped drinking soda, only drink water now, and at least 40 oz/day.  I am eating roughly 1500 calories/day, and I'm trying to lose about 1-1.5lbs/wk.   Even without much exercise, it seems to be working...

I digress, as a smoker, I feel like a cheater.  It was very easy for me to give up fatty foods, most sugars, corn-syrup, candies, soda and many others because I am a smoker.  I used to joke that I could live without food, as long as I had nicotine and caffeine, but it's still true.  I give the former smokers tons of credit b/c it would be so damn hard for me to do what I've done if I didn't have my crutch to fall back on...

It also occurred to me that it might be in my best interest to learn how to eat better, so that when I do quit, I will have the tools I need not to put the weight back on...  Though, now, I wonder if I'm deceiving myself, reading about other people's experiences...

arbrown, if...WHEN you are interested in thinking about quitting smoking pick up this book. I bought it on several independent recommendations and it sat on my nightstand for a month or three. Finally I started reading it in the hopes that it would at least get me in the mood to quit. 3/4 of the way through I consciously put out my last cigarette. There are cravings, but minimal and relatively rare. Go to the link and check out the reviews. It's pretty amazing. Good luck!

Thanks for the recommendation!  For some reason the author sounds really familiar to me, like someone I met had told me it helped them as well.  I guess if his little quit smoking book helps, and I should gain weight, I could follow it up with his weight-loss book...  Not a bad marketing strategy :)

Firstly - well done on quitting smoking.

Secondly - I'm totally with you. Last time I logged on I was 145ish. Now I'm 167. And I don't have the quitting excuse either!

Hope we both reach our goals hun xx 

Well it does make me feel a little better that I have some fellow backsliders that just let the weight creep back on.  I really struggle I only weighed 85 lbs when I graduated from high school.  I have crohn's disease and had surgery in 1998 and they put me on prednisone which is a steroid to help healing.  Ever since then it has been a constant battle and for someone who used to eat everything in sight just to keep the 85 lbs on it is very difficult.   I can get the weight off with will power but I guess my issue is maintaining the weight do I have to eat cardboard for the rest of my life just to stay slim.  I hate water which I drink anyway and I really don't find most food I can have appealing.So I have quit smoking and now I have to give up the only other thing a really enjoy food..