Bulimia and gaining weight

Hi. I need to tell my story....

I had anorexia 4 years ago and did not treat it properly. Then, 2 years ago, I started suffering from bulimia. I was very thin and obcessed with physical exercise, so when I started binging I felt good and with the control because at first I did not gain weight, but then I started to gain 1 kg, 2 kg, 3 kg...without all the control and feeling miserable. I tried to stop several times but I could not do it for more than 3 months. Life seemed not to matter to me. I felt lonely. I have a few friends, but I have dificulties to trust them and to make new ones, because I regard myself as not very interesting. In fact, I do not talk a lot, I am always afraid of hurting the others, I do not express my feelings.

Bulimia took control over my life. Apart from studying and some superficial relationships, it was binging and purging all the time. My mother knew and did not help me. I couldn't stop and I hated it. Meanwhile, I gained weight. 10 kg, to be precise. Now I am finally in theraphy, I stopped binging, I am a bit more confident, but I feel so fat! Has anyone suffered from bulimia and gained weight too? What did you do? You know, I used to be so thin and admired for that that now I feel a monster!!!

you need to take all your focus off your outside appearance and focus on your inner beauty girl! if you dont feel interesting then you need to figure out who you are and what makes you "you".

Hi there, I've not ever been bulimic, but just here to say you've done a great job on realizing the right way to live.

You've mentioned you stopped binging, there's a start!  You just have to work small steps in undoing the 4 years of damage.  Stay healthy and positive!

i sent u a pm :)

i know exactly what you are going through. I was anerexic in highshcool and deathly skinny. then i gained some healthy weight but i was never happy with the way i looked, even when people said i looked great.

after i graduated, i was active and ate healthy. i was in an abusive relationship so i felt i had to work extra hard to look attractive for him. after we broke up two years later i began to binge eat. i became bulimic. i have been struggling with this ugly disease for several years now. and yes, i gained weight! almost thirty pounds in two years. i too felt like a monster. i wanted help.

i told my friend and she said if i did not stop, she would tell my parents.

i did not want my parents to know because they have enough to worry about. i quit. i have been doing great for several months now.

i eat very healthy and walk for at least 45 minutes a day. i have lost half of the weight i gained and i am doing it gradually and healthy. my friend is a nurse and an avid nutrionist so she helped me plan my meals and gain back  my self control.

it was very hard at first but if u want it bad enought, you can accomplish anything.

i also got a puppy to motivate me to go for walks everyday! she is a great companion and she is a great excercise buddy.

don't let bullimia run your life. u need to stop; u need to stop today.

how did you stop the bingeing?

Your answer was very motivated, sillycurls. I guess I have to do more a less the same as you. Besides the therapy, I try to do physical exercise every day (in the gymn or walking) and I am not to give up my life - studies and friends. Thank you,wish you the best luck with your healthy routine!

To stop the binging sucessfully I think you need to see a doctor and ask for both phsycological and nutritional help. Bulimia is not just an illness of calouries, you know, it has to do with how you see your life,  relationships and so on, therefore you must solve your "brain problems". I am telling you this based on my personal experience: during the 2 years I had bulimia, I tried to stop the binging with healthy diets by myself and it simply didn't work: after more or less 3 months the cycle of binging and purging always started owing to stress or a stricter diet than necessary...