I cant believe I have so little power over myself.

Life here has been massively crapola since Tuesday (my birthday) I was in such a good mood that morning.  My car still isn't starting, it died Tuesday and Im still hoping it will start when it warms up.  Im really afraid that the engine is seized.   I want to bawl, it is so cold and Im so tired of it being cold.  

Day before yesterday I ate 12 count them 12, fruit and nut 140 calorie bars.  That was in addition to 4 tortillas with cheese melted.  Plus toast and sandwiches and omg I cant even remember  all I ate.  I did the same thing yesterday too.  

I know that I am letting my outside influences affect the way I am eating, but I cant even go anywhere to get out of the house and get away from the food.  Thank god I had already taken all unhealthy things out of the house.  

Started on Jan 13th at 314 lbs got down to 296 on Tuesday and am now up to 305.  TOM just ended so I cant even blame that.  

I think I just needed to vent, thank you all for being there to listen.  I am going to go 100% starting again today.  Thank you again. 

the most important thing is not to give up, you should be proud of yourself that you lost over a stone, and i promise that the other weight is just water weight, dont stress out about it. we all slip up and you were doing well, you just need to get back on track and watch the pounds fall off your body.

chin up, carry on and most importantly keep smiling! sometimes its easy to get worked up so much about calories and weight that we forget the joy of being alive and that we're lucky to be alive-it sounds spiritual i know, and corny but its true, sometimes we get caught up in our everyday lives and just need a minute to think and breathe calmly and realise life is good! 

Excuse my french but I'm going to give you what would probably help me (hope I don't sound too mean) but I think you need some tough love. 

Suck it up...S*it happens.  You're letting the short term (car trouble) affect the long term (your HEALTH!).  My dad used to tell me, "Cole, if you don't like it, then change it.  If you can't change it, then just accept it and quit whining."

Binging is not going to fix your car, Hon!  Hope I was more help than hurt.  I believe you can accomplish anything you set your mind too!  Use your car not working as an incentive to walk off your binge:-) OH, AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

akmom:

 I just posted about this same kind of thing under "maintaining".  Some days it's so hard to not try to ease that pain with food, isn't it? Some people drink to take the edge off, or take prozac.  Some eat.  It never makes us feel better in the long run, but at the time it is so wonderful (at least for me!)

 I'm in a cold climate, too.  And icy and snowy.  I'm drinking lots of tea these days.  Last night, I recognized:  "I just want to EAT.  I am not hungry.  I just want to eat."  So, rather than suffer, I filled up a huge bowl with romaine lettuce and some fat free dressing.  That way, I could eat without feeling bad about my behaviour.  I recognize it's not the BEST way to deal with it, but it's better than a cookie binge!!

 Hang in there! Spring will be here, and you can get out and walk again without slipping on the ice!! 

Thank you so much.   I want so much to teach my kids that sitting down and eating a whole bag of cheetos is not normal behavior, and I am failing miserably.   Food is such an emotional thing, odd isnt it?  I quit smoking in Sept and it was so much easier, I just dont go around people who smoke and I dont buy them.  A little harder with food, have to buy it no matter what.  

Im keeping my chin up today, I can do it.  If I can handle 5 kids I can handle anything.  As long as I can keep a positive attitude I can do it.   

((hugs)) for you akmom.  I am in Alaska too, and with it being so cold lately it is driving me and my whole family crazy.   It is like hibernating except I want to eat more, not less!    

I usually end up snacking out of sheer boredom...  Been keeping low cal microwave popcorn on hand. That way if I end up eating the whole bag (which happens frequently)  It is only about 90 calories.  Not too bad, and lots of fiber. 

Keep your chin up, I know you can do it! 

I was told something that might help you.  It really helped me at the time.  It's easy to feel like things are going bad and then binge or whatever to feel better about it. But I'm going to tell you this. Once you've done it, it doesn't mean you have to continue doing it. Instead of saying, "I'll begin fresh tomorrow" catch yourself and say "Ok this is what happened in the past and literally the next minute is the future, so choose to change the future. Choose to begin fresh that next minute. Now trust me I understand that it's easy for me to simply say this, but you need to know that the past doesn't direct the future. Make the choice to change now. Good for you for posting instead of continuing to binge. Good start to your future!!!!!!

I binged on chocolate yesterday. No regrets. It was so good. As long as I know I don't do it everyday.

In the mean time, at least you're not this guy http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/23096041/?GT1=108 56