Posts by julzdanceruns

You really can't work on building muscle until your body has something to make muscle out of! 2500 sounds great... you have to simply get a bit of meat on your bones first though. Then, gradually, the muscle will rebuild. Remember, refeeding is temporary... your body composition will regulate as the process goes on! So hang in there... I know it's rough, but it gets easier!

Original Post by agruskin:

hi

i do remember ur posts from before, glad to hear ur doing well.

i want life, im seeing how much there is out there and im happy to be getting closer.

i still struggle tho.  im about a bmi of 19, aiming for atleast 20 and think MY body might be happier at a higher bmi than that.

can i ask what it was like towards the end of ur recovery? any insight, thoughts, suggestions?

thanks+congrats on ur happiness!

 Thank you girls for the nice feedback! Chrissy, I really appreciate the support :) I haven't posted in about a year or so, but still visit this site occasionally. My maintainence needs are still VERY high (I'm a competitive Irish Dancer and Distance Runner, which explains a bit...) so, I like to frequent this form for great recipes that help me meet my needs!

Agruskin, to answer your question (well, I'll try my best... lol), I felt really free, but scared at the same time. I guess I still feel that way. It was like I was entering uncharted territory, so excited to have finally reached this new point, yet afraid, because recovery WAS new!

I remember that first, my depression started to lift gradually. I'd have more energy, but also more mood swings... like I'd be uncontrollably happy (my friends even accused me of being high a few times, though that was far from the case!), but I would also get really low. My doctor said that this was my horomones regulating again. I never started my periods, prior to the ED onset, but they returned as I neared my healthy weight range. My doctor didn't want to put me at risk for relapse though, thus, I went 5 lbs. higher than the menarchy weight. This also coincided with my lifetime weight pattern, which has always fallen along with 10-20th percentile. Growth charts have been VERY helpful to many families in determining a goal weight. They're induvidualized, thus, you can figure out the best solution for YOU! Here's a link to a growth chart... http://www.cdc.gov/growthcharts/data/set2clin ical/Cj41cs072bw.pdf

Also, I started FEELING lonliness. Before, isolation was just a primary aspect in my life... I never cared that I was living a life by myself. But for once, I wanted to be around people. I was sad that I had lost so many relationships to this disorder. I started to not just regret things, but try and change them.

Not everything was all peaches and cream... my body checking (not sure if anyone's familiar with body checking, but you know, like frequent pinching of body parts/looking in mirrors/trying on clothes) got pretty obsessive as my weight increased. I had to really team up with my family and therapist to combat these compulsions to "check" myself. Checking never really made "me" feel good, it just satisfied ED. Or in some cases, "angered" ED. I started to anylize my urges. My cognitions had improved, so it got to the point that I was able to do this. I'd write down my urge to have a behavior, and list the events/feelings leading up to it.

Also, I chose some "go to" strategies for when I was having urges. My favorite tools to combate ED urges are distraction, "acting opposite" (when you just COMPLETELY act opposite of ED's commands!), and Interpersonal Effectiveness (talking with a friend/family member for guidance).

Wow, I wrote alot! Haha. There's alot of stuff that I noticed as my weight improved. I started to enjoy food and break free of rigid eating patterns. If dinner wasn't served "exactly" at 6:00, it wasn't the end of the world. I just kind of felt like I was actually a part of the world again. I still go to a therapist bi-weekly, to continue progressing. The most important thing is to continue pushing yourself. The ways in which you push yourself will very as you get further ahead, too. Like in the beginning, simply finishing a meal may seem like alot. Then, that gets easier. Next, you may want to try and eat in under 30 minutes, or try a challenge food, and so on.

For me, I've reached a point where food really isn't the issue. I'm working on resolving emotions though that MAKE food the issue. Like social things. I am happy though and I am hopeful now. I can do the things in life that I love with health and confidence. I am in the greatest shape I've EVER been in my life, and my athletic performance is indicative of this.

I hope I answered your question to a point, if you have any other concerns, feel free to email me (since I'm not on often, I don't want to "leave you hanging...)

My email is stepdancechic128@sbcglobal.net

Best of luck everyone!

Original Post by cowcow44:

 

but I feel that mainly applies to people who are severely anorexic and underweight.

Any person who is anorexic is severly anorexic... this is a deathly disease, inspite of how much you weigh. Underweight is underweight... so don't let your eating disorder trick you into thinking you're not "that bad".

While I'm not a physician, I would advise holding off on physical activity until you've reached a minimum BMI of 18.5. Ofcourse, your doctor can provide you with more guidance. At your current weight, your body is likely functioning at a compromised level, just to get through a typical day. You need every ounce of energy to go toward internal healing (both physiologically and psycholically).

Health risks aside, exercise is often times adds "fuel to the fire" with recovering anorexics. Thus, it's important to learn how to develope a healthy relationship with exercise before you can resume it. Again, I'm not your doctor, but this is just my stance.

Best of luck in your recovery, and congratulations for deciding to take this step for YOU. You WILL be able to exercise again, you just need to cross the bridge of recovery first! So many things are on the "other side" (other side being life without ED), and I promise you, once you reach that side, everything will makes sense. Your journey to a healthier life is going to be the most worthwhile thing you will ever do. So stay strong! You CAN do this!

Don't rely soley upon the calculators... for most induviduals, ESPECIALLY athletes, they can be highly innacurate.

For example, I'm 17 years old, female, and 97 lbs. According to the calculators, I only need 2,000 calories to maintain my current weight (I run Cross Country and am an Irish Dancer, averaging 6 hours of active training weekly). However, I need 2,800 atleast to maintain my weight.

haha i make it apoint to get weighed RIGHT after eating/drinking... cuz it makes me heavier and makes ppl happier lol

but yeah, i would say that first thing in the morning, AFTER using the restroom, would be the most accurate.

Hey i thought it would be fun to post one of they because i cant find many. and ill go first. heres the questions: (btw you dont need to answer them all this is just something my friend sent me)

Name or Nickname: Julia/Jules
Gender: Female
Birthday: May 30
Where you live (Country): US
Height: 5'4.5"
Eye color: Blue
Hair color: Auburn
What does your name mean: Soft haired child
Favorite TV shows: Fraiser, Real Houswives of NYC, House MD, Scrubs, King of Queens, Family Guy
Do you believe in yourself: Yes
Favorite game: Candy Land
Favorite drink: Diet Root Beer
Favorite food: Apples, Shrimp, Fiberone, or Greek Yogurt
Favorite colors: Emerald Green

Favorite sounds: The rythm of my dance shoes
Favorite smell: The first warm day of spring
Worst feeling in the World: failure or hurting others/being controlled
Best feeling in the World: dancing or running
Favorite thing to do on a weekend: workout and detox from the hectic week infront of the computer, go out at night
Favorite soundtrack: Garden State
Where do you see yourself in 10 years: just beginning my psychiatric practice
Rollercoasters- deadly or exciting: EXCITING
Future son names: Conor or Liam
Future daughter names: Kerra, Fiona, or Rylie
Are you a good friend: Yes
Chocolate or Vanilla cake: Vanilla
What do you drive: a Toyota
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Yes, since I was a baby
Thunderstorms cool or scary: AMAZING!!!
If you could meet one person in the World, who would it be: Princess Diana, God rest her
What is your zodiac sign: Gemini
What do you wear to bed: nothing j/k, usually some sweatpants/tshirt ensemble I got from dance team, cross country, or track
Do you eat stems of broccoli: Why ofcourse! Why waste perfectly good vegetable?
If you could dye your hair one color, what would it be: Brunette
If you could have a tattoo, what and where would it be: on my ankel
Favorite brand of gum: I can't chew gum
What is your favorite quote: "Pain is temporary, Pride is forever"
Have you ever been in love: Yes
Is the glass half-empty or half-full: half-empy
Pick a song that describes yourself or that you can relate to: Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls
Which do you prefer- Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese Doritos: EWWW neither lol
Favorite flavor Snapple: Diet Raspberry
Which one, Coke or Pepsi: Diet Coke
Which kind of milk is your favorite: Light Vanilla Soy
If you were to kill someone, which method would you use? I can't even think about that
Are you a righty, lefty, or ambidextrous: Righty
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: Yes
When you meet a person of the opposite sex, you notice their: physical fitness
What’s the best number in the World: 8
What is your dream car: BMW
Who is your biggest crush right now: Eh no one really
Nickname: Jules
Bacon Bits Or croutons: Bacon Bits!!!
What type of Shampoo/Conditioner: Pantene
Have you ever been skinny dipping: Hehe yes
Do you make fun of people: All the time! But with good humor... I even make fun of myself!
Have you ever been convicted of a crime: Nope
Best friends online/offline: The world! Haha no, I feel wierd naming people that no one even knows lol
One pillow or two: One
Pets: A doggie and two kitties
Favorite Movies: American Beauty, Little Miss Sunshine, Save the Last Dance
Favorite type of music: Indie, Alternative, and Classic Rock
Hobbies: Irish Dance, Cross Country, Track, Reading, Writing, Fitness, Nutrition, Volunteering, Music
Word or Phrase you overuse: lol
Toothpaste: Crest
Piercing or tattoos: three piercings
Favorite song at the moment: Dust in the Wind, Kansas
Most humiliating moment: anything from middleschool
Craziest or Silliest Person You Know: my friend leigh
Favorite Holiday: ST. PATRICK's DAY!!!

Ues, I deffinetly know some high protein foods, seeing as I consume upwards of 200 grams on a daily basis. Here are some of my "go-to sources"

• Boca Burgers (100 calories, 18 grams of protein)
• Tuna (90 calories, 20 grams of protein)
• Shrimp (110 calories, 24 grams of protein)
• Beef Jerky (150 calories, 28 grams of protein)
• Egg Beaters (30 calories, 6 grams of protein)
• Light String Cheese (60 calories, 8 grams of protein)
• Cottage Cheese (90 calories, 12 grams of protein)
• Greek Yogurt (150 calories, 19 grams of protein)
• EAS Carbcontrol Protein Shake (110 calories, 17 grams protein)
• Designer Whey Protein Powder (100 calories, 18 grams of protein)
• South Beach Snackbar Delites (100 calories, 6 grams of protein)
• 2% Cheese Slices (50 calories, 4 grams of protein)
• Canadian Bacon (60 calories, 11 grams of protein)
• Kashi Go Lean! Original (140 calories, 12 grams of protein)
• Wheat Bread (110 calories, 5 grams of protein)
• Fat-Free Cream Cheese (30 calories, 4 rams of protein)
• Flat Out Flax Multi-Grain Wraps (100 calories, 9 grams of protein)
• Kashi Go Lean! Oatmeal (150 calories, 8 grams of protein)
• Kashi Go Lean! Waffles (160 calories, 8 grams of protein)

Hope that this list helps!

Well, your thoughts seem pretty scewed honestly, seeing as your body is built how a woman's body is supposed to be. First off, I have a hard time seeing "fat gather" at any part of your body at your current weight. I naturally have your exact same stats (and same scenario, eat PLENTY, athletic, just built slender), and there's barely an ounce of fat on my body, except for the "appropriate" areas for a woman. Ie: breasts, hips, butt. I don't even think of it as fat though, it's the way a woman's body is designed.

As far as your "weight gain" goes, this is neccessary, and again- completely natural. Even though you many be done growing in height, your body is still not done filling out, and will gradually put on weight until your twenties.

So basically, your body is doing what it's supposed to do, it's maturing. There's really no "fix" for your butt, seeing as spot-reducing is impossible. Just continue to eat healthily and let nature take its course. Yeah, I know it sucks, but it's part of life. Good luck!

Eeh... Diet Pop, and Sparkling Water...

I can seriously finish off a case (12 cans) of Diet Soda within a day... pretty pathetic. Basically, any calorie free beverage (that tastes REALLY good) is my addiction)

As far as foods, Greek Yogurt and Vitamuffins are surely additctions, as well as Protein Shakes. Ofcourse, these are expensive as **** too

Wow, no offense, but this thread is pretty horrible. If you're freaking out over the fact that fruit and vegetables have fat, even going as far as LABELING some fruits and veggies as "FATTY", you need alot more help than this forum can give you. I'm sorry, but it's true.

EVERYTHING has a tiny bit of fat in it. But being "agitated" with fruits and vegetables containing fat is like being mad because you have to do work in school. Produce is so good for you, that all the benefits outweight the MINISCULE amount of fat found in them... and bottom line... FAT ISN'T BAD FOR YOU! It's total calories that makes you gain weight, not how much fat you consume.

VITAMUFFINS! In deep chocolate, bluebran, cran bran, just about any flavor!- 100 calories

Greek Yogurt with Stevia- 150 calories

Godiva Dark Chocolate Bar- 220 calories

DQ Sugar-Free Orange Bar- 60 calories

Peeps- 130 calories

Kashi Cookies- 130 calories

EAS Carb Control Shakes- 110 calories

South Beach Snack bar Delights- 100 calories

Breyer's Double Churn Icecream- 100 calories

McDonald's Fruit and Yogurt Parfait WITH Granola- 160 calories

McDonald's Ice Cream Cone- 150 calories

Fudgesicles- 60 calories

Sugar-Free Pudding- 60 calories

Pure Protein Bar- 180 calories

1 TBS of peanutbutter mixed with cocoa, greek yogurt, and stevia, then frozen- 125 calories (staves off TONS of cravings)

Trader Joe's Merangue Cookies- 20 calories a cookie

Pumpkin topped with Fat-Free cool-whip, nutmeg, and s/f maple syrup- 80 calories

It's about the size of a vitamuffin... so like medium sized. That was my main motivation for creating this, to replace my daily vitamuffin, since they're so expensive! I think this actually tastes better lol

And thank you, I will deffinetly check out your recipe :D

Ugh, our KFC ALWAYS gives me the HBBQ sandwhich using FRIED chicken... I get so pissed!

• So I stick with a two piece OR strips (200 calories)
• Mashed Potatoes and Gravy (140 calories)
• Green Beans (50 calories)

From McD's, it's usually one of the following

• Grilled Chicken Ceasar Salad w/ Vinegarette (260)
• Small Fries (230)

• McNuggets, 4 Peice (170 calories)
• Large, Non-fat, sugar free Latte (90 calories)
• Fruit and Yogurt Parfait (160 calories)
• Side salad with Balasamic Vinegarrette (60 calories)

• Quarter Pounder, no cheese (420 calories)
• Side Salad with Italian (80 calories)

Chick-Fil-A

• Grilled Chicken salad with Italian (210 calories)
• Small Waffle Fries (270 calories)

• Chargrilled Chicken Sandwhich (270 calories)
• Small Chicken Soup (150 calories)

• Icedream Cone (160 calories)
• Southwest Salad with Italian (280 calories)

• Chicken Club (380 calories)
• Side Salad with Italian (110 calories)

• Original Chick-Fil-a sandwhich on wheat bun (390 calories)
• Small Fruit cup (50 calories)

Yum, I love Kashi's Go Lean! Hot Cereal (I don't like oatmeal...) it's really sweet, and perfecttexture, yet filling. 150 calories per packet and 8 grams of protein. You can also give Greek Yogurt a try, but stick with 2% instead of the fat-free (will get to the reasoning later...), and I enjoy taking Eggbeaters, about a half a cup, and making an omelette filled with 2% cheddar cheese  

You NEED fat in your breakfast (preferably from a healthy source, avoid saturated fats) to keep you full. Fat actually helps to promote satiety, thus eliminating those pesky hunger pangs. Try it, seriously, just include a fat source in your breakfast. I'm not talking a stick of butter (eww!), just something simple, like switching from skim dairy to 2%, or throwing some almonds/nut butter/flax seed in somewhere. Olive oil (just a tad) is good, too!

Below are a few low-cal breakfasts (They're all 300 calories or less, though being an endurance athlete, they usually act as snacks for me).

100 calorie english muffing (100 calories)

medium sized apple (80 calories)

1/4 cup eggbeaters (30 calories)

1/4 cup 2% cheddar cheese (80 calories)

2 TBS salsa (10 calories)

Total= 300 calories, 6 grams of fat, 11 grams of fiber, 18 grams of protein

1 cup FAGE 2% Greek Yogurt w/ 1 packet of Stevia (150 calories)

1 Vitamuffin Corn Muffin (100 calories)

1/2 cup Pureed Pumpkin w/ 1 Tsp. cinnamon and 1 packet Stevia (50 calories)

300 calories, 5 grams of fat, 11 grams of fiber, 23 grams of protein

Kashi Go Lean! Hot cereal (150 calories)

Canadian Bacon (60 calories)

Egg beaters (30 calories)

Orange (60 calories)

300 calories, 3.5 grams of fat, 8 grams of fiber, 25 grams of protein

1/2 cup 2% Cottage Cheese w/ Stevia and cinnamon (90 calories)

1/2 cup Fiberone (60 calories)

1 cup Blueberries (70 calories)

Canadian Bacon (60 calories)

1 tsp. honey (20 calories)

300 calories, 6 grams of fat, 18 grams of fiber, 25 grams of protein

Mott's Plus applesauce topped with 2 Tbs. Flax meal (110 calories)

Eggbeaters (30 calories)

2 Kashi Go Lean! Waffles (160 calories)

300 calories, 9 grams of fat, 13 grams of fiber, 17 grams of protein

2 slices whole grain toast (110 calories)

1 Tbs peanutbutter (100 calories)

Eggbeaters (30 calories)

1 Kiwi (60 calories)

300 calories, 9.5 grams of fat, 6 grams of fiber, 15 grams of protein

These breakfast pairings should be enough to get you started, and before you know it, you'll be coming up with clever combinations on your own!

Enjoy!

sounds REALLY good! I know that the nutritionals would change, but could I use 2% milk? that's all that my mom will buy... I'm gonna give it a go! (and use Stevia, my go-to sweetner!)