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Maintaining Ease my anxiety . . . Jul 01 2008
21:05 (UTC)
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You might want to check out something-fishy.org -- they have a Recovery forum on there.
I've found some good support for ED stuff over there, they don't talk about food or numbers, but they will give you lots of tips on recovery, anxiety, emotions, etc.
Maintaining Maintainers ~ How do you measure success? Apr 01 2008
16:44 (UTC)
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star -- there are a **thousand** ways to track progress from working out: speed, distance, length of time, weight lifted etc.

check out runningahead.com and stumptuous.com for two of my favorite exercise related websites. runningahead has a fabulous log (if watching #s is part of your thing) and stumptuous is an awesome site for women getting into weight lifting :)

congrats on weight loss. time to get faster and stronger :)
Maintaining What's your ideal RANGE weight? Apr 01 2008
16:03 (UTC)
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So, I'm 5'4" and athletic. There is no way I will ever be skinny unless I stop eating or running or both. And I'm not willing to go that route (at least, not anymore). I would say that my ideal range is 134-140 and in shape. That last part is important for me, as is how I get down to the 134, no more huge calorie deficits, no more all day hunger hoping for a drop in the scale, no more daily weigh-ins.

(I'm a bit over 140 right now and bleh... but I'll be back in my range soon, I hope).
Maintaining Working out vs. Eating more Jan 17 2008
20:16 (UTC)
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when you up exercise you do need more food, just make sure it's good stuff and maybe plan it into your whole day instead of having it at the end.
Maintaining Ugh! Fighting to maintain . . . urge to lose more. Jan 15 2008
17:59 (UTC)
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Check out something-fishy.org. They don't talk about behaviors much over there, but will talk to you about stress, EDstuff, and anxiety. It is frustrating to "know better". My ED developed after two years of helping my dear friend with hers.

Good luck. Keep posting. think of maintaining as your new goal and deviations from that (in either direction) as the failure. I have done this by giving myself a 7lb range to stay between and I'm not "allowed to freak out" about the number on the scale if it is in that range.

The Lounge Gay/Lesbian??????? Are there any out there Jan 09 2008
15:52 (UTC)
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Queer as a two dollar bill. I'm a femme queer woman who dates all types -- but usually somewhere in the butch/transguy spectrum. The community is hard. Health v. being size positive, sex shame, body shame, all of it tied up in our bodies, lovers, and friends. Hmm.
Maintaining Eating Intuitively Nov 19 2007
05:12 (UTC)
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A couple of pages into the history there is a post here called "Intuitive Eating" that talks about this lots and has posts from some of us trying to adhere to that way of being with, instead of against, our bodies.
Maintaining Is 1700 calories enough to maintain??? Nov 14 2007
17:06 (UTC)
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A couple things:

1. Congrats on challenging yourself to eat more and work out less. I know how scary making that shift can be.

2. I think that 1700 sounds like a good (maybe a little low) number. Keep trying it. Do you see a nutritionist or a therapist, do you talk to them about food?

3. Check out something-fishy.org for a great resource about eating disorders.

Be well.
Maintaining Question about weight and skipping menstruation.... Oct 21 2007
14:47 (UTC)
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This sounds like a question for your doctor. It doesn't seem like you would be in amenorhea range... in terms of height and weight (though your cal/day seems low if you are running  a lot). There may be something else going on with your hormones that the pill regularizes -- but it would be worth finding out what that underlying thing is.

Maintaining A little confused on caloric needs... Oct 18 2007
16:35 (UTC)
Judging how many calories you need is really hard, especially if you are an athlete because the tools just aren't designed for muscle dense folks. For example, if I gain five lbs I would be considered overweight, but you have see my ribs. Go figure. No wonder ED mentality creeps up on me.

I would suggest upping your calories by 100 cal/day each week and see how that goes, how your body responds. Just make sure it's 100 cal more of food not junk.

Also, for the emotional side of stuff check out something-fishy.org, and maybe read the Intuitive Eating thread on this page.

Be well.
Motivation 140/130 club Oct 05 2007
19:09 (UTC)
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Hey All --
  I don't post here very often, but I noticed today looking at my weight log that I have been trending below 140 for a full month. WOOHOO!

Motivation Frustrated I can't stick to a strict calorie intake Oct 05 2007
18:37 (UTC)
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Are you sure you're eating enough? 13-1400 seems low if you are running for 45 minutes a day. Make sure you take that into account, not feeding your exercising body is a recipe for binging like none other.

Maintaining When did you..... Oct 05 2007
18:35 (UTC)
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I am five-six lbs below my goal weight and have been below it for about a month now. So I hope that *NOW* is the answer to your question, but it's hard. I didn't start out of with a goal weight. I just wanted to lose some of the weight I'd gained during college, and then I started setting goals... and now I keep setting the goals.

Good luck. Stop losing when you feel good and look good and strong in your body and can be relaxed.
Maintaining do i have a disorder? Sep 25 2007
14:27 (UTC)
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I would also suggest looking at the Intuitive Eating thread here in Maintainance. Disorder - in my opinion - a pattern of thoughts and patterns that separates you from your body and is not sustainable over the long run. That will be different for everyone. 
Maintaining Intuitive Eating Sep 24 2007
19:10 (UTC)
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Just sharing:

I went to therapy just now and talked to my therapist about food for the first time. It went ok. I think. I talked and was honest, and didn't cry.

I'm worried she will fall into that "but you're not skinny enough to have an eating disorder" category of people, but she said some helpful things -- she suggested that I start keep a graph of days that I don't weigh myself and don't track calories.

...

We'll see.

Fitness Run down after Working Out - help! Sep 21 2007
17:52 (UTC)
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I agree with agana that maybe less water during the workout would be good. But I would also suggest a snack right after your workout... even though it's close to dinner. Also, think about going back in and reevaluating your calorie intake given that kind of workout... 1500 seems a bit low, or it would be low for me.
Motivation currant, heaviest and lowest weight Sep 21 2007
16:03 (UTC)
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5'4", woman, 24 years old

Highest - 2004 - 168ish
Lowest/Current - 137

Original goal weight of 140, now pushing goal lower. Not sure about wisdom of that.

Maintaining New Low Sep 20 2007
15:05 (UTC)
star,
  thanks so much for your reply. it means a lot. i'm not going about in the healthiest way and i know it. to say that it took me two years to lose 25 lbs is only sort of accurate. i lost about 15 lbs in six months (still slow, but i was mainly exercising, and either not counting calories or holding myself in starvation mode for weeks and not losing). After that I maintained at between 140 and 145 for about 10 months.
   while I was maintaining that, i was doing it in some pretty unhealthy ways at times. but often, the unhealthy part is just in my head, and i managed to "talk myself down" from starving (which I do more often than binging) and give myself enough food in any given day. Then I started training for a half marathon and was hungry all the time and constantly felt like I was binging (23-2400/day)... even though I needed those calories. I stopped counting calories for about two weeks... and thought that maybe running so much was helping me move beyond numbers... or at least move to speed numbers instead of weight numbers. Training I lost about 5lbs pretty quickly, people noticed and got worried. Now, I'm here and losing those 5lbs was really triggering back into bad habits.

And now I feel like this new low is the thing I have to maintain... I'm totally terrified fo gaining those 5lbs back, and the race is in 3 weeks and I have NO idea what I'll do after that. Guess that running strategy backfired. Damn.

Sorry more spewing... If you've read this far, I'm grateful.
The Lounge any gay people? Sep 16 2007
21:04 (UTC)
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queerer than a three dollar bill.
Motivation How you view yourself AFTER you've lost weight Sep 05 2007
22:10 (UTC)
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I've lost about 20 lbs. Went from a size 12 to a size 8 (I'm 5'4"). When I look in the mirror I see myself as the size I am, but when I think about things like what size someone else is in comparison to me... I'm way off. I always compare them to who I was 18 months ago. It's odd. Clothing shopping is also odd and a little anxiety provoking. A salesperson suggested I try on an extra-small a few weeks ago. I **am** a medium, except I'm really a small now. Bizarre. 
Maintaining Intuitive Eating Sep 05 2007
13:12 (UTC)
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So interesting to hear what everyone is saying here!

Infinity- thank you for your encouragement and thoughts. I think you are right to think about focusing on sensations and how our bodies feel as strong and fast (you run too, yes?). When I am in my worst of places I am dismorphic enough that those things don't line up, but I think that I also have enough good days to train myself around that. Running and exercising also helps me with that because my body will tell me very strongly if I have failed to fuel myself for a run properly.

Balancing the social aspects of food is always hard, especially living in a house with three other women who all have very different "stories" around food, both good and bad.

I'm still weighing myself a lot. Like every two days, but it feels so comforting to see that line on my excel sheet just continue across the horizon (with its little blips, of course). I reached a new low the last two times days, and now my trendline is solidly below 139, weight of 137. I really can't remember the last time I weighed this much, and I have to say that it is scary. Scary because now it is a lower low to maintain, scary because I have been trying hard to not lose. Scary because I now don't know what I should do about food, I don't want to use this new low to backslide on habits... I feel like I've given my body these very narrow parameters to stay between and either above or below freaks me out -- which is almost healthy, but not.

Ok. This is really long, and I need to go to work. But I also needed to tap it out. Thanks for reading if you got this far.
Maintaining Maintenance phase but still bingeing at times Sep 05 2007
13:04 (UTC)
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What triggers you to binge? What makes you go back to that habit and those foods? I would look into the answers to those questions, because no amount of fitness and nutritional know-how takes care of the emotional side of food.

Just my $.02. I also think that dm84 has a point. Give yourself some slack, don't punish or guilt yourself for binging, just move on and see whether they become more infrequent.
Maintaining Intuitive Eating Aug 31 2007
22:02 (UTC)
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Hey,
  I think that I've known for a long time that intuitive eating is where I want to be. It's just not where I am. I am 5'4" and weight 139-141lbs. I am a very dense person with a lot of muscle, and have lost about 20 lbs from my high of a few years ago. Some of this has been done the right way - I've started running and I make healthier choices about food now. But I also have periods where I don't let myself go above 1300 for the day, or starve myself all day only to binge (and very occasionally purge) in the evenings. I've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder, but honestly, that just feels like a technicality.
   Right now I'm training for a half marathon and have felt like I've been "binging" all day long... but my weight has stayed steady, so I might just be hungry from running. I haven't logged for 10 days (until today) which was a major accomplishment. I have trouble not logging calories here, it ties into bigger issues of self-worth/control/etc. and in the end is not about how I feel about how my body looks at all, really. But it is.
   Infinity on Trial -- I've been reading your post about Letting Go without Letting Go, and it has *me too* written all over it. Also, I work for two economists... teehee
  
So, yes, eating, food being a friend and fuel and not an enemy. I want that. I don't know if I can get it here since, for me, part of it is about not logging food or weight... but support would be good.
Motivation 140/130 club Aug 18 2007
00:27 (UTC)
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I've always wished that I had a way of keeping track of BF%, and I've heard that the scales were pretty inaccurate. But I guess if you track it enough they are always the same amount of inaccurate... hmm.

Has anyone ever done it at a gym or doctor's office or.... somewhere else?
It seems like a "better" number to focus on. I don't know.

Also, how many folks here count calories everyday and how many ballpark, wing it, etc? Just trying to get a sense.

I've been reading through the post a bit and looking at people's profiles and am inspired by how health focused and balanced y'all goals seem to be. (And the progress you've made toward them!)

Sorry for the newbie questions. Happy Friday!

(Cute dress waiting to be put on for date, heels waiting too :) )
Maintaining binging WHILE maintaining Aug 17 2007
15:03 (UTC)
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I've been doing this too, recently. Though, I don't put it all in one meal, I sort of overeat by 200-400 calories at each meal. Yesterday was particularly bad. Two buffets at work. I had over 3,000 calories and felt SO disgusting. Ug.

I would suggest not restricting calories earlier in the day, have small solid meals with plenty of protein so that you aren't hungry throughout the day and don't tick up to a binge.

Plan to succeed. Good Luck.
Motivation 140/130 club Aug 15 2007
19:54 (UTC)
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Hi All.
    I currently weigh 142, I'm 5'4". My all-time high was somewhere near 160 (I stopped weighing myself during college, was in a bad relationship, ate too much, and didn't move enough). Now I'm 24 and have been running seriously for year. I  have been maintaining my weight in the 138-142 range for the last year, with some calorie counting and restriction, but also months at a time when I don't think too much about my body.
    Usually, I get plenty of exercise, and I have a dense body type, so I don't think that BMI calculators are particularly accurate when they say that I am "slightly overweight". Right now I'm training for a half marathon, 13.1 miles. So I run 6 days a week and try to fit in weights, etc when I get a chance.
   I'm in this weird place where I don't know what my goals are. I know that I could lose more weight, but friends and family think I look super skinny, and compared to how I was in college, that's true. 20 lbs on a 5'4" frame is significant loss. I also can be obsessive about the counting, have purged a couple times, and don't want to spiral into disordered eating. 
   Anyway, this is all to introduce myself, and say that I might be stopping by here sometimes for motivation and advice. Also, if anyone has any tips on creating healthy goals, let me know.

Thanks,
Imogene
Weight Loss fighting your body type? Aug 15 2007
17:06 (UTC)
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Maintaining 5'4" maintaing v. dieting calories Apr 30 2007
22:07 (UTC)
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5'4"- 142 - maintaining - running about 15-20 miles a week - eating ~ 1800 cals/day
Fitness SORE!!! Feb 17 2006
20:17 (UTC)
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also, eat a banana. the potassium is a good muscle relaxant and helps get rid of lactic acid (the chemical that makes you sore)
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