Posts by clay010

Thank you for posting this! I have been thinking of getting back into yoga and taking a month long challenge to see if it works for me. That being said i wonder if there is a good yoga DVD that will increase my strength as well or if all yoga is good for that in general. Ive been thinking of grabbing the 'Biggest Loser' yoga by Bob Harper, does anyone have any experience with this one?

I also feel obligated to point out i am trying to gain some strength rather than lose weight. One reason why i wanted to do yoga or something else low impact. I am also planning on incorportaing the BFL weightlifting regime for strength and was wondering if anyone knew anything about that one. had some experience with it? (Sorry for hijacking the thread you all!)

Im planning on the same thing, what I think you should do is take like two weeks and focus on eating enough to gain. Then, once you can do that sedentary and overcome the hurdle of eating more THEN make your transition back into exercising. Its alright to stay active while your gaining weight but make sure that your prepared to eat more as a result.

Then again, thats a good thing. Eating is somehting meant to be enjoyed! Not to mention its going to fuel your body so you can be more awesome!!!!!

Also. drinking milk is a good way to go. The vanilla silk in a smoothie is like God spat in a blender. Also, natual peanut butter oats is like a superfood. The nut butter blends right in man you get all the taste but none of the stick-to-the-roof-of-your-mouthiness.

Original Post by bettysightless:

Am I doomed to be like this forever? Alone, depressed, skinny and wasting away? I dont know what to do, I'm lost, completely lost and all I want is to be happy and healthy. I want to eat, I love food. I want to have friends, I want a boyfriend, I want to travel, live, love and breath. But I cant..I just, I dont know. I'm sorry, I feel like an idiot writing this, really..Im just crying out for one more chance to do this again, one more shot at living, one more. I dont want this eating disorder anymore, I dont want it. How do I change? How do I help myself? How do I do this completely alone with no one to lean on?

god, I'm sorry. I didnt realise I wrote a novel

First off, no apologies. This is hard and it gets harder and everyone who knows what it's like would agree with me.

Second, i feel sorry for you. Apologies if that sounds mean but im looking at how you define youeself and it makes me sad. What do you like to do in your leisure time? Are you a movie lover, painter, musician, do you enjoy reading and playing Halo 3? Stand up comedy, writing poetry, swimming, singing, studying, doodling, running, volunteering at an animal shelter. If nothing else i bet your an awesome friend...... and i would describe myself as that. If you THINK your sad and lonely then it only makes sense that this is the way you will feel/behave. I know you can do it, you have th tools and the knowledge and made a good move by coming over here for a little support. BUT - if i want to sail to Hawaii but dont raise the sails then im not going to go anywhere fast. You can DO it! (do is a verb - implying action). If you need random motivation fel free to message me and know that people like your parents/friends/therepists are ALWAYS there and love you. :)

Eating when im not hungry.

I've actually had to do this over the last two days since i've been living the life of what seems like a shut-in recently. Also, working to not restrict as a result of triggers at home. Won't go into it because everyone here is kicking so much A, but know that i will NOT restrict! Im gonna keep eating until my grandma tells me i look like me again (lol).

Theo! My Heart!!

• refeeding - to tell you the truth i have beat around the bush to the point that, if i make sure i stay hydrated, refeeding/bloating was only an issue that first bout with recovery. However, i feel ive only really gone recovery gung-ho once so im not going to give you a hard-and-fast rule. Howev's i will remind you that it passes whatever happens and is not a big deal at all. If anything its going to help you that your working since you have something you can focus on other than your weight.
• As with getting the food in and everything i would say think of your body like a car. When your low on gas you stop for a fill up and i usually top off the tank (they say not to but i dont care), i so this so i can drive for a good long while and eventually, maybe not all in a day, but eventually all the gas gets used up. I can put more gas in it whenever i want to and its going to keep running. Babe, your driving a Jag.... not only do you need to fuel up that bad boy but i think it needs some high quality petrol... of at least a stop at the chippy.

Theo, i am right there with you babe. New job, a move, everything. But the difference now is that we know what needs to be done now AND we know how to do it better than anyone! The trick is to just let go and eat, know your body wants it and honor that. Also, its a reson to put on that little 'cushion' just to make sure something like this doesnt happen again. You know im gonna want you at full strength when i come up to london and sweep you off your feet!

Also... how was the trip to Mcdonalds? I was thinking about going recently but i dont think they agree with the vegan diet all to well, lol. Stay strong Theo, know that im here if you ever want to message me or anything else like that ;)

Im actually doing stronglifts right now and really like the program. I can get in and out of the gym pretty quick and have seen some good gains. Also, since im working more on getting stronger i dont have to fret about cardio as much as other exercise programs (its just punishment for the body.... i swear!)

Howevsies, since you are looking to loose a little weight i would say supplement the program with some cardio and on the of days (you only lift three times a week on these programs) you would do about 20 mins of jogging swimming, even walking at a resonable pace on an incline. Also, last thing, for fat loss keep the cardio workout constant and at a reasonable pace (20 mins at 4.5 - 5.0 on the treadmill) You would burn more calories sprinting but the fat cals burned are going to be more which sounds like what you want. Keep us posted brother!

Original Post by kittysly101:

My first thought when I read this: You recovering would set the ultimate example. No matter what anyone tells you, you're not going to be able to help blaming yourself if you do infact think this is somehow your fault. So take the incentive. I can see you really care about your sister and this is an excellent incentive for recovery. 

We all strive to make a difference...contribute to something biggger than ourselves. Here's your chance. Show her that you are strong, you care, you want to be healthy, you want to live and living with ED is no way to live. Set the example. It's the best thing you can do. 

Also, if you not wishingt this on others isnt the biggest reason to recover then i dont know what will be. Your right when you say that this is not a way to live and i agree that the more you work to recover the more your going to help your sister.

As per talking to your sis about things i would say, dont call her out or anything but pull her aside and tell her about your recovery and how the thought of it on anyone was so detestable that you are gonna go balls to the wall to recover. Who knows, she may even come out and tell you what shes been doing and if that is the case then you can both get back on track together. Which would be awesome towards both of your recoveries. Go get 'em dear... you got this.

Believe me, i thought about that before the switch. But overall health and a cruelty free lifestyle really appealed to me. I guess the only thing that really gets to me about it is the people around me constantly calling it out as something used ONLY to restrict which it is not. Im not afraid of nut butters, olive oils, sugars in fruit or having carbs late at night. I always veiwed it as an abundance of food rather than a restrictive lifestyle, but I know i still worry people. What im trying to do now is a challenge to not count and just eat the vegan food. A no holds barred vegan lifestyle. Still making healthy choices but not obsessing or wiggin out when i 'have to have white rice rather than brown' then see what happens at the end of the month... not weighing till then.

Today i clocked in somewhere between 157-160 (stupid scales). Lets see what happens? Im sure if anyone can do it its this guy right here.

You need to just move on from the binge, they happen to A LOT of people as im sure you well know by now. Know that your body is extremely efficient and will take care of everything eventually. Hypothetically, lets say you gained a pound of pure, unadulterated, jiggly fat. With you working out and eating right you are going to build more muscle which digs into your glycogen stores which are located in your, wait for it........... fat cells!

That being said, eat like you would have anyway and let the act of the binge go. What you need to be more worried about is WHY. What is going differently in order to make you binge. Something at home, school, the ladies;) ? focus on that and realiz what you need to switch in your mind in order to get past it and then the binge will not only not happen again... but the reason behind it will be resolved and you will feel a ton better.

Also, what are you doing to build muscle and what does your diet look like. make sure your not getting 'too much' protein and avoiding all the good carbs and veggies. Not to mention a fat or two in there. I know when i first started trying to gain/build i went to the extreme of a REALLY high protein, low everything else diet. No bueno indeed. Take care of whats inside and the rest will follow brother!

Going out with friends should be about your friends, not the food. I know where i live there are a lot of awesome mom and pop restaurants and their signature dishes arent always the healthiest option. Thats why they put it inside this little restaurant in the middle of nowhere in order to get it. If we did this everyday then it wouldnt me as special. On th flip side, the fact that you are choosing, say, 5 people to share your time with... that makes them special. Focus on them, what they have to say (i guarantee you that whaever hey have to say that day is going to be more entertaining, funnier, more relevant than any 'head voice' that only tells you to hurt yourself.

As for going against said thoughts, what i do is identify why i am makin a choice about food and if the answer is merely to save calories then i throw that notion into the wind cause thats a stupid reason. If i eat poorly for a whole month that is only 30 days out the year. 30/365... thats 335 days of healthy eating to balance it out. Granted, its a bit hard and extreme to think of it like that. But we aveso much time and so much to do... you just have to seize at it. Semper Fi and make today the best one so far. It is a gift from above and the minute we all realize this, obsessing about food becomes the biggest waste of time in the world. Even bigger than the Paris Hilton's: My New BFF... and thats saying something.

Original Post by jcl76:

You're not eating anything today? just drinking water? That's a dumb idea...

 Also agree with this. Im going through the same thing right now and have gone through it before and, as a result, restricted and halted recovery. This is a test to where you have to find something else about yourself to focus on. Learn what new books are out and see what you like out of those, oooor you could knit a massive sweater to hide the bloating for a while... Guys dig a girl who knows how to knit.

Bottom line, have your meals and snacks today and dont worry about a thing cause its supposed to happen, i promise. If im wrong ill let you kick me but i know im not.

"The piece of coal that goes through the hardest pressure turns into the most beautiful diamond, But it has to be put under the same intense pressure everyday." (i JUST made that up, and it totally rocks if i say so myself)

Two things right off the bat.

The first thing is that you want to take it easy on your body. Ease into it so you dont shock it and freak yourself out. Set a goal and stick to it though since being careful and monitoring sets a good environment for staying at a low level cause we get comfortable (personal experience). Have the minimum of 2500 in your head and strive for it like there is no tomorrow. Cause if you dont there might very well not be.

The second thing is that you need to stop looking for permission/ the perfect plan. I know we always surf the web asking questions every which way but loose asking for advice and what we should do and that is all well and good and helpful. The ultimate goal in recovering though is to find that inner advice and the confidence to take it. You said youve been inpatient before so im sure there has been some good advice thrown your way, couple that with nobody knowing your body better than you and you have all the tools you need in your bag and more. Know that were with you and that you rock and roll all night and party ev-er-y-day!

Off the top of my head i see two things im gonna 'make' you change. First your gonna add the banana from inner alongside the oats and berries. Instead of jam in the evening its definitely better if its some natural peanut butter. Get the kind that like just nuts, there is almost nothing better in the world for you. Then at dinner, since we moved the nana to breakfast, add on a little brown rice, dont act like you dont love it!. Also, im feeling an ounce of shredded cheddar on the lunch salad and some broccoli with dinner.

Challenge extended, and i think your strong enough to kick it in the face. Prove me right my friend.