Posts by ktjo

christ, lighten up. This isnt an anti feminist post, 'men like X' is something a LOT of women like to hear when theyre feeling a bit insecure about X..... dont turn it into something its not, its just a confidence building tactic. Im not tellin ANYONE to change what shape they are Naturally, just to accept what you are naturally and, people, like the opposite (or same sex) will find those aspects of you attractive IF YOU embrace it. talk about being alarmist.

if you are looking for advice as to how to be hospitalised for anorexia, go to a different site. No one here is going to advise you on how to starve yourself down to a clinically low weight.

It is VITAL that you realise that Body Image NEVER = confidence or happiness. Trust me, I did the exact same thing you are attempting to do. It doesnt work, and you'll pay for it with the repurcussions for a very long time. Talk to your parents about feeling down and low confidence, and try to do hobbies and spend your time doing things that Interest you and make you feel happy. What youre attempting to do will at best make you miserable, extremely unhealthy, take away your rationality and any ability to interact with people, make you lose muscle, slow your metabolism.....and at worst kill you.

i thought you had said you Refused IP because it scares you and you 'always end up leaving'?

 I dont believe that the NHS is not offering, or would not if the patient was willing, a chronic anorexic who has had this for 14 years and made no progress. Ask again for IP. But you know, you'll do what either will save you, or what the ED tells you at the end of the day. I really wish you would start pulling out all stops helen, you and No one deserves even a Moment of the hell that anorexia causes, let alone a decade and  a half.

helen you are getting the same responses from people in ALL your posts; NO exercise, At Least 3000 Every. day.

You cannot do this alone . you are not taking anything on board, you just keep talking about how you cant not exercise, that if you did X then you wouldnt eat enough. You need to go BACK into inpatient therapy that is the only way you can recover at this point. This has been 14 Years! When are you going to see you need constant, professional help?

damn thats the 2nd of your posts over the last 12hrs thats made me well up when i read it!

That was hugely considerate and big of you to decide to share that and open up to everyone. You should feel very very proud of yourself.

And i think you Think a lot of people hate you on here; the people who's opinions matter (those with a true understanding of an ED and recovery) know what youre doing and the advice you give is only ever from the kindest place possible, and have nothing but admiration for you.

firstly, you need to eat consistently at least 2000 cals a day for the energy to do anything, including growing.

also, have you started your periods yet?

btw, theres nothing wrong with being 5ft 2! I am 5ft 2 and guys LOVE dinky, little women. They feel all masculine when they can cover you with their arms and carry you! be proud even if you Dont grow. At least you wont intimidate them with your height!

swimfan- i'm ThisClose to PMing you. You shouldnt be looking for lowcal anything and you know this. Stop. and Think. Be very careful.

If you can hack it, cutting out all dense carbs (leaving only vegetables and fruits, but no root veg) can help you shed 'weight' (its probably at least half water). But short term only! and you really need to make sure you are eating a lot of lean protein at this time.

helen, no ones trying to scare you? we are stating what will happen to you if you dont go into IP. You will die. Youre gaining yes, but you are gaining practically nothing, and considering your weight is so low anyway then its not acceptable that you Arent in IP. You're a high risk anorexic and you should be in IP receiving 24hr care.

 why are you scared of IP? you are honestly scared more of recovery than of dying? This recognition of how skewered your thoughts are should alone be enough to propel you into the treatment you need to save yourself.

IP isnt nice, at all, but you can have your life and health and sanity back after it! Isnt that better than what lays ahead of you if you refuse it, because you 'dont like it' there? Look at what this ED has done to you. Get your life and your health back. 

yeah...she's had no training at all yet? I AM a doctor and still shock horror dont know everything and need to research things sometimes!

never seen 'IT' but not likely to. just even as a tiny child i'd hide from them in the circus. seriously gave me the heebyjeebies! also how they like to bring you down from your seat to perform with them in the ring; i associate them with public embarassment!

http://www.edreferral.com/states/949.htm maybe this could help point you in the right sort of direction?

ED TALKING ; ''i really struggle to eat and not exercise as i worry ill put the weright on as fat if i dont. i have osteophrosis and my muscles hurt all the time but i feel i need to walk if i have to eat more, also since eating i have an appitite like a horse nothing seems to fill me and im scared feel like im just gonna keep eating people say listen to your body but if i did that id always be eating''

sliver of rationality; Focus on THIS; ''i need to get better fast im 27 and if i can gain weight and repair my body before im 30 theres a good chance i will repair my bones''

No such thing as gaining too fast helen, Ever. And you will not end up in the overweight BMI range if you eat. Eating at this point will just be keeping you alive. You cannot gain unless you are eating around 3000cals Everyday with NO exercise. You are struggling terribly here , i know. I wish you would call a doctor/hospital/counsellor or therapist, because you need to deal with this at at a psychological level also, but I think you should go into Inpatient. You need help with this to get better. Tangible help, not tons of well intentioned advice off the computer which i have a feeling you will selectively choose as advice to take on board or not. Good luck, as fidget said once; EVERYONE HAS THE CHOICE TO RECOVER FROM ANOREXIA.

Original Post by swimfan93:

I'm 15, and I've been anorexic for 7 years.  Of course gaining weight is scary.  But guess what?  You're only 17.  Being under 18 means you have no control about your illness.  You're parents and doctors can just throw you in the hospital if you don't gain weight outpatient.  Trust me, I know from experience.  I've been hospitalized 11 times.  It will ruin your life.  You will have no life, except doctors appointments.  I've missed 6 months of the last school year because I've been in the hospital.  You have 2 options, basically:  gain weight at home, where you can still live a relatively normal life, or gain weight in the hospital, with a tube shoved down your nose and no contact with the outside world.  

Take your pick.

 ^ THIS.

sometimes i get so down that CC is being rangsacked by kids who think its a Pro-Ana site. Its not.

Rachel, lets remove the emotions for a moment and look at fact. You KNOW ANOREXIA KILLS. therefore you know it will kill You. if you dont start putting 2 fingers up to those who tell you that you look 'good' as an anorexic, you will die.

Recovery is about choice; you have to realise you are mentally sick and your thoughts arent rational and cannot be trusted. You have to choose to do what you are told to do by medical professionals and the adults around you who are trying to save your life.  

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