Posts by igottapi4

Mine has to be disappointment and disillusion. The other day I was at my uncle's house and my uncle was talking about how good I look and I was laughing and trying not to blush so I made a joke about wasn’t I pretty before and then he's like NO you weren't.

That hurt me so much and it did make me realize that looks are such a fake thing and before I wasn’t worthy of being call pretty and it just makes me so angry.

I'm still dieting but not to be called hot or anything like that but to be healthy and feel OK with my own skin and body but whenever I hear someone say something about looks all I can think is I’m still me inside 280 lbs. or 130 lbs and that people who put such value in looks just makes me sad.

Thank you everyone for all your comment and support, I do agree I got kind of greedy and desperate and tried too much too fast, I am going back to the 10 m daily cause not only does it kick my metabolism but give me energy for the day that no depression pill gives me and I wont raise the amount I do until I truly need it.

my whole diet is a 'so what', i simple refused to stop eating what i like and i still get an A and eat 40 carb 30 protein 30 fat and love it, I really dont think i've ever eating better in my life.

I also have OCD and I tried one day weighting the food and it lasted until lunch, I became too obsessive, right now I'm obsess with the scale, I've been loosing 2 lb weekly and one week I didn't when I knew I should have, I was getting very depressed so I just stopped myself and thought of a solution, I would just put what I weighted and wont worry about what I lost, and this is really working.

Sometimes We (people with OCD) have to stop and just will it out of us.

What I do is I put in a paper everything I eat and the amount and cals it has, also eat single servings, and with meat I usually just eat one, weight everything new once so the next time you can eyeball it, I also have a food journal so I know what I ate and I make it one week in advance so I'm not anxious.

This is just some of the things I do so my OCD doesn’t get in the way of my weight loss.

I started with 280 and i've been loosing 2 lbs weekly, 4 weeks ago i upped my exercise time and lost even more so i change my diet and this last Thursday i weighted my self and i was at 257.6 and i didn't over eat for the rest of the week so its something keeping my weight down.

I also kind of don't count, I did make a check list of the calories of stuff i eat and now I know much i eat in a day but don't weight or measure, its easier, I go crazy when i measure, I tried it one day and lasted till lunch.

Eat every 2 hours, this is what i do, i start at 8 am and finish at 8 pm and im never hungry. i actually started with a 10 pm as well but now i dont need it.

i have an 800 plus 275 mon, wed, fri & 100 tue, thu. I also have not a good idea for the weekend since i have 1 cheat meal each day.

wow i just got goosebumps, when i started the diet and saw how little veggies i like i decided to drink a v8 for dinner. I can still tasted in my mouth, it was so horrible after that i planned to buy once a week a veggie and try to create a way for me to eat it but I've forgot.

I actually read that sprinting is the best, that if you spring 50 - 100 miles your metabolism goes crazy for 2 to 3 days. I wish i could sprint.

I also do interval training, i don't think it help in the losing so much as the upping the metabolism.

But it is consider high aerobics so its the one to loose more cals.

to claire, i know its not a good diet but like i mention i am a very picky eater and no matter how much i tried there is not a single healthy veggie i like, and i hate anything that has oats. so my options are very limited and i try to do what i can with it and do keep it within my cals.

I counted the first day but now i don't count but i do weight my meats and grains and shredded cheese, everything else i have it memorize, i just get obsess and i don't enjoy the food as much but i know for a fact I'm eating 1900 to 2000 daily.

i know this all too well, i have some temper and when i get mad or sad while diets i always give up and say to hell with everything but now with this diet every time i get mad i always tell myself "I will not give up" a couple of time and then i feel better.

Next time you go shopping with your friends just think that soon you'll be skinny too and if you look in a mirror try to see the differences, i never can but its fun to know its there. the last time i went to a mall before the diet i saw myself in the glass walls and i though how huge i was but now even if i can't see it i know its there.

i also was thinking about buying but i prefer a gym since you have way more stuff but i dont work or study or do anything so its easy for me.

What you need to decide is if its convinient in time, if you have time for it and the price. If you have the time and money then do it, i think its better cause you can get a personal trainer that could help you with what you need.

i have 2 treat days, on Saturday at lunch i have my mom's homemade food followed but a veggie salad at dinner to balance and Sundays at lunch i eat out though no sodas just water and nothing big and i follow it with a fruit salad for dinner.