Posts by janay101

hey ladies!

Just got home from a fantastic, beautiful, peaceful day of sightseeing, errand running, hiking, and going to the lake!!!!!!!

The house is coming along ok.  Him living here alone without a girl's touch resulted in the obligatory scary refrigerator and tons of laundry, but other than that, all is peachy keen!     love is grand! 

Hope all of you are well and happy  -----  love you!

Oh EDIT PS:  My family can just be jerks, yes, but they think we drink too much, have too much fun, etc ---  I'd say my sister is jealous as **** for once in her miserable, "keepin up with the Jones' " life.  WOO HOO ---  I'm bad.  Who cares?  Not this chickadee.  I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY.  eh? My mom hasn't called me once since I moved.....  meh.  Oh well.  Be mad, I guess. 

hi all you hot mamas!!!!

Happy belated birthday to Miss Daizy!!!  I wish I had all of you girls on facebook!!!!!!

My mom likes him but is cautious.....   S is no Catholic mama's boy, ya know? I wish she would search her memories the last few years and take into consideration the drunken stupor I lived in for several years, how UNSATISIFED and "I'm pretty much jusr settling" I felt for the last 3....how sad it made me to love someone and not have them pay me the SLIGHTEST bit of attention or anything. Anywho...... 

As far as his friends judging me, I am a big girl. I used that more in a reference to he dislike my mom's friend saying something like "You have to pass muster with me" and I have never once complained about how SOME of his MANY female friends and seriously now, ex-gfs he's still good friends with treat me.  It's mostly more subtle than my mom's friend was, but you know how girls can be---------------  I am trying REALLY hard to grow up, be the bigger/better woman, not let their actions or words affect me, not feel jealous or insecure.........  makes it hard that oh, you know, most of his friends are girls minus a few very cool cats who have been a hell of a lot more welcoming to me as the new girl.

ENough about me.   happy early bday to abbs!!!!!   anyone had a chance to look at my super dorky prom pics?  lol   I only have today and 2 more with kids, and a week with teachers that I do have to attend which seems retarded, but whatever....I still have tons of not so much box packing, but moving things around, going through them with a vicious flair ----   throwing stuff out (if I haven;t seen it since I moved it to the new house, it is time for it to go away......   don't wanna do a garage sale, but really really need to..........Lots to do, but I a almost to the Natural State of AR.  I can taste the air!  

Hope you are all well and happy!!!!!!  I will have more time to cc once summer is here ---- in between repainting, rearranging, de-ex-wifing his place and having fun! 

WELL ----- lol. I miss you all too! Prom was a blast. the music sucked as much as usual. the food was better than usual. I took less pics than usual resulting in me almost crying when I realized for the best prom of my life, I do not have ONE picture of us together.  One of him with a kid and I think maybe 2 of me with some kids.  *tear* Especially being my last of last proms?  *kicking self in buttocks!!!*

That said, it was really fun.  the kids are little sad/ticked/out out I am leaving, but hey, to be expected.  Some cried. Some just bearhugged the crap out of me when they found out.  My mom is a little weirded out, but she does not seem to grasp the idea that we are in no hurry and have no designs on eloping or doing anything other than having fun together and living life for a few months, figuring out if we are a suitable match for 24-7 when it is not at my house and he is absocnding from his work and life with crazy mom.  I am scared to death that that much time together may be a little overwhelming, but all I ever wanted was to love a man who appreciated ALL OF ME -----  and he does. I can figure the rest out, i think.  

I'm gonna have a blast. 

He's gonna propose in the middle in front of God and everyone. 

I have a pretty purdy dress, not a poofy CInderella dress, but pretty.....  very dark cobalt.  Got pretty copper and brown heels to go with and a pair of bad **** boots to wear after the heels are killin'. cool jewelry to go with that his 75 year old mentor friend gave me......  Very special..... 

I cannot believe after prom, the kids have 2 weeks of school and we have three with teachers!!!!!   WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hi all you gorgeous ladies!

See journal for crazy details, but I am well and incredibly happy......   It's a little mind-blowing to me that it;s only been 3 months, but I am 99.9% positive this is it for me.....  Nice......

Prom is Saturday --- woo hoo!   Started running again and eating a bit more consciously = me maintaining where I wanna.....   not losing, but not gaining.   meh, whatever.

Hope all of you are still rocking in the free world!  

hi ladies!

thanks for the warm bday wishes --- how'd you know?  :) 

I had a good weekend and all, but as I continue to meet all his friends, I am reminded how I have none of my own.  At least my little brother and his wife came out and at least had dinner with us in Springfield with a few of his long-time buds.  sigh.  We kind of didn't get as much done as we had intended, slept too late, to do most of the thrift shopping I wanted to etc, but still fun. 

I have GOT TO, GOT TO start running again and cut back on the eating out, ordering badly when eating out, and drinking so much, fine wine or not.  A lot of my hard work in finally breaking 150 is all gone.  Not like I don't know I can do it again, but damn.  It was easy to maintain in the beginning, but him telling he likes ALL of it, even the stuff I hate, made it easy to let myself go just a little....  well, ok, more than I should have.  I'm back in my favorite old goal jeans (size 11 juniors).  Was wearing an 8.  I put it all back on my belly too --  crap.  Anyway. Enough about me. 

I do think I will be a new resident of Arkansas when school is out finally.  Next two weekends, we have a handyman friend coming to work on getting my house ready to sell and then the 3rd weekend is PROM. After that, 2 weeks more with kids,one more week with teachers and we are FINITO!  woo hoo!

Hope all of you are well and happy!   :)   Miss you! 

hi ladies!

had a fantastic break.   sadly, Kansas is MOST DEFINITELY NOT Arkansas. 

Please read my journal and try to help me.   I am spinning in my head and desperately need some clarity.  Never thought that problem would be my problem.   Too quiet?   wow. 

Missed you all. 

hi my lovely ladies!!!!

I miss you all.   :) 

There are a few places I might move in AR....   best case scenario = he gets someone to manage the liquor store and a caretaker for his mom and we get a cabin in Eureka Springs.  2nd best = move to Mountain Home, run the store for a year or 2, find someone to run the store and care for mom, then move to Eureka.  

It's beautiful, period.   I am so super happy ---- even with the now required separation M -W to take car of business.   Keeps me focused on getting my work-wrk done while he is gone, so I have weekends to play.   that;s good, I suppose.    Unless Sex counts are cardio, I haven;t done much lately, but eating is good and switching to 2-3 glasses red wine vs. so many shots of run = good for me too.  

SO.....  ehsojs@usd101.com or girlinoz@hotmail.com if you miss me that much, or PM here.  always get a notice to check then.   ;)  

I love you, girls!!!!  take care of you and yours! 

sorry, ladies! 

I am busy and in love and all wrapped up in a boy.  I know, bad reason to not be online, but who wants to use a computer when you have a hottie on your couch? 

Hope all of you are well and happy!!!  I am

Greetings and salutations!!!!

Seriously, every single Monday, I want to be ANYWHERE BUT BACK IN KANSAS AT MY JOB!!!!!!

That said, I had a fantastic VD weekend.    Saw two of my favorite local/famous AR bands, got serenaded by both with special songs just for us, had a super romantic dinner with 2 of the most important older couples in S's life, got my tattoo redone so it is GORGEOUS..........    Truly never had a more romantic and perfect Valentine's EVER!!!!!   

Hope all of you are well and happy!!  and ABBS ---- high freaking 5 on the triceps, sista!  You rock!!!!

We were on our way home to Kansas, almost to Missouri, but still on the border of Arkansas  = it IS for sure the "Natural State."  saem gas stations had a stuffed mountain goat and buffalo inside.  LOL ---   he is such a bada$$ with other people -- I love that.   and then with me alone, he is a sweet prince who makes me feel like a queen.   rock on --- lucky me.  SO WORTH WAITING FOR. 

abbs!!!  I had a freaking amazing,  phenomenal, life changing, romantic weekend.    more later!    from ear to ear, from the inside out

I love you, ladies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just been so caught up in S, I cannot see straight.  

I cannot believe he left at 8PM on Tuesday and was back here with me by 9PM on Wednesday.....  far out. 

As far as losing, I think I will work on maintaining near 150 for a while and tone and all that.    He likes me now.  ANd says he thought I was hot at 230, so.....  maybe I will take advantage of that fact.   lol ---  he is in the middle of stopping smoking because I cannot deal with that again.  once he is feeling more lung capacitied, we will walk and jog and stff together.  He's been pretty unhappy like I have been for the last few years  =  too much drinking and smoking (sound like anyone you know?).  That's all coming back to moderation ----  tandem goal.   NICE.  

Hope all of you are well and happy!!!!!!  ((((HUGS))))) 

GOSH ----   S from AR is still at my house.   :)    pretty awesome, but busy.  Not online a lot with someone at home to talk to.  

Will try harder....  hope you are all well and happy!!!!!

I like the new pic too, carlyn.    :)   hot chica!     rock on with all your progress!!!

miss bella ----  are you working out too, right?   1200 is too low if you are.  maybe it is the opposite ---  are you eating ENOUGH to balance out cals burned and give youe bod enough fuel?   when you check your log, see about sodium maybe?    or not enough fruit/veg/water?  just thinking out loud about things that mess with me.... maybe try zig zagging too!! that worked for me.....  or don;t work out for 2-3 days, eat 1200, and then go back to your previous and workout regular....    

my weigh in is a shocker since I started TTOM today unexpectedy. 

    * SW: 155.6
    * GW: 148.5
    * 1-9   154
    * 1-16  154.6
    * 1-23  151.4
    * 1-30  149.2
    * 2-6
    * 2-13