Posts by emmasmith2008

Hey twhitt24,

I am exactly the same, I eat the same thing every single day. I also have an ED, though not anorexia. I made a thread about it and thought you might like to read the helpful comments I received, maybe they can be applied to you too?

http://caloriecount.about.com/eat-same-things -ft129702

Sorry I can't be much more help because I'm in the same boat as you!

Original Post by gi-jane:

Original Post by emmasmith2008:

I've thought for a while that I may have diabetes. Why would it develop though, I'm not overweight, noone in my family has it... I feel panicky, what if I do have it, I'll have to learn to inject myself every day.. I cant just faint every day.

 I think you're running ahead of yourself and, because you've delayed getting the problem checked out, you're creating anxiety.  The 'fear of the unknown' has a tendency to be much worse than the actual problem.  Worst case scenario ... i.e. you have diabetes... you'd learn to get over your aversion to needles, trust me.  You'd be amazed just how strong you are and just what you're capable of when the chips are down.  Best case scenario... your doctor tells you to turn the central heating down and stop eating salty foods.

It's warming up nicely here in Hertfordshire ...  Get the appointment and good luck

 You're right, I'm worrying a bit too much over something that may turn out to be nothing. I spoke to my Mum on the phone earlier and she also said to just get tested. Thanks for the words of encouragement, I guess if it is the worst case scenario I'll just have to deal with it and hope my needle phobia would eventually go away.

Hertfordshire eh? Nice place, been there once before, it has a  really beautiful cathedral from what I remember! It's certainly not warming up down in Exeter :-( It snowed here 2 days ago! Send that Herftordshire weather over this way please

Thankyou for your response gi-jane.

I am not overweight, I am at the low end of the healthy weight range (BMI is about 20.1). I also live in England, where the climate is VERY COLD! I hate it! OK, I will call up Mon morning and ask to see someone. I feel really scared, I will either faint or have a panic attack the moment I see a needle. I feel sick just thinking about it :/

I've thought for a while that I may have diabetes. Why would it develop though, I'm not overweight, noone in my family has it... I feel panicky, what if I do have it, I'll have to learn to inject myself every day.. I cant just faint every day.

Ugh I'm actually squirming in my seat as I type this...

If you're going to drink Redbull, don't don't don't have the sugar free one. I read an article last year about how it gives you 'sticky blood';

"Australian researchers have found that the sugar-free version of Red Bull may increase the danger of blood clots, and creates "sticky" blood, raising the risk of heart attack or stroke."

From The Independent newspaper (UK). I googled and found the article I remembered, but the article isn't very descriptive compared to the actual newspaper I remember reading. Nevertheless, this is the link: http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/healt h-and-wellbeing/health-news/red-bull-it-promi ses-energy-but--doesnt-mention-sticky-blood-8 99614.html

Yes I know that the research findings are probably not statistically reliable, but the fact is that there is the chance that this risk could apply to any one of you, and I think everyone should be made aware of all precautions regarding this drink.

Original Post by charvey_:

3. If I'm drinking something (hot or cold), I drink it overly quickly. I'll drink a whole cup of coffee in a matter of minutes without break. I guess I just don't like to let it sit?!

 Oh me too! I get told off by my bf for drinking too quickly, especially when we're out drinking in bars- I think he gets annoyed that he has to keep buying me drinks as I get through them so quick! I can't just leave a full glass sitting there, I'm always downing it. And when I have hot chocolate (the only hot drink I'll ever have) it doesn't even touch the table surface, I just keep sipping until it's gone! haha.

I'm quite strange for food habits. I hate melted cheese, hate hate hate. I don't eat pizza; if I do have to eat it, the cheese has to be either picked off or burnt till it's black. Then i'll eat it! I love solid cheese though. But melted? No thanks!

Like bringbackbeats, I also have set eating times. If the time is later than when I'd usually eat, I just think 'what's the point?' I hate it when I eat out at restaurants and my friends book the table for 8. Why!!! It takes an hour to bring the food out anyway... And by that time my hunger has passed and I don't want to eat dinner so late. I always eat between half 5 and 6.

I have salad with almosy every meal, and the lettuce MUST be sgredded into tiny pieces. My housemates think I'm strange, as I stad there shredding every piece! I cant stand big leafs of lettuce when I eat. I have a bean obsession, I either eat them cold out the tin or I have them cold in a tortilla wrap with ketchup! Ketchup on toast is also yummy.

I always prepare my food into sections on the plate, and place the plate down in a way that the food boundaries are horizontal-hmm that doesn't make sense but I don't know how to describe it in words. I also save the best bits of food till last, i like to leave a bit of each food and then shove it all on my fork as my last mouthful! I eat the not so yummy stuff 1st to get it out the way. I have lots of other weird rituals and certain foods that I won't eat, but I thik i've said enough for now!

Mmmm oats!

I get quaker golden syrup sachets, you bung them in the mircowave for 2minutes and it's done! I make them with water (I hate milk) and it's only 136 cals for a big bowl! I always add either maple syrup or honey on top and let it melt in the oats, then add a small sprinkle of brown sugar. I have the biggest sweet tooth, so this does me well!

I am a massive apple fan. I only like red apples (they're sweeter) and i eat them just as they are, till there's only a very skinny core left! Sometimes I accidentally eat the pips, which really don't taste very good :-/

I know I'll get some stick for this, but I do eat a LOT of apples. I get through a bad over 1-2 day periods. Currently I eat 8 medium sized apples in one go, one after another. I save up my calories so I can do this, at night time a few hours before I go to bed. I can't ever just stop at 1 apple. I know all that sugar can't be very good for me, but it's better that i eat 8 apples than 8 chocolate bars surely!!

Wow Katherine23, how amazing is your post?!

I'm going to print off/ write down your points as i think they're genuinely really helpful. I like the idea of having a mantra, I might try the 'I'm on a water diet!' tactic. And I think I will tell my housemates if i want to binge as i know they'll be very persuasive and talk me out of it. It'll also get rid of the secrecy, which is kinda what the binging revolves around. The binging loses its appeal if other people know what you are doing.

One other thing I'm going to do- give my cash card to my housemate (he's to be trusted, it's ok!) as i have no junk food in the house- i always go out and buy it when i have the binge urge. therefore, no money, no binge!

thanks again for your advice! :-)

Freakyblonde88, you sound just like me. I've had bulimia for 2 and a half years and really want to stop. I've been through phases where I can stop binging and purging, and i look so much healthier and feel so much happier for it. But then something happens, like breaking up with my long term boyfriend or not coping well with Uni work, and I slip back into bigeing on ice cream, chocolate etc and purging it all back up. I hate it because my skin goes horrible, my tummy bloats, and my neck glands swell up making me look puffy and horrible.

I have gone 3 days now without binging and purging and feel so good about it. however, saturday nights are my weakness- i'll be in watching tv then going out drinking, which'll make me want to eat loads when i come back. like you, i get scared that the extra food is going to make me really overweight again, and it took so much effort to get down to my healthy weight. I agree that eating loads of veggies puts you off binging afterwards, as i don't want to throw up food that's good for me, so it acts as a deterrent.

To the OP, I suggest you eat well and regularly, and think about the damage you will do to yourself if you give in to your urges. decayed teeth and heart problems just aren't worth the hassle of a 20 minute/however long pleasure binge. I also get down on myself if i go over my daily calories, even if it's only by 100, but i have found that it DOES NOT actually affect my weight at all a week later. It doesn't go up, and sometimes it even goes down. I think your body needs extra calories sometimes to surprise the metabolism and make it burn off the food better. 7 years is a long time to have had suffered, i really feel for you, but you owe it to yourself to treat your body with respect now, as we all do, and it's time you start loving yourself no matter how big you think you are.

Take care, we can all beat this!xxx

Yep I agree with all the posts.

Guilty of being an emotional eater here- last night I had a 2litre tub of ice cream and fruit cake because I felt depressed. Ugh my life is so crap at the moment and I'm so stressed out. So i just eat like a zombie, cramming it in and then feeling horrible after. i wish i could do something else when i'm sad but nothing quite distracts my mind like a big binge.

sorry for the rant but i need to vent. i wish my life was a bit easier right now but i'm just drowning under pressure and resposibilities. i don't want to crack again tonight but i can see myself going to the shop and buying loads of junk food and repeating last night again. please someone talk me out of it.