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Health & Support ED Recovery Club II (the REAL one) Dec 01 2008
05:17 (UTC)
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aw ieevee well done on your food i'm bery happy for you!!
i'm so sorry about your friends at school, sometimes its difficult because even though they might hint something is wrong they don't realise that their actions also have an effect. I can somewhat simpathise as my friends never eat meals at school (basically live off gum) or if they go out they will split a salad... it sounds terrible but i must admit they are not thin, maybe even a little chubbier than healthy. Its a shame they think that they must eat gum to be thin and then indulge in huge desserts rather than enjoy good food.
if you want to tell your friends about your  ED then you should, personallyi never told my friends but when i went away as an inpatient and they saw my weight drop it didn't take boy genius to figure out where i had been. I also missed alot of school for appointments and just told them it was a check up and no other questions were ever asked.

Sorry i didn't mean to turn this around on me but well done on your progress and i really hope you don;t let your friends opinions or actions get to you, your better than that.
xx

Health & Support needs honesty and a push Nov 28 2008
07:29 (UTC)

thanks for the support i'll try to make an effort.
i reall do need to find people to connect with i guess i can't blame my friends for not being around i haven't precisely been the worlds funnest person. it would be nice to meet people in my area with a similar background but i wouldn't know where to start looking.
i haven't weighed myself for over a week (normally jsut do a weekly weigh in to make sure i'm not loosing) i've been putting it off because of unsual eating patterns (been going out for a few nights so have been drinking calories rather than eating them) and was sick on monday and tuesday and didn't want it to affect weigh in. i also have to find a morning when mum is up and out of her room so i can run in and use the scales before breakfast and my shower.
hope everything is going well for you if there is any help you needed in regards to your thesis just let me know.
xx

Health & Support I'm not anorexic, the therapist said. Nov 28 2008
06:02 (UTC)
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i had this happen to me also, next thing i was in hospital with a tube. See a differnt therapist and don't stop seeing one. Once you find one you connect with it will help you sort out any problem areas in your life.
As far as the weight is concerned disrodered eating is still a problem and the first signs of an ED like anorexia, so good on you for seeking help and trust your family and friends and do not push them away.
the therapist has known you for what? an hour? and your family and friends have known you your whole life and if they think something is wrong chances are there is.
best wishes and don't think you need a 'label' like anorexia believe me its so overated.

Health & Support eating disorders? Nov 28 2008
05:55 (UTC)
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hey leyy
-raises hand- it'd be good to have someone to chat to who understands and who doesn't think its stupid and really wants to get better

Health & Support needs honesty and a push Nov 28 2008
04:51 (UTC)
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thanks pgeorgian i hope your research is going well.
Its annoying because i have been doing all this study for school and in theory i KNOW that you can't maintain on that low calories let alone gain, i KNOW you need a rest day from exercise each week for optimal performance, i KNOW you need fat in your diet... its just i just classify myself as an 'exception' to all this and i guess i am in denial.
i large part of me wants to go out for muesli for breakfast one morning, maybe even pancakes. but there is no one i can do it with and eating in front of family just triggers everything.
i have a few other questions (sorry its 'all about me' i am more than willing to provide any help if people have questions but not sure how much help i could be to tell you the truth, i can try). what would be my calorie intake to gain say 200grams a week? anyone have any insight on how to make the 'first step' in upping calories?
xx

Health & Support ED Recovery Club II (the REAL one) Nov 27 2008
20:39 (UTC)
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Original Post by ieevee:

Original Post by hotelgal:
 i mean a large part of me just wants to say ok to the biscuit and not to weighing fod and counting calories, but i don't want people who know i have an ED (family) to see me 'giving in' and eating again.

to me its an embarassment, another thing i gave up in life (believe me name a lot of things and i've probably tried it)
i seriously think that if i was on my own i'd be further on my way to recovery as i wouldn't be hiding any food from family. I don't mind people who don't know my 'past' seeing me eat but whenever friedns or family are around i just can't do it.
xx cheers guys

Me too. I usually eat in my room, and sometimes I want to go and take some more food. But if my mom is in kitchen, I feel embarrassed and dont want to. Even when I know she only loves to see me eat *no matter what it would be*


Oh, and Im glad to tell you guys - I haven't touched my food scale or counted calories today AT ALL! :D

 

good on you ieevee!!! i know how hard that must be, i must admit i have not been able to do that yet. Its annoying i wish there were people who did ACTUALLY understand and was able to share your mini goals with you without making you feel like a loser, like going out somewhere or having a fear, not counting calories in one of your snacks ect
i just can't bring myself to make my mum think she has 'made me better' when she is the problem.

Health & Support ED Recovery Club II (the REAL one) Nov 27 2008
10:49 (UTC)
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hey all, i thought this would be the best place for me to get some help. brief background- I was sent to a clinic for anorexia earlier this year and have been on/off recovery at home since about july. I was just wondering if you guys struggled to give up the ED because of family? i mean a large part of me just wants to say ok to the biscuit and not to weighing fod and counting calories, but i don't want people who know i have an ED (family) to see me 'giving in' and eating again.
to me its an embarassment, another thing i gave up in life (believe me name a lot of things and i've probably tried it)
i seriously think that if i was on my own i'd be further on my way to recovery as i wouldn't be hiding any food from family. I don't mind people who don't know my 'past' seeing me eat but whenever friedns or family are around i just can't do it.
xx cheers guys

Weight Gain TO GAIN or NOT to GAIN? Nov 27 2008
07:25 (UTC)
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i personally would love to know as much about my body as you seem to!
about BMIs personally to me its jsut a number, i 'guesstimate' by BMI to be around 17.5 at the moment which is under healthy weight range. but frankly i don't care, as long as i am happy with myself is the main thing. but i guess thats also my problem. you get asked 'what would your ideal weight be?' and i don't have an answer, for me its when i look in the mirror and am happy which means i don't have a set target and i don't know how low i have to get for me to be happy. i've been lower and wasn't happy then so i don't know why i am still  low. part of me knows i should gain but then all the feelings about what people think of you come up and drives your brain crazy.
(sorry for the small rant)
i'm currently eating around 1350 cals per day and am not loosing (maybe 200gram p/week but the next week i seem to have put it on again) i am curious what would happen if i ate more, gain weight i know but how much? what level would i plateau again at? its  a tricky business...

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