Posts by dancinghotdogs89

Hey everyone! I tell ya. I've been having the weirdest time with my weight this week. I was so excited last week because I was finally under 220 at 219, but then I found out the scale is broken so it was all a sham. :(

I went to the dreaded gyno yesterday and when I stepped on the scale I was at 225. I almost bawled. So I went and bought a new digital scale from walmart. I stepped on it when I got home to make sure it wouldn't lie to me like the other and sure enough--224.8.

But the craziest thing happened today. After I ate some leftovers from Cheddars (yum!) and did about 30 min of cardio I stepped on the scale again (mostly in admiration for this awesome scale!) and it said 221.8. ??? After I took a shower and dried off I stepped on it again and it was 220.8. 5 lbs in one day? Awkward.

So I'm resolving to still stick to my 1 day weigh in a week so I don't make a compulsion out of this, but hopefully there will be more pounds lost this week. :D

How is everyone else's day?

Hey everyone! It's been a while since I've been on. Months actually.

Muppet: I hope you get to feeling better!

I haven't been to this blog since last November! How crazy right? I got off track after the dumbest incident. I got sick Thanksgiving and just gave up.

Recently I finally got the spark I needed. Everything just kinda clicked. I finally came to terms with the fact that it will be slow process no matter how much I want it. And I don't feel so emotionally dependent on food anymore.

The thing that concerns me is that I just started a week or two ago. Every time I start trying to lose weight I always begin with a big bang of enthusiasm and stamina and it wears off within a month. Although it feels different this time, I still have that lingering fear that I'll collapse again. But most of me has hope that this is the beginning of what I've always hoped for, a healthier, happier me.

How have you guys been? =)

msn: Ooh tell me about it. I just recently bought like 4 bras for around $70 from Lane bryant, and they were cute not just black and beige. Yay! I just wish I were a D or something because $70 could get me more than 4 bras if that were the case.

Ugggh. Such luck. What I wouldn't give for classy knockers.

With my size of boobage, I unwillingly invite all of my guy friends to fling everything from straw-wrappers, nuts, rubberbands, coin, or lemon seeds at dinner into my "canyon cleavage."

And it's difficult for people not to look at my boobs. Everytime I meet someone new >>...eyes averted.

A girl once told me in 11th grade that she forgot to wear a bra that day...I almost punched her in the face. What I wouldn't GIVE to have that freedom. "Forgot to wear a bra." I couldn't forget if I tried. I have two over-exaggerated fun bags pulling my day down every morning.

I'm 20 yrs old with back aches, bad posture, self-consciousness about my clothing choices, and (turning into) saggy boobs. Pardon me, but I'm too young for this crap.

I'm thinking about a breast reduction...if I soon get money. Thoughts? Am I alone in this sinking boat?

Hey everyone! This is the first time I've looked  at this site in MONTHS. Seriously...it's depressing I know. I was on such a roll too.

I was portion-controlled and trying to exercise for about 1 month until Thanksgiving. I didn't collapse and eat tons of sweets or anything. I was actually pretty good. I thought I was in the clear until I got sick. I ended up hunched over a toilet the rest of the evening because I ate too many watery vegetables that didn't agree with me or too much fruit salad. Actually I dont' know what did it...i just know what I tasted. BLEH.

I wouldn't touch vegetables for several months after that, and I still won't eat celery or red bell peppers. Uuuugh.

Anyway I'm back on track (hopefully). I'm controlling my portions again and exercising about 6 times a week: 4 days of cardio and 2 days of strength training.

I haven't weighed myself or taken measurements since I started about 2 weeks ago, but I'm still a little confused about how to go about this...Uggh. I need to just do this.

I'm constantly unhappy with how my back hurts from my chest and stomach, I'm constantly unhappy about how I can't keep up with the skinnier people, and I'm constantly unhappy with how I look in clothes, ESPECIALLY when I've gained weight. So I need to just get over my silly craving of sugar, fat, and laziness and do this for myself.

Thanks for all the suggestions guys. The gum idea is actually pretty genius. I never would've thought of that otherwise. So I guess this site is already paying off. :D I know what you mean boost and topeze! I definitely would've polished that thing off guilt-free 2 weeks ago. Maybe it's the fact that I've got positive thoughts in my head, realistic goals I have for myself, curbing of my appetite or all of the above and more, but I totally didn't even WANT to eat it all!

I've really been focusing on little things like portion. All my life I've been totally ok with huge amounts of food, but starting out I was dead-set on convincing myself what the right amount of food is. Seeing that mound of fast food was like a horror story. The thought of eating it all made me feel immediately groggy, ill, and crushed for falling so behind on my goals.

I'm just scared that I'll lose sight of what I really want out of this and yet again put off what I really need to do for myself. I don't want to wait any longer to be healthy and the happiest I can be in my own skin.