Posts by jojonannie

update: i got my period this morning. go figure! theres always a reason..... lol ugh.

i didnt weigh for years, and as soon as i did, my eating disorder developed and i got incredibly unhealthy and obsessed (down to 100 lbs @ 5'7). i gained weight, havent weighed since december and don't plan on it because i know what will happen.

thanks! im drinking water and tea. such a bad day. i never ever EVER eat like this, but while taking a long walk (..at least i was walking i guess..) had THREE donuts from DD, a big cookie from starbucks, and an entire pint of ice cream (230 cals per serving.. 4 servings..). blahhh. i think its because i denied myself all of them for so long, i craved one and then was just like "well i might as well just have everything i've been wanting and get it over with." in fact... that was EXACTLY what i thought. i know that it will take a couple days to recover, but at least it was only one day and i havent really had any other bad days in a while (and none even close to this one) and have been exercising regularly. im also getting my period in a couple days, so that intensified the cravings. im also trying to make myself feel better by thinking to myself that, while eating 3 donuts and a whole pint of ice cream isnt normal.., sometimes people WILL have a donut and some ice cream in the same day and not FREAK OUT, and i never eat like this, and i want to be normal damnit! (i had/have an ED) sure i went OVERBOARD, but if normal means i can splurge every now and then, then i reserve the right to do the MOST when i am a PMSing girl lol.

if you're really craving junk food and dont think you can hold out, i suggest having a protein bar. they can more or less fill your craving for junk (ie a candy bar) but are more beneficial nutrient-wise. plus the protein will fill you up, and  find often that i crave junk when im -hungry-. if i have something to eat (healthy) the craving goes away.  usually...... lol

screw 'em! their loss. go jog!!!!  get new headphones. lol

well i went by the machines at the gym. i walked/ran (when i walked i walked on a 5 incline and 4.5-4.7 speed) for a little over an hour, then did 26 minutes on the elliptical, then another 15 on the tredmill. im 22, 5'7, around 120? 115? eh i dont know. I want to tone up, and if nothing else, maintain. Thanks guys. ps i think ill have an extra protein bar after dinner?

i get the 'wanna trade' thing but thats sort of like saying me chopping my fingers off doesnt hurt cause something worse happened to you. you know? i DON'T think it should be an obsessive thing, but i DO for the most part believe in choosing the thought 'make it better" over the thought "at least its not much worse."

HOWEVER, i will also say that a lot (not all) of those posts come from people who are asking just to hear what they want to hear,to feel better about choices theyve already cemented down.

i WAS one of those girls, and i have gained some weight, and even though it is only like 15 pounds, i already feel like "what was i complaining about back then," so i think that although not to the same extent, i am capable of understanding what you're feeling. before i initially got the point of being "one of those girls" i was  significantly more than i am currently. 

im not really siding one way or the other, because obviously 113 is not fat, BUT you have to understand its all relative. everyone is entitled to "feel" however they want. someone who has never been 200 pounds is not going to be able to compare to that, and the same goes in reverse. does that make any sense? 

ive wondered about that too

my story? i ate HORRIBLY on tuesday and wednesday last week, and then did well on thurs, fri, saturday, but the bloating wouldnt go away! sunday morning i wake to find out i have gotten my period for the first time in 6 months! so now im unsure of what is real weight from 2 days of such bad eating, and what is here from bloating. and since i can't remember how i felt during period bloating, i have no idea whats going on with my body! i never used to bloat that much but i think im in a new game now that i lost it and re-gained it. i am SO bloated. do you think its wise to not be expecting the same patterns and symptoms from my period as i used to?

thanks for replying. im having trouble with my body image because i fit in 3's 10 pounds ago... and i still do. so i dont know what to make of that. im uncomfortable with myself while gaining weight, but i am doing it. 

it's cute, and if thats your personality, then he already knows your cute! :) let him take you for what you are, you shouldn't have to think so hard when you structure sentences lol. ive been there, and i've learned from it

if you still feel silly, just learn to laugh at yourself :)

oh my, i ate sooo much that i actually thought i legit gained 10 pounds. holy food-baby batman. woke up this morning and felt lke i gained maybe 1. so... of course i had left overs. DURR. went and ran for 40 minute and feel better :)

ohhhhh the holidays. im glad to see the cookies FINALLY disappearing from my house. i know i'll be perfectly back on track once everything is gone. every year i say i'm gonna be good but i just CANT resist the temptation of the holidays!!

hope everyone had a good one!!

are you me? that is way too familiar sounding. good luck to you, i'll be checking for the advice youre given.

i was actually surprised, but i noticed this as an obvious fact. i got LOADS more attention from guys at 130(ish, possibly a little more) than i did at 105-110. i was expecting the opposite, of course, but actually rarely got any attention at my lowest weights. I am only at 112-115 now, but am already noticing im starting to get looks again. could it be all in my head? maybe, but i really don't think so. i live on a busy street in a city, and "before" i would get verbal comments, constantly. so i couldnt miss them. since losing the weight i've heard zero.