Posts by ilike2eatapplesandbananas

You guys have been so great. I really don't know what I would do without this kind of 24/7 support that I've found here with you.

The doctor called yesterday after I'd had my blood taken for the second time. My hCG levels dropped from 33 to 4. Anything less than 5 is not pregnant. I had a miscarriage.

This is so hard.. my mother was soo relieved, and even got angry at me for crying and being depressed. I don't know what to do.. she has had a miscarriage before, but she says it's different, because she was TRYING to have a baby, while I wasn't. It's like she is telling me I'm not allowed to be sad and grieve this loss. I know I shouldn'g have a baby at only 18 years old, but that doesn't mean I shouldn't be allowed to be upset when I know I have lost a life... flushed down the toilet. I wish I hadn't even thought to buy a pregnancy test, and that I could just think that I just had a period a few days later than I'd expected. This makes me wonder if this really is the first time I've actually been pregnant.. i think back to all those times I was a few days late for my period, and wonder...

Right now, I'm just trying to take it one day at a time, and just try to think of this as a blessing.. I know I'm not ready to be a mom.. this experience has shown me how badly I do want to be a mom in the future.. Sometime after college etc.

Thank you all for being here.

i just got off the phone with the doctors..

they told me my pregnancy hormone levels were only at 33. i took an ept 2 days earlier than they took the blood yesterday.. those only detect 25 units of the hormones.. and those hormones are supposed to double every 2 days.. so my levels should be AT LEAST 50 right now.

so i am probably having a miscarriage. I'm so devastated!!1

So I called my mom up at school where she works and was sobbing on the phone telling her to come right away. She hung up right then and sped right over to our house. I was crying and I told her I was pregnant but that I'm bleeding and that I have a doc's appointment. You know what she said? she said that she already knew!! something about motherly instinct and all that! lol. She was SOO great.. talking about her pregnancies and how she bled A LOT when she was pregnant with me.. she thought she'd had a miscarriage. She has also been through a miscarriage before, though, so she knows about that stuff. She said that if I'm not miscarrying, she will be there to help every step of the way. She didn't get angry, she was very calm and just was great.

OK. so i went to the doctors and they took a urine sample to determine if I really am pregnant.. it came back positive, but it was a very faint positive, which apparently means that it's pretty early on in the pregnancy. Too early to do an ultrasound to have a look-see at what's going on inside me. They took a blood sample to figure out how much of the pregnancy hormone I have today.. I have to go back and have another blood sample taken on Monday. If the hormone level increases, then it's just first trimester bleeding. If it decreases, then I'm miscarrying.

They said it's very likely that I am miscarrying, though... I'm cramping and it just looks like I'm having a very heavy period... I think altogether I've lost about 3-4 tablespoons of blood all today. But I think it might be tapering off a little bit now, but I'm not sure. I'm still crampy.. and scared. the waiting is the worst part.

OK. now i'm worried. It's turned reddish pink now. Still no cramping though, but it's enough so I need a pad!!! It looks almost like a period.. I'm so scared! Is it possible I had TWO false positives and this is my period?? I'm calling the doctor's office ASAP.

Thank you EVERYONE for being here.

So I guess the spotting I was experiencing was the implantation bleeding!

It's been over 8 hours since I took the test, and I have had emotions ranging from extremely anxious and scared to even happy or excited. This whole experience is so strange to me. I can't believe I am "that girl".. the one who gets pregnant as a teen. Thank God I only have 2 more months of high school until I graduate.. I won't be showing (at least not much anyway) by then.

I will be taking another "just in case" test tomorrow morning.. but I don't think the results will be any different.

I have told my boyfriend and my best friend. They are both so supportive and kind. They even made me laugh a little bit... This whole thing is just so surreal. I look down at my (realatively) flat stomach and wonder.. is there really life inside there? Right now the concept is so abstract.

I have been through so much in my life, and I have come out through the other side with every obstacle I've faced. I know I will be able to do the same with this. I know I can do this.

I will set up a doctor's appointment for that 8 week mark.. I am planning to tell my family after the doctor appointment (in two weeks).. after it's "officially" confirmed. What do you guys think about that?

I am looking into resources available to me to make this easier... I am going to try college in the fall.. I don't want this to affect my education. People juggle kids and a job and going back to school all the time.. I know I have the strength and drive to do the same.

I am trying to eat healthy... I am nauseous all the time.. and now i know why! Today I probably got in about 1600-1800 calories.. probably too low.. does anyone have any info about proper nutrition needed during pregnancy? I have come to terms I will have to gain weight... so much for getting in fabulous shape in the summer to fit into my little bikini! But.. that's part of the process. I'm not going to feel guilty about feeding this baby... I already eat healthy foods.. fruits, veggies, lean protein and whole grains make up most of my diet.

Now what do I do? Any thoughts, suggestions, information you guys want to share with me??

Thank you all so much for being here. I really don't know what I'd do without this kind of support.

"It's kind of like "if I can't see them, they can't see me" mentality that kids have."

bier.. so true!! lol...

so. I bought the test today. an hour ago. I'm going to wait a couple of hours so my urine is more concentrated... and so I can process the fact that I actually bought the pregnancy test. I had kind of figured that I'd get my period before I actually ended up buying the test. so... I am very very nervous right now.

THANK GOD I have a loving boyfriend that is with me every step of the way. I spent the weekend with him, and he knew something was wrong, and he asked me what was bothering me. I told him I was a week late, and he was so sweet. He said he would be supportive of me whatever my decision was. We have been dating for about 2 years.. and now that he has reacted in this calm, mature way.. I know that he is quite a catch. he's such a sweetheart, and I'm so lucky.

thank you guys so much for your support. I will keep you updated! (and bier, thank you for what you said about me being responsible. If I am pregnant, I will have been one of those women who have defied the odds and are in that 1% or something!!)

*whew* deep breaths. I will let you guys know!

^^^ lol at your edit!!! that's exactly where I got my username.. I loved that song when i was a kid.

Thank you so much for such a quick reply! I had heard of implantation, and I was thinking that might be what's up... although in this possibly hypothetical pregnancy, conception would've been 2 weeks ago (14 days.. the limit you put was up to 10 days after conception)... so i'm just going to wait it out, and whatever happens, happens.

Original Post by rayn29:

Just let you know, i consumed alot of salt in my time, not thinking anything of it. And i found out at 28 that i have high blood pressure. Check yours from time to time.

I never even thought of that. I will pay attention to that. As of right now, my blood pressure is perfect, but great advice.

I'm about an inch shorter than you (5'3.5") and I weigh about 128.. I'm a size 5/6 (usually.. sometimes 7/8, other times 3/4.. it really depends on brands..)

................anyone???