Posts by marissa92

Thanks guys, you're reassuring comments helped.. I was pretty freaked out there for a bit!

But I haven't majorly upped my calorie intake lately? Well I did increase it but only by say 200-3000 a day more. And the weird thing is: I'm regular in the mornings first thingh when I get up. Then through the day at school my stomach makes all these weird sounds and I'm so gassy but embarrassed(obviously:P) So I hold it in. Then as soon as I get home, I have to like RUN to the bathroom.

I was thinking it's possibly because I've been trying to eat faster lastely, I'm acctully a really slow chewer, I always have been, but even more so since my ED. So is it maybe I'm swallowing too much air while trying to chew fast? Or how about swallowing air from chewing gum?

Thanks sooo much everyone!♥  All of the reasurance knowing that I'm not the only one who stuggles really supports me! :)

I'm planning to talk to my mom about it as soon as she gets home from work!

I was reading this whole thing with my jaw down to the floor! You know what? Yes, sometimes I get triggered too, but isn't posting your opinion about these people kinda rude? I mean, it is good to discus it, in case it is a real problem and lots of people are triggered, but seriously!?

How would you feel if you had a really low self esteem (like many people with ED's do) and other people were saying how "DISGUSTING" you looked!? Yes, you Agruskin. 
And I don't mean to be rude, I think you are very encouraging and caring to many of us going through recovery, but that is why I was so shocked by your first post! I'm sorry but that is just rude!

No, I don't know what anyone with these pictures feel about this thread, and their pictures. Some may feel they want to brag, and some are probably ashamed. But I'm pretty sure everyone of those people who post these photos, heck; even everyone on this forum, no, on this site! wants support!

No, this site is not a pro-ana or mia, we all know that. This site is for support and help, that's what we all want. right?

And I fully agree with those of you bringing up that it may be triggering, and yes I understand you're trying to support people too, but nobody who posts these photo's looks like that on purpose! Even those who are doing it to brag and show off how skinny they are, that's obviously not on purpose.. Maybe the "ana" inside of them is, but they ARE sick people! And isn't what we are all trying to do is HELP those who are sick! So why make them feel worse!?

Edit: Sometimes, I even(and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one) get triggered by other peoples posts; just they're BMI, and how vmuch they way, thing that are happening, just nomal stuff. But seriosly? Isn't that the life of haveing an ED?!

I don't know what I'm really suggesting here, because I agree with both sides of the argument.. but.. *sigh* I dunno, Just think before you type people! Put your-self in others shoes for crying out loud!

Original Post by justwantitnow:

Ha, IDK if I've ever had an ed, but ive always been paranoid about what I put down my mouth. and how much ive weighed.

i lost my period in april 09 at a weight like at 109. and now im forcing myself to gain weight bc im 99 lbs and my lwoest is 95. im 5'3 and a half and thts not good. im telling myself 115 at a bmi of 20 and i might get my period and thats my motivator. im forcing myself to eat every second that im at home. yes i feel like a pig, but im not stopping. not until i reach 110. and if i gain and nothing happens, i will be pissed.

 HA! I'm also 5'3, and 99lbs.. and also lost my period at 109ish! ... But if Febuary...:(   Anyways it's pretty close to your story, and still made me laugh!

Sorry; back on the subject!:::: I struggle with the same thing (not wanting to gain that is) It freaks me out, right out of my mind, just the thought of fitting into my OLD clothes again; they're haunting me every day when I open my closet! I just keep telling myself, if you don't eat, you'll loose weight yes, but then Lise(my nutritionist) will make you eat more, than you'll gain more anyways! I dunno.. works for me... I've also heard that talking to your ED voice out loud when it says "you fatty, don't eat that" just say "Shut up ED!!"  I dunno, try it; lemme know how it goes! Good luck! Write me if you need any help or support! :) ♥

B- 1 slice WW toast, 2tbsp whipped cream cheese, 1tbsp almond butter, 1tbsp cinnamon, 1/2c blueberries, 1c skim milk, CIB

L- 2 slices multi-grain bread, 1tbsp pesto sause, 1tbsp sour cream, 1/2c mixed veggies, 1 slice cheese, 1 veggie burger, 1/4 cup 1% cottage cheese, 8 baby carrots

S- 1/2 strawberry frozen yogurt, 1c skim milk, CIB

D- 3 large scallops in olive oil, 1/2c veggies, 1/2 salad, 2tbsp salad dressing, 1cob of corn

S- 1c skim milk, CIB, 1/2c 1% yogurt, 1slice toast, 1c popcorn

Thanks guys! All your reply's were great! :]

Hmmm; fruit and popcorn eh?  I never knew fruit could count as a carb!? Should I maybe ask my nutritionist before I start useing it as one?

And how much popcorn is 1 serving?

New thread - new me! I've been wanting to post in the  "weight gainers what did you eat today" thread for so long now, but couldn't because I wasn't consuming enough calories.. but after a LONG discussion with my nutritionist on Tuesday, she upped my meal plan to 2500+ calories! Yesterday was my first day on it, and I haven't eaten this much in almost a year now! And it WAS hard, VERY hard, but I did it! And it doesn't feel as bad as I thought!

Anywho.. here's what I ate, the most I have in a LONGGGGGG time!::

B- 1slice WW toast, 2 tbsp cream cheese, smoothie with 1c skim milk, a handful of raspberries, CIB,  a tbsp of almond butter.

L- veggie burger, a whole WW English muffin, 1 slice cheddar cheese, 1 tsp my grandmas homemade pesto sauce, mustard, lettuce and tomato,  1/4 cup 1% cottage cheese

S- Smoothie with CIB, 1c skim milk, 1 peach,  1/2 WW english muffin, 1 tbsp peanut butter

D- 1c veggies, in olive oil, 6 shrimp, about 2 tbsps ginger soy sauce

Dessert- single scoop ice cream from baskin robbins

S- 1c cucumber, CIB pudding, 1/2 cup cottage cheese

I still didn't do so great, with saving up food until night, but hey! At least I got it all in; right!? :)

Thanks to all you guys so much! And you know what? After a LONGGGGGGG discussion with my nutritionist and therapist just this morning, we HAVE decided to increase my food amount by a huge ****load!

my old plan::

B-1grain, 1protein, CIB

L-2grain, 2protein, 1veg/fruit

S-CIB, anything i want

B-1grain, 1protein, 1veg/fruit

S-CIB

My new and improved plan:

B-1grain, 1protein, 1fruit/veg, 1fat, CIB

L-2grain, 2protein, 1fat, 2fruit/veg, 1dairy

S- 1grain, CIB

D-2grain, 3protein, 2fat, 1fruit/veg, 1dairy

S-1 thing from a list of desserts, and CIB

This is a HUGE step for me and I am very overwhelmed!! BUT, I think I can do it! I'm now totally ready to fully entirely try my hardest to gain! I;m scared! Very scared! But I'm not gonna give up quite yet...! :S Wish me luck!

Wordsunheard- hahah, yeah, that's what i meant! Sorry about that! :P

Agruskin- Deap down, I KNOW I should be eating 2500, but I have a nutritionist, and she has said no such thing, she hasn't told me a number of calories, but she has given me a pretty flexible meal plan to follow. She knows what I eat and has said I'm doing good. Thank you for you concern though.. And, uhhh, I haven't thought about what I'm going to maintain on.. :S  I'm guessing my body is still in starvation mode; so I'll probably have to increase it in time, so I'll probably be up at 2500 plus soon, and then I guess my maintian will be about 2000, I dunno though.. I'm just following my nutritionist's rools, and isn't that the most important one to listen to?

Good job not restricting!! :)
I read this and I was like, wow, I feel the exact same thing! I too would never eat by myself, during the week, but on weekends at sleepovers with my friends and family parties, I'd eat a lot, than feel bad about it and eat next to nothing again. The cycle went on and on! And I too now eat the same everyday, somedays I have more, and the next day sometimes I do restrict  a little.. :(
I just never realized untill I read this, so thanks I guess!

But just know your not alone, I'm here with you!

Chrissy this was a great idea for a topic!:)

I'm in recovery right now, but keep thinking, oh once I gain the weight my maintaining level will be so low, and it will feel like I'm barely eating again, and it'll be so hard to make stuff taste good with out all the extra calories... BUT after reading some of this stuff, I've realised, hey! I can still eat a lot of yummy food! I'm pumped to recover soon and start posting here! :)

Thanks so much!
I'll try it out!

Original Post by jeffyboylover24:

Even though those foods are "good fats" they're still fats. You need to limit your intake to one serving of good fat per meal (at most).

 No, sorry, but it IS okay to have more than that. You should have about 1 serving "added" fats at every meal maybe, like olive oil, or avocado, but there is also fat, naturally in other things, like even bananas for example, have fat in them, but that doesn't make them a fat does it? their still a fruit.

And I don't think you need to worry about the 70g per day, because that is based on a 2000 calorie diet, and if you're eating 3000 calories a day, it would make sense for you to have around 105g, right? because you need to have a balance, not gram for gram, the extra calories have to come from somewhere..

And you know what? Eating fat does not make you have any more fat than carbs or proteins, I know, they're both called fat right, but it's used for other stuff too, it doesn't go straight to your stomach. A calories is still just a calorie. There is now fad weight loss programs about eating extra fat to loose weight... I think the "eat as little fat as possible" fad, was just that: a fad. that society never learned to let go of!

Fat does have more calories per gram than protein and carbs, but hey, you gotta get the calories from somewhere! So yeah, don't worry about it! I know it's hard, and I struggle with it too, but really, it's okay to have more fat, you should be if you are consuming an extra 1000 calories.

Thanks, summerlovin.. I'll make it my goal to post here sometime soon!

But I am teribbleing sorry if I ever triggered anyone even a bit! :(

Okay; thanks..:)   Well anyway's here's today's eats..

B- 1 peice WW toast, a fried egg, smoothie with CIB and 1/2 banana

L- 2 pc WW bread, 3 slices tofurkey, 2 slices veggie cheese, 1/2 orange

S- apple, CIB

D- 85g.ish tofu, with 1 tbsp olive oil and 1 tbsp sause, 1c steamed brocoli, 1 slice toast(again) with 1 slice veggie cheese.. a handfull of almonds

S- CIB and.. hmm haven't desided yet, I'll make sure it's at least 200-300 cals though..