Posts by celesteleary

this is weird cuz i've been having worse anxiety than normal lateley. i've had panic attacks everyday for a little more than a week now, and it's been really hard for me to do normal things (text my boyfriend, decide what to eat, do my homework, call anyone to hang out with). i seem to overthink everything, and end up doing absolutely nothing (literally in bed in the fetal position) and if i do do something, i still freak out untill the situation works out (if it doesn't work out...). oh yeah and i can't sleep (explains why i'm posting this at 3:30 am).

 i go to a pshchologist and that helps a bit (yay for insurance paying for that), she said that i just have anxiety induced depression. but the thing that helps the most is medical marajuana (i live in california, so it's legal) it really just calms and sooths me, allows me to be happy, and is a miricle for sleep (seriously). only bad thing is than it makes you want to eat (tea helps) and that it's frowned on by a lot of people.... but seriously how is any other medication better?.... i haven't used any in about a month now, and i think that's why my anxiety/depression is getting worse again, but i'm trying to focus on a long-term solution aka psychologist

i'm 5'7" and i've got a small frame according to the wrist thing and i'm very athletic. i've weighed everywhere between 112-135. from 112 to around the low 120's i looked too skinny, plus i was in the hospital with mono so that was no good! 124-128 looks and feels good on me

oh! why didn't i think of this before! can you mix some protein or recovery power into one of your water bottles?-- that stuff is high in calories and nutrients-- can get kinda sticky/sweet so maybe one bottle of that stuff and one regular watter bottle? :)

if you have a california pizza kitchen around you, you should try the chocolate suffle cake. omg it is so good and so worth the calories. you can share it with one or two people. it's the best!

omg thank you so much!

what you describe actually fits me very well. we have sex almost everyday, so i can see how i need time to heal. haha and he will definately get it :)

thank you thank you thank you!!!

grrr i do NOT like my boobd

i'm a 34 D. it's annoying when you want to wear a baggy shirt and it just looks like a tent and makes you look fat. or when i try on a cute top , and the boob area is way to small.  or when i just want to run around with my friends---and my boobs bounce everywhere ad make me feel uncomfortable  grrr big boobs

i'm learning to live with them though, mostly because my boyfriend tells me how beautiful i am everyday-- haha good for the self esteem :)

hi! i'm the captain of the girls cross country team at my highschool. we run everyday except for sundays. everyone had off days sometimes, but we try to prevent them by drinking tons of water. you should try to drink half your body weight in ounces everyday.

also shoes are important- you need to replace your running shoes every 300-400 miles you run (and never wash or especially never dry them-- with a machine of course)

getting enough sleep isn't really an issue the day after you didn't sleep enough, but the second day after! so be sure to sleep well for at least two nights before your race :)

also eating after you run is important. especially for longer workouts. 30-60 minutes after you run, you should get some fuel (a bar or just a meal)-- this is especially important for runs over an hour long because you need to replenish your glycogen stores

also as you train make sure to get enough iron-- your red blood cells need iron in order to carry oxygen

favorite:

1. oatmeal
2. baked yams
3. grilled meat (chicken, fish, beef ummm my mom can grill)
4. sushi or sashimi (i get unagi-- it's fresh water eel: for sashimi it's yellow fin tuna)
5. nuts (cashews and almonds... and peanut butter)
6. parmagon or bree cheese (sorry for the spelling)
7. spiach and feta cheese omlet
8. cereal (any kind really. i <3 cereal)
9. btl's with avocado and ranch= the best sandwich ever
10. fruit (grapes, bananas and red apples are my favorites)
11. home made desserts-- i don't like the store bought nasty stuff

least favorite

1. minestroni soup-- smells and tastes like throw up..cuz i threw t up once
2. mayonaise-- thought some was pudding once... omg never can eat it again--- gag
3. sour cream-- pasty, but gritty,  white and tastes nasty... kind of goes along with mayo
4. pancakes-- ok these may taste good, but i always pass because i can't even eat a whole one without feeling like i'm going to throw up. idk why
5. gummy anything (bears, worms, burgers ect.) i think i'm allergic, i eat like 2 and i feel sick to my stomach
6. plain pasta. just gross. i put my spagetti sauce on toast.
7. lamb-- i just dont like the taste. it's kind of nosey and greesey
8. cherry flavored anything (candy, yogurt, even cherry pie) just don't like it!
9. those cheese things that are coated with shaved nuts that people have at parties for crackers. ew-- it's kind of sickly sweet-- and it's cheese
10. guava and papaya. tastes like dirty socks and smells like nasty!
11. store bought frosting. fake and nasty!

do what i did!

first-- if you really did do uppers-- start running! i run about 3 miles a day, and it makes you feel GREAT. oh the endorphins :) just start off slow if you don't run. just a mile a day rest on sunday's... then move up to two miles when that feels good... then three... then whatever [jogging a mile burns off about 100 calories...in about 10 minutes!]

second-- turn your love of food into a love of good food.--- i cook almost all of my meals so i can plan what i want to eat in the day and i can make it healthy and delicious... it's fun!

um i'm quite sure it's good for you. i only think people cut out whole fat dairy products when they try to loose weight. low fat products are very good for you

the strangest? oh well i guess my boyfriends big nose, and the way he gets dry lips from being in the sun. it looks so unkept and hot while he is a pretty sharp dresser

oh and when i discovered my boyfriends tatoo-- it's just his last name written in wales on the right side of his chest (pretty small)-- but just finding that the first time i took off his shirt. oh my god ;)

oh yeah forgot to tell you that i went from 134 to 130, then down to 128 now that i started to eat a little bit less

i know i am young, but i am the daughter of a elementary school teacher (5th grade, but the teachers all talk and the school is fairly small) and yes yes yes kids NEED medication. the children with ADD/ADHD problems are almost all medicated before 5th grade, and the teachers are very good at recognizing problems!

kids aren't put on meds just for the heck of it-- the teacher that suspects a learning disability had to go throught an entire process (sorry i don't remember the exact name at the moment) of documenting the childs behavior and a series of meetings with the parents and the principal and the schools child psycologist (and this all has to be approved by the parents before it begins).

the kids that aren't medicated that NEED it by 5th grade are not only hard for the teacher to deal with, but they frusturate themselves. most of these kids are  so sweet and they despirately want to do good and be smart-- but they can't focus. and parents that won't medicate their children just because they don't believe in medication need to think of what is best for their kid!

 learning should be exciting and fun! not frustrating and near impossible!

oameal with a scrambled egg mixed in and seasoning (i like spike seasoning)

oatmeal with vanilla extract, cimmanin, and ground cloves

i liked your suggestion of making oatmeal with tea... maybe chai tea would be good

age:  17

weight: 130

height: 5'7"

goal weight: 124

i really want a buddy! you'd think that 6 lbs would be hard to slim down to... it's so hard!