Posts by drivenlass

Heya liney, its not tooo confusing, just 15portions of grun a day, still doing maudsley, but only do it when i am at home, cause breakfast aand snacks are ok alone and mum tells me what snacks to have and what momma says-fiona does!but im learning pretty fast and getting used to eating types/amounts of maudsley.

re; having to eat at hourly intervals, could u maybe have a brunch?and bigger snacks and then dinner on days you work?just a suggestion?xxxx

So ive been onto my therapist lately and she has given me a super easy plan to follow. Baasically listed the guidelines for portions,;ile what is one portion, what is two etc...said i need to have 15 portions a day, and how many to have from each food group-pretty easy yea?15 is a lot easier to count to than 2500+!

Breakfast: Muesli, soy milk,kiwi and 5 brazils, oj and tea with honey

Snack: Pear

Lunch: Dont think Im weird, but i brought in snacks to college and made this,  2x ww bread with butter, jam and 2 tbsp toasted seeds (a very crunchy sammie it was!) with a few sweetpotatoe fries of my friends!

Snack: Apple, mini choco bar

Thats around 15 i think!

Dinner: Stirfried chicken, with hugey salad, spinach, carrots, seeds, dressing, rocket, sugarsnaps with hummus

Snack: Warmed spiced applejuice (at a craftfair-yummm!!!!-so warming and chritsmassy!) at home, bowl of custard with 2 dates and glass of prune juice

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Todays been a good day. Ive relaised

"I can eat whatver whenevr I want" and that food isnt so important for me to get emotional over, so when I do find myself getting emotional over it, I know its the ed, so i ignore that tantrum of his.

However, realsing this means that if i were to write out my eats and they hadnt changed at all since last week, then i would only be talking the talk not walking the walk. So the evidence really is in the eats (as well as being in my mood!-which has improoved too)

So todays eats

Breakfast:Muesli with soya milk, chopped hazelnuts, frozen blackberries and hoeny. Oj and tea with honey

Snack: Soya milk hot chocolate

Lunch: Veggie soup with 2 pieces of cheesy oat bread (sounds odd but very nice!) with 2 tbsp mixed seeds in soup

Snack: MCDONALS apple pie-woopwoop! havent had one of these since I was like 14 and I loved them and guess what-still do!!

Dinner: Garlic Butter Chicken with potatoes and veg

Snack: KitKat, Prune Juice and tea with honey

ACTION, GOTTA HOLD ONTO THIS GOOD FEELING ADN KEEP ACTING!!

xxx

Hey guys

So another day another day of eating.

Breakfast: Muesli with strawberries, soya milk and almonds, oj and tea with honey

Snack: Strawberry milkshake

Lunch: Chunky chicken and veg soup with brown bread and butter

Snack: Apple, pack of rainbow sweets

Dinner: Classic Quorn Stirfry with sweet potatoe and toasted seeds on top

Snack: TBD

Quick q; Does anyone else get very annoyed when people say to them to eat more or eat something different that would be better for gaining?Im finding i  get so angry with people when they say it. Its like I want to figure it out and do it for myself, I dont like poeple say "Just do it" I dont like when they think that ed is just a physical thing-cause its a mental thing too.

I shared a croissant with my mom, spontaneously outside of my mealplan, go me!! want to start just bloody eating again, like without inhibitions, so am practicisng the mantra-"I can eat whatever I want whenever I want"-and its working, cause Im not depriving or overeating cause I know I can have some more of whatever at another time!

To sit by the fire and eat a spontaneous chocolate

To have dessert

To laugh with my family

To stay up late and watch movies

To eat a third meal of some sort

yes , deep down i know i need to eat more to satisfy my body and get myself to a healthy weight. Im scared but ill do it anyway because the fear is not rational. Stopping the picking,Eating the full portion or seconds to satisfy, Having the snack if i want it or am hungry for it, Going beyond my "food allowance" for the day. Ill give it a go. I have nothing to lose (except a bad habit)

Thanks again-ill update :-)

Kind of seeing a doctor. I think I do it because

I dont eat enough in the day for my body and I get cravings (currently having 2000 ish a day)

I dont allow myself enough and what I want

I am scared of eating "forbidden foods" or over a certain amount or something different

I think a good idea would be to

challenge my ed by;

have proper meals so that i am satisfied

have snacks and meals that i really want to have

if i go into "that behviour" ask why i am doing it? if i want something have it or at least half of it

I developed this behaviour with my ed, but i dont have a "team" to discuss this with. I know I can stop it but i want to know the reason im doing it so i can solve the root cause of it. And so that i can overcome the possible ed fear of not being able to eat over a certain amount or certain food that leads to this behaviour.

x

Thanks sunnim, but amethystgirl is right, i am trying to gain, and i eat the same now as i did in the summer (fluid wise too) except less cold meals and more soup. I was just curious, like does my body need more heat now to stay warm through eating more food, thats all.

Its 3 degrees here, brr! adn im getting a lot hungrier in this cold winter weather, xoxo

p.s hope u dont mind, but i pulled out some of your old posts

heh, heh... mine too. :)

i know all the dense food tricks because i hated having to eat so many calories at first, but now the only super dense things i eat are those i enjoy for the taste. my calories come from normal foods for the most part- light, dense, whatever- but definitely nothing hidden and so ensure or supplementary pills. i eat so freaking much it's crazy, and i enjoy every bite of what i eat.

and when i reach my goal weight, metabolism + body will just even out, so no reason to go back to restricting. pretty cool, i think.

not dumb, the idea of having to keep eating so much one i'm weight-restored scared the heck out of me!

my friends from therapy who are weight restored still eat a ton, and are happy, healthy, energetic, and skinny. if someone has chips they all want some. same for candy (we meet over a restaurant.) if it's someone's birthday there's definitely giant cupcakes and if anyone is missing it's "who-can-have-the-last-one??!" it's okay to exercise by that point, but none of them do. one girl had to gain on 4600 calories, now she eats ~3500. so yeah, they lowered some, but not one eats less than 2200 calories a day now. and they're not gaining or losing any. 

i'm with you on this one, dekkos, and wish i could speak from personal experience. but it looks like it will be okay to me. let's just get to our restored weights first. 

PRETTY COOL EH!! XX

fidget is onehundred percent right and there wasnt n e negativity in her orig. post. recovery has to be 4 onesself and at the same time, it is nice to see a smile on a loved ones face if the sufferer is getting well

I think people should be allowed a balance of posts. Sometimes people with ed's just need to rant, talk, let stuff outta there system. This can be very helpful for the person. Knowing that they will get a positive response like "Pick yourself back up", rather than saying nothing, keeping it in and letting the ed voice respond.

However I do think that tough advice, although its the hardest to hear, is what people with ed's need to hear but it can be done in a compassionate way. e.g-"Youre are really trying to eat more, but maybe try and have a new fear food".

Its often that people get angry when they hear (or in this case) read something they dont want to read. They dont want to see the truth in its blatant pure and honest form.

People give advice in different ways; some are soft, some are tough, some say things in roundabout ways. I think that if someone posts here and gets a response, that they should look for the ESSENCE of the repsonse, read between the lines and try and see what the responder is trying to teach/tell the op.

With ed recovery, often the emotion needs to be removed so the recoverer can do the action without all the added emotion.

If the recoverer is posting re; an emotional issue, than the op should be open to the fact that ANYONE can repsond, soft OR tough, and to be prepared for that.

Thats what I do on this site anyway, and it works for me,xx

HI ALL! Well id just thought i would post before I left for college.

Breakfast: Oatmeal with almond oil, honey, chopped hazelnuts and dates. OJ and tea with honey

Im super nervous as I have a big event on today (100%of my grade for event planning-Im studying Event Management). Food is the LAST thing on my mind, I cant plan it out-too stressed I feel ed may take over if I do. I just hope I eat enough and dont restrict due to stress.

Wish me luck!

xx

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!