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Week 0.   9/8-9/10: 210

Week 1.   9/15-9/17: 210

- 9/8 tues: 100oz = 1.00 pts
- 9/9 wed: 100oz = 1.00 pts
- 9/10 thur: 100oz = 1.00 pts
- 9/11 fri: 100oz = 1.00 pts
- 9/12 sat: 50oz = 0.50 pts
- 9/13 sun: 60oz = 0.60 pts
- 9/14 mon: 60oz = 0.60 pts

Challenge Points: 5.70

Week 0.   9/8-9/10: 210
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Week 2.   9/22-9/24:
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Week 3.   9/29-10/1:
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Your situation sounds just like mine! I'm 5'10" and at 212 right now.  I've always been trying to lose weight it seems.  I started really focusing on losing the pounds about 7 weeks ago, because I'm getting married at the end of October.  The thought of pictures really freaks me out because I don't want to look back at the photos and be ashamed of myself.

So I know how much it sucks.  My fiance is unemployed and I work from home, and because of the crappy economy, my work has slowed substantially, so we have A LOT of free time together, in which we could be working out, hiking, but usually end up on the couch. 

I work out about every day, even if its just to get on the treadmill or ellipitcal trainer for 30 minutes.  And I've lost 8lbs in 7 weeks.  While some would say that's about right, its horribly frustrating and upsetting.  I can't seem to get any lower, no matter what I do.

Two years ago I graduated college (after taking 10 years) and was finally in a position to join a gym and I did, and lost about 25 pounds in about 4 months.  I got down to about 200-205.  THEN...I met my fiance.  And it all went down hill.  You know, going out to eat all the time, not going to the gym so I could go see him. Bleh.  It all came back.

So, here we are.  Counting calories for the first time.  I had a mini freakout last night.  For some reason, it all hit me.  I hate having this extra weight.  I know my fiance doesn't love me for who I could be, but who I am, but its still really hard.   And some days I feel like giving up, and that nothing is going to make a difference. But everything I've been doing has made a difference.  Its changed the way I eat, and I have lost some weight.  Not as much as I'd like, but I've lost nonetheless.

Don't give up.  Keep working out, make sure you're doing weight training as well.  I suggest actually detailing a plan of what you want to do when you workout.  And keep watching what you eat/drink.  I never really paid attention to calories before, and once I started, it really makes you take notice of what you're putting in your mouth. 

Set mini goals for yourself instead of just one long term goal.  (I'm in the same boat as you, I want to get to about 160) And when you want to start snacking, first drink a glass of water.  It'll fill you up a bit.  And if you still want that cookie, thats okay, have 1 or 2, just not the box.  I also keep pictures of things that I want, like clothes, or a picture of someone I'd like to resemble once I'm down to ny goal weight.  It keeps me going.  And from finishing off the last 4 cupcakes.

Good luck and don't give up.  It'll happen, just not overnight.

Just wanted to say that by no means do you look "fat."  Its really hard to get past things that others say, but, just remember that most people do and say things out of fear - out of fear of the unknown and their own insecurities.

I say keep working out, but don't overdo it, and don't beat yourself up over not getting back to your lowest weight.  You look like you are already in great shape, so just keep working out to give yourself that peace of mind, knowing you're taking control, and keeping yourself healthy.

Good luck and stay healthy.  Don't lets someone else's issues/jealousy bring you down.

Just feeling like I can't do enough, or am not doing something right.

I hate the word "diet."  To me, that sounds so restrictive and negative.  I won't ever say I'm going to diet, because for me, a diet won't work.  I like the idea of changing my outlook and attitude about how much and what I eat, just eating healthier.  I've never had an easier time than using this website to track what I eat.  I don't think i overdo it, but some days, I just think what's the purpose, I'll never be skinny.

I'm getting married in October, and the last thing I want is to have wedding pictures reminding me of the extra weight for the rest of my life. (My mantra - I WILL NOT BE A FAT BRIDE!)

Its hard to set goals, because for me, I don't really know who to look to as a role model - I'm 5- 10", 220lbs, and luckily because of my genetics, its distributed pretty evenly.  But I wish there was healthy image to aspire to, but I really don't know what or who that would be.  I don't want a role model that's my height but looks like a skeleton.