Posts by lalalaurennn

You're not pleased with our great state? D=

You're eating the absolute bare minimum for an adult woman- 1200 calories. You just exited your teen years and you may still be growing, especially internally. This means you've been eating below what is required for a growing teenager- 1500 calories for a girl. I know you don't want to be called a child, but you don't stop growing until around your age. Your metabolism may be depressed from eating less than it needs to run your body and maintain your growth. Because you're slightly restricting your intake, your body may be storing calories and fat in order to sustain itself. Therefore, eating a few hundred calories more will give it a boost. Anticipate an initial weight gain, but it won't be very much and afterwards it will be easier to lose because you'll be eating enough to sustain your body. =]

I totally understand! I went through the exact thing in the late stages of my recovery from anorexia. I used to restrict during the day and then feel entitled to eat tons at night- a horrible cycle, as it's difficult to stop eating when necessary after your body hasn't been receiving enough nourishment. For just one week, try to plan out your meals ahead of time. Spread out your calories throughout the day and make you sure you're eating sufficient amounts. You'll find that at night, you won't be as ravenous anymore. After a while, it will be easy to control the binge urge and you'll feel energized all throughout your week.

Just remember:

• Eat enough calories. Restricting will get you nowhere, as you've discovered on your own.
• Don't restrict during the day. You'll only be tempted at night.
• Do some moderate exercise. It will make you feel better about yourself, as I'm guessing some of your bingeing may be emotional (?)
• Give it time. Your body and mind will need a few weeks to adjust. Just trust yourself; you can do it.

=D I'm so happy to hear this! It's nice that you're able to accept that being stick thin isn't always the best. You have strength and muscle, but you also have developed your mind. You make healthy choices. Their unhealthy might not reflect at the moment, but they will someday. You'll come out the winner in the end. I was so intimidated by my thin friends that I became anorexic in junior high school and starved to become quite thin. But I had no strength, and no curves. Now that I've toned up and gained back some of the weight healthily, I can appreciate how nice it is to have a functioning, attractive body. Starving isn't beautiful.

Poor spelling and grammar seems to be indicative of blatant carelessness or a simple lack of intelligence, in my opinion. But I'm well aware of many smart people who abbreviate or change words when unnecessary, and I understand that it's most common in my generation- the mid and young teenagers of America (and many other countries). By the time one is an adult, however, I would just expect them to have a competent grasp on basic spelling and grammar, or as least the self-respect to look up a word they're unsure of.

Although- what is the difference between "farther" and "further"? I looked it up on Google, but the meaning still seems unclear. It's bothered me for so long lol =P

My story is similar to yours, so maybe it will help:

I starved myself for two years in junior high and high school and lost 20 pounds. Fear of discovery and loss of confidence in my ability to sustain such a lifestyle resulted in secret late night binges in order to (a) satisfy my ravenous hunger, and (b) get rid of the food i was supposed to have eaten throughout each day. Although I recognized that it would be much healthier to spread the food out throughout the day instead of starving until very late at night, I couldn't bring myself to portion out healthy meals. I held the conviction each day that I would conquer bingeing and slip back into my anorexic habits. This continual devastation and resulting lack of confidence continued for a year, during which I gained back all of the weight I had starved off, plus 8 additional pounds. Finally, beginning at the end of this past winter, I began eating substantially on a regular schedule. To hold myself accountable, I logged absolutely every calorie I consumed. I didn't allow myself to cheat and say "I'll start again tomorrow" each time I overate. In addition, I weighed myself every Friday and recorded it- no excuses and no weighing on other days. Seeing the correlation between the numbers helped to convince me that I didn't have to starve or binge to be satisfied with my eating habits. After several months of this and a weight loss of those extra 8 pounds, I'm back where I started. Confident that my metabolism has recovered from anorexia, I'm now comfortable adding in strength training and daily jogging while upping my calories to sustain this exercise. It will be tough initially and slipping up is nearly unavoidable, but as you adjust to eating regularly and healthily, you'll realize that you no longer feel that unbeatable urge to gorge yourself. Motivation can be easily procured whether from within yourself or with the help of support from CC. I think the main points of focus are to hold yourself accountable for your actions, never skip meals, plan out your eating ahead of time, and keep your goals in mind at all times. You can definitely do it and you have a whole community of people who will support you through difficult times. Let this be a new, amazing chapter in your life. I know you can do it =]

PM me if you ever need a friend <3

Excellent! How inspiring =]

Although your BMI would be 18.6 and that's technically within the healthy range, it's very close to underweight. I personally wouldn't advise being so close to the border between healthy and underweight because you may appear overly thin, but if you have a small frame it might suit you. You already look gorgeous and with fluctuations 3-5 pounds probably won't make much of a difference. Good luck <3

This is a cool post =]

Name or Nickname: Lauren
Gender: female
Birthday: July 28, 1993
Where you live (Country): United States
Height: 5'2"
Eye color: blue
Hair color: brown
What does your name mean: i have no clue
Favorite TV shows: Degrassi and House
Do you believe in yourself: sometimes
Favorite game: tennis!
Favorite drink: diet coke =X
Favorite food: watermelon =]
Favorite colors: plum and crimson

Favorite sounds: wind chimes, acoustic guitars, pianos
Favorite smell: possibilities, by ann taylor
Worst feeling in the World: absolute hopelessness
Best feeling in the World: requited love
Favorite thing to do on a weekend: play tennis
Favorite soundtrack: Aladdin!
Where do you see yourself in 10 years: grad school?
Rollercoasters- deadly or exciting: deadly
Future son names: unsure
Future daughter names: Lily or Anna
Are you a good friend: i hope so
Chocolate or Vanilla cake: vanilla =]
What do you drive: my nonexistent car, with my nonexistent license
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no
Thunderstorms cool or scary: cool
If you could meet one person in the World, who would it be: Gandhi!
What is your zodiac sign: leo
What do you wear to bed: shorts and a t-shirt
Do you eat stems of broccoli: i don't eat broccoli, sir
If you could dye your hair one color, what would it be: darker brown
If you could have a tattoo, what and where would it be: the outline of a heart on my hip
Favorite brand of gum: stride
What is your favorite quote: those who stand for nothing, fall for everything
Have you ever been in love: yes
Is the glass half-empty or half-full: half full
Pick a song that describes yourself or that you can relate to: Amazing, by Blue October
Which do you prefer- Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese Doritos: neither
Favorite flavor Snapple: none
Which one, Coke or Pepsi: Coke
Which kind of milk is your favorite: 1/2%
If you were to kill someone, which method would you use? i'm quite pacifistic =]
Are you a righty, lefty, or ambidextrous: righty
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: i only type with three fingers =P
When you meet a person of the opposite sex, you notice their: smile first
What’s the best number in the World:
What is your dream car: something pretty, small, and red
Who is your biggest crush right now: i don't like the term "crush" very much =|
Nickname: Lo
Bacon Bits Or croutons: croutons!
What type of Shampoo/Conditioner: Pantene volumizing
Have you ever been skinny dipping: no sir
Do you make fun of people: never, i used to hate it when people made fun of me =[
Have you ever been convicted of a crime: no!
Best friends online/offline: kiran and evan =]
One pillow or two: one
Pets: two kitties!
Favorite Movies: alex & emma, aladdin, the notebook, pirates of the caribbean, harry potter, many more =]
Favorite type of music: indie/alternative/emo/acoustic
Hobbies: tennis! and fashion, reading, and music
Word or Phrase you overuse: oh boy
Toothpaste: wintergreen
Piercing or tattoos: none
Favorite song at the moment: Alex English, by Dance Gavin Dance
Most humiliating moment: not so much humiliating as devastating =|
Craziest or Silliest Person You Know: kiran!
Favorite Holiday: thanksgiving =]

I can definitely understand what you're saying. After that incident, you walk around and wonder if every other person who lays eyes on you has the same thought, but just refrains from saying it. Honestly, though, you are not fat. Just because other women around you are super thin doesn't make you any less beautiful. For some reason, random comments like those always seem to plague your mind for the longest time. A lot of us can relate with similar experiences. All in all, his opinion doesn't matter. Focus on yourself and the people you care about. Don't let this discourage you- the most important thing is that you continue to work towards being healthy. The people in your life love you and support you; this old man's opinion doesn't matter. You are a beautiful, intelligent person. This was unfair, but I know you can pick yourself back up and keep doing what feels good for you =] Good luck! <3

Wow, your story is so sad. I can understand how that would be utterly devastating... you're a really, really strong person for being able to pick yourself back up and persevere. If you could do that, you can do anything. I'm confident that with the right motivation and plan, you can become the healthy person you'd like to be. Never give up, good luck =]

I know I kind of walked in late to this post, but I thought I'd just let you know that as a 15-year-old girl, I think it wouldn't be a bad thing to stop losing weight. Most girls like guys who are heavier than them, as long as the majority of it is muscle. And if this helps at all, I think you're very cute =]

I was just kissed for the first time 8 days ago by my first boyfriend lol. I'm fifteen, almost sixteen.

We were at a park laying under a tree in the shade, and he had been holding me for about a half an hour, and he asked me if there was anything else I wanted. I asked him to kiss me, so he looked at me and announced that he had no idea what he was doing. Then he leaned in put his lips against mine for about a half a second lol. It was really nice, and really awkward =]

That's excellent! How inspiring! I can definitely see how that would be more rewarding =]

Age: 15 (almost 16!)

Height: 5'2"

Goals:

-Maintain around 110 pounds

-Only weigh myself once a week (no falling back into the daily weight struggle)

-Be able to jog three miles without stopping by September

-Love my body for what it is!

Good luck, everyone =]