Posts by vanessawindsor

Having always been skinny until the last 3 yrs has shown me two extreme sides that are very similar. Everyone always imposed their ideas on me about my physical body by saying, "If you gained like 10 or 15 more lbs you would be perfect" and i wanted the weight, but I couldn't gain it. Then I had my daughter at age 27 and now I get the, "If you could just lose like 20 lbs on your belly, you would look perfect". When I was a skinny binny I made a deal with myself to just be happy with my tall, skinny, awkward self and be healthy but most of all happy. I did it too, then I was happily married and pregnant. Then I was unhealthy, which is most of the importance of loosing weight for me.

My parents have always had weight problems during my lifetime and have health issues now in their late 50's that concern me. Yet, as a parent I feel that I want to be full of energy and health for my kids and I want to be okay in my late 50's. I just have no tollerance for working out LOL. But, I am working on it.

So, what I learned is that looking internally into what I wanted, whether Skinny or Fat, I can find positive self awareness to inevitably strive towards.