Posts by laura51783

I could tell horror stories of all the massive amounts of crap I'd eat back when I was bulimic.

Like: a half gallon of frozen yogurt, half a bag of doritos, a bowl of pasta with cheese and sauce, about 4 of those "100 Calorie" packs, hummus and pita chips, maybe half a bag of dried fruit, and whatever the hell else was in reach (would've grabbed the cat probably if he wasn't so fast)... and the disgusting thing is that all this food would be consumed in under an hour. Then of course I'd throw it all up then go to the gym for 2 hours.

I still have no concept of how to eat normaly. It's either starvation or stuffing myself sensless. It's comforting reading these stories though, just to know I'm not alone in this struggle. I wish I could just be one of those people that eat sensibly all the time and never crave anything. Do they exist, lol????

It sounds like having battled an eating disorder in the past that you have an abnormal relationship with food. I've struggled with bulimia/binging-purging and continue to fight it. You may be an "exercise bulimic"- instead of throwing everything up you over exercise.

Do you have a habit of depriving yourself of food all day at school or work then coming home and binging? That would be my problem. The main reason I got on this site was to learn about healthy eating so I could stop this horrible habit that is running my life. I guess my advice would be to not deprive yourself during the day- it may feel strange as a former anorexic eating normal amounts of food, but it doesn't feel as horrible as the low after a binge. If you are an emotional eater, try to find what your triggers are. There is nothing wrong with exercise, so maybe join some classes so you sweat away your stress instead of eating it away.

Anyway, I hope this rambling made sense. Bottom line, don't deprive yourself and find alternative ways to relieve stress/emotions. Easier said than done, I know! I wish you luck. I know how hard it is.