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| Motivation | Before & After - 57.5 pounds lost! | Nov 11 2009 15:25 (UTC) |
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wonderful... it just goes to show that one must EAT to LOSE. brilliant post. you look totally hot!
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| Health & Support | ~~Bingers Anonymous~~ | Dec 16 2008 05:40 (UTC) |
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i know for sure it doesn't happen instantly. and recovery from binge eating isn't easy, nor is it overnight. i struggle with it daily, as i am sure almost everyone with this disorder does.
i am currently just trying to let my body and my mind get back into a normal pattern of eating- not craving food. i know all too well about the guilt. the guilt, ugh, it's so repressive and makes my whole day crappy.
good luck. three days is a really good start to go without a binge. you should think in terms of having more good days than bad days for now. |
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| Weight Loss | "Back on the Wagon" Group! Weekly Weigh-ins and Motivation. (Weigh In's every Friday starting 9/19/08) | Sep 23 2008 17:22 (UTC) |
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friday 9/19 weight was 204 down from 206 |
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| Weight Loss | "Back on the Wagon" Group! Weekly Weigh-ins and Motivation. (Weigh In's every Friday starting 9/19/08) | Sep 18 2008 18:08 (UTC) |
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okay, well, i'd love to join too. i have counted calories before, but never with any long-term success. i tend to get derailed because i feel like i am either "cured" and can eat whatever i want or i have had something health-wise set me back, like high blood pressure or panic attacks. but i feel ready to start my couch potato to 5k plan again. and maybe reach my goal of 175 before easter of next year. currently i am 206 pounds. looking to be 190 again, then 180 and eventually 160. i'm 5'6, 33 and have been 300 pounds at my heaviest, 179 at my lowest weight. happy to be here! kelly- |
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| Motivation | Couch-To-5k Motivational Thread | Sep 18 2008 17:50 (UTC) |
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thank you for these awesome links! they are JUST what i needed to get back on my running track. i miss it so much. :( |
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| Motivation | Before and After pics challenge! | Jun 23 2008 11:13 (UTC) |
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i am currently working on my last 40 pounds. [FOR GOOD!] but my profile pictures are extensive and show the weight loss [from over 300 pounds in 2006 to what i am curently, 190s]. i have maintained a 100+ pounds weight loss for almost three years. i also quit smoking during this time, not once but twice! the first time [6 months] didn't "stick", haha. but i have been smoke-free for two years now. so don't let anyone tell you weight loss and quitting smoking cannot be done. i also started running and ran my first 5k race last year... something i never would have imagined myself doing. overall, i feel like weight loss was just a stepping stone to becoming the most important thing of all - HEALTHY. |
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| Health & Support | ~~Bingers Anonymous~~ | Jun 09 2008 06:15 (UTC) |
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| a TON of people actually have to count calories, carbs, numbers, protein, points values, etc- believe me. you are not alone. just like an alcoholic has to do certain things to maintain sobriety, bingers and overeaters have to keep their addiction in check. it probably will always be this way... but bing healthy is a LOT better than the alternative. good luck, honey. i k nwo you can do it. one day, hour. moment- at a time. kelly |
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| Weight Loss | So YoU HaVe Lost a lot of weight??WHaT don't you Like?? | Mar 18 2008 20:52 (UTC) |
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what i miss most is sorta mental, more than physical. i miss feeling proud to be a big beautiful woman. i know it was unhealthy, but 120 pounds later, i have a much worse self-image because now after losing the weight, i realize there are things i just CANNOT change. before i always imagined a very sexy, healthy lean body "once i lost weight." but there is no more guess work.
hangy skin. deflated breasts. freezing feet and hands. and the guilt of eating things which i never felt before. emotionally i was depressive, sure, but any more i feel bad for having twenty calories over. sometimes i regret getting on the train, then i look at that before picture and i know i did the right thing for me and my daughter. |
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| Foods | Foods that take a long time to eat? | Mar 17 2008 02:53 (UTC) |
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i did not know plums only had 30 cals. omg, i know who is going out for plums in the morning! |
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| Motivation | 190's club | Mar 15 2008 20:15 (UTC) |
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just ready to be in the 180s again. i have gained and lost 15 or so pounds for a long long time. after losing 100 pounds, it is becoming my personal "failure" of sorts. but this time i am trying to think about what it feels like to be picked up by a brother or boyfriend and how my waist will feel small... and how i love clothes and i love to eat good food. |
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| Fitness | it took long enough | Sep 28 2007 01:17 (UTC) |
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| i did my first 5k back in april. it was truly amazing. going from 300+ pounds to a lean 180 with some kick butt legs was reward enough... but i did go to antique stores after as my reward. go you!! | |||
| Motivation | binge-free challenge, anyone? | May 07 2007 11:00 (UTC) |
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| i have lost a lot of weight and this place really hurt me this last week. you can check my journal where i post a picture of my belly and THEN some girl said something about it looking all sad. which of course, threw me into binge mode for a week straight where i ate like 2,000 cals over almost every single day.
i am sure some people might think "oh who cares?" but it's not something i can get over. not easily anyway. i felt totally betrayed by someone who is here to help, not hurt. this place isn't bad, it's just unpredictable. the point is, i have gained almost 5 pounds in one single week. i pretty much just gave up and decided that being fat is much better than looking deformed. i even considered quitting my job at my gym because i felt so ugly and gross. i know i should be stronger, but this is how it is for me. i am completely helpless around food and the stupid comments of other people. it's just so sad that someone on calorie count did this to me... or rather, that i LET someone do it to me. i don't know if i can even be binge-free any more. after this past couple of weeks, i just feel like i can't see the point any more. |
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| Fitness | Cardio Free Diet | Apr 23 2007 20:48 (UTC) |
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| you have to have the cardio. it ALL gets tougher as the weight comes off. believe me. it is FAR BETTER to do both, get good at both now- and create an active LIFE, not just working out cuz you have to.... your body isn't a machine of losing and gaining weight. it should be a machine used for fun and endurance as well as strength and movement.
try not thinking about movement as "cardio" and just get outside and walk. think about the FREEDOM you have when you use your body. it will burn even more fat then because you're releasing relaxing non-stress hormones. listen to music! i think most importantly, people need to quit smoking and do their walks and runs and not think about moving the body as magical. and PLEASE! cardio making you gain weight? that is rubbish. i NEVER once had a gan in weight on this whole journey until i started lifting weights. i was HUNGRY A LOT!! but i'll tell you this. i look a heck of a lot better having lifted my weights. i don't regret ANY of my program which started with calorie reduction to that AND cardio combined, then adding strength training to those two. it is the miracle trinity and it works and science has backed it up thousands upon thousands of times. it's not the cardio you hate. it is your mind telling you cardio is hard that you hate. that's why i'd find something to do that you love- that you're not even thinking about it being movement. :) remember guys, this is a LIFESTYLE CHANGE! |
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| Motivation | binge-free challenge, anyone? | Apr 11 2007 06:30 (UTC) |
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| my big goal is to just stop the binge process by distraction, meditation and going to OA meetings. i went to my first one tonight.
i just want to look in the mirror and not hold fat in, suck in and rearrange my tummy rolls all the time. i'd like to also stop eating just because it tastes good. |
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| Health & Support | ~~Bingers Anonymous~~ | Apr 10 2007 21:55 (UTC) |
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| hi.
i have lost a significant amount of weight due to proper diet and working out and for several months, running and/or elliptical machine training. i lift weights now and of course, i find i am hungry a LOT more. unfortunately, i have a binge eating disorder which makes me feel guilty about any and ALL food i eat with the exception of fish, vegetables and non-cream sauces. everything else, and i do mean everything, makes me feel obesity is lurking in my very near future. i know it is unreasonable... so tonight i am going to my first OA meeting and trying to figure out why i am doing this. i am scared about the "higher power" thing and the fact that already my one familiar face in this group wants to give thanks to God every other second. bleh. i know that i can beat this damn thing. does anyone else see a group or go to a shrink? did it help you? lastly, i guess my main issue is not screwing up my whole eating plan for one day of a tiny lunch mess-up. i do this whole "forget it, i am eating EVERYTHING!" deal which really DOES make me feel suicidal and hopeless. sigh. i feel like i am way more screwed up than anyone else. |
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| Motivation | 190's club | Mar 30 2007 13:27 (UTC) |
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| i'm in the 180s club. see y'all there! | |||
| Motivation | 180's Club | Mar 27 2007 21:23 (UTC) |
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| omgggg!!!!
finally!!!!!!!
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188!!!!! i am so happy to join this club. seriously- NO MORE 190s club for me EVER!!! yay!!!!!! |
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| Motivation | What am I doing wrong? | Mar 08 2007 14:21 (UTC) |
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| that's good advice from someone who has been there, ash-
and just to let you know there IS science behind the need to increase calories during a plateau and during working our bodies-
http://www.netwellness.org/question.cfm/45914 .htm i think the WORST part about not eating enough to fuel he body is how it skips over fat reserves and depleats muscle tissue! not only that... the metabolism slows to a point that it can be almost impossible to lose weight. AND, if you go back to eating fast food because you're fed up and not working out? guess what? you gain FASTER than ever before. it sucks- but there really is a sweet spot to all this. trial and error will help you define your "sweet spot." xox |
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| Motivation | What am I doing wrong? | Mar 07 2007 22:36 (UTC) |
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| any protein powder will do the trick, soy or whey. vegan's obviously prefer soy. some people don't like the soy so much because it contains phytoestrogen which can make [esp. men] more hormonal. especially if you're doing two more a day. but most people have zero complaints about either.
compare labels. i get mine from wal-mart in the pharmacy dept. i buy two at a time, chocoalte and vanilla. i usually add sy milk to mine and coffee in the morning and about 25 ice cubes. blend it all together with some sweet n low. afternoons after my run il'l have one, maybe half a scoop [which is about 11 grams of protein and 60 cals] along with coffee if i want some, a banana, some sugar free strawberry preserves and oatmeal. try different things. if i even "think" about wanting a snack, i stop and take stock of my caloric needs. almost ALWAYS i find i am low on cals or needing something extra- good luck! PM me about anything you need to. i'll be happy to help. |
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| Motivation | What am I doing wrong? | Mar 07 2007 21:17 (UTC) |
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| i think the biggest issue here is that you may be cutting into your muscle at this point with too much heavy cardio and not getting enough calories and protein after workouts.
while your workouts are not "extreme" it appears to me that you need to really consider working out smarter. your body is not going to have time to recover properly with all that cardio thrown in - AND strength training. i'd drop my cardio session to 20-30 minutes a day and workouts to less than 40, 4 times a week. you should rip through a total workout [strength and cardio] in an hour. i also think you should DEFINITELY start spreading out calories. stock up on protien bars and get some protein shake powder. [it lasts forever] i would add a protein bar and one shake a day to what you're eating now. i just think too much cardio kills strength training efforts and makes you miserable. your body needs more REST if you're lifting weight, not more cardio. :) |
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| Motivation | Why Cant I just be "Normal" about food? | Feb 23 2007 22:09 (UTC) |
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| i wish they THREADED these, so i could reply to a forum and reply to the exact entry. anyway- thank you thea8. i really think this spring i am going to take a mini-vacation and go work in NOLA. i never went there... and i was SO close. oddly, that very eyar.
funny thing, too, i DID go to new york and was in the trade towers a few months before they lost them - so i feel some kind of connection to places where tragedy strikes. plus, i grew up in shreveport... so i have a hunch i'll really love it there. REPLY, calorie counting being retarded: i don't think so. success drives us all. what drives success is control. it's the control we seek - and some obsess over control in any form, ie calorie counting. but it is the only thing that works for me. [and many others] but an obsessive person is going to FIND control in what they can... be that diet, working out, school, a job etc- it's not just a calorie issue. eating disorders are rarely about being thin anyway. they are about having control and the fear of losing the control. [one of the BIGGST gripes i had recently with the "update" email from caloriecount- was a man who obviously had never even researched eating disorders, saying it was a disease of vanity. effing whatever. people really need to HAVE or [have had in the past] some kind of eating disorder before they go off on the disease of vanity. shrug. oh well. i am trying to stay positive. have a good weekend you guys. remember you're in control of your body, your body is not in control of you. |
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| Motivation | Why Cant I just be "Normal" about food? | Feb 19 2007 23:09 (UTC) |
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| thea8, i'd love to know how to gut houses... can you tell us more about it? is housing provided while you stay there to volunteer? what about getting there and back and basic food and stuff? thanks!
i am at this point in my life where i am just not going to let food control me any more. since i am 197, my eating disorder counselor actually refused to let me traumatize the anorexics and bulemics in group therapy. if THAT didn't make me feel like a huge fat pig, ya know? so i stopped going... which is fine. ia m doing better. i stopped going to pilates classes because there are a few E.D. girls in there and i can't really take that. it's hard to see those pelvic bones sticking out and concentrate on me. what i am working on right now is focusing on helping other people, my boyfriend included- and staying fit by walking my dogs everyday for an hour. i am a vegetarian and i don't really believe i am a failure since i've lost over 100 pounds. BUT, i have not lost a single pound since last Feb. [2006] which sucks for me because i do a lot to try and keep my weight down. i would say my biggest obstacle right now is negative thinking. i have this problem with my art [getting it out there and sold, making a website etc] and my body [ugh, i am too fat for him, for that place, for this outfit] and i feel that my isolation is probably making me more fat because i do not work do to a long-term battle with sever bipolar depression. i just quit smoking on the first of jan. too... which indeed slows the metabolism. but you knwo what? listening to all of this, i don't have it that bad. i am a pretty good human being. just a little rounder than most. :) ya'll add me and i'll do the same! |
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| New Members | **New Member forum Meet N Greet** | Feb 19 2007 23:01 (UTC) |
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| thea8...
i saw your response in another forum about gutting houses in NOLA. do yu have any advice on how to do that? i think i'd really love to go try it. do they have housing for volunteers? |
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| Health & Support | Stop smoking support group | Feb 19 2007 22:15 (UTC) |
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| just wanted to say i quit the first of january and have not had a smoke or a sneak since. not easy living with two smokers- but i have done it.
goodbye smoker. and yes, i have gained weight, but i think that's because i gave myself the whole month of january off to eat whatever made me feel good since i knew smoking was going to call my n ame. i am now back on the weight loss train and slowly losing. qiutting smoking is really the very best thing i could have done for my weight loss. i finally feel like a REALLY healthy eprson - not just a smallish faker. xox |
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| Weight Loss | Anyone looking to shed 50lbs??? | Jan 10 2007 18:23 (UTC) |
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| i have lost 110 pounds. i've gained and lost a few pounds since i started and the ups and downs can be discouraging. the "last 50 pounds" are harder to lose than the first 50. i would guess that 25 pounds will melt off with minimal effort [light reduction in calories] and then after that you'll have to earn every pound lost.
i wanted to also direct a comment to someone who said "you gained weight, you'll probably do it again." that's complete and utter nontruth. there is nothing about an overweight person that says they will fail. sure there are tons of stats- but i think of my lifestyle like quitting smoking [which i also did] - you can't go back. once you do, you're setting yourself up for failure. you have to stop thinking of yourself as a "fat person." clearly you want and deserve health and happiness. let nobody stand in your way. |
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| Motivation | 190's club | Dec 05 2006 23:37 (UTC) |
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| thanks to you guys for responding. my weigh-in last night was 193. that's improvement, even if i am still2 more pounds than when i started CC back in august to help me get the ball rolling again. i guess the main thing is don't give up.
i'm trying to keep my chin up and note change in my size, not just weight. it's hard though when you've had pounds melting off and then it stops and suddenly you have only dress/waist sizes to go by. anyway- you're all AMAZING and beautiful people. i try and remember i am not the only one going through this and there are a lot of people who are struggling to lose twice or three times the weight i am now. trying to practice patience. :) love y'all. |
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| Weight Loss | Did you gain? | Nov 27 2006 19:53 (UTC) |
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| i actually lost last week... but i was dedicated during Thanksgiving. anytime i was tempted to overeat i just tried to remind myself that the day was about family and love, NOT food.
xox |
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| Motivation | How many have lost 50 pounds or more? | Nov 22 2006 20:59 (UTC) |
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| i have lost 110 pounds and have 40 to go until i hit my goal. this year has been incredibly SLOW and i have backslid many many times.
i have maintined my loss though the scale has gone up and down between two to ten pounds since May of this year. i think my biggest obstacle is staying STRONG to the temptations of those around me- especially my significant other. i also think the biggest HELP to me is that working out and walking or jogging became my "prozac" and it's not lifted. i still workout or do some type of walking everyday. my problem is food is yummy. and i like to think i am weak to it instead of remembering *I* lost that weight and *I* have to do the rest. excusing moderate "sampling of foods" and handfulls of nuts, candyies or anything else that you can't measure is pretty much the dieter's devil. a diet journal is pretty much spot-on for accountability. |
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| Motivation | 190's club | Nov 22 2006 20:25 (UTC) |
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| hi guys-
my story is this: i am 196 currently. last year, in early 2005, i weighed almost 300 pounds. i lost the majority of that before Christmas last year. i was living with a good girlfriend of mine who has also lost a lot fo weight. we worked out together and had a good time planning meals and shopping. but after i got my huge "reward" tattoo in march, something happened. the scale wouldn't move. i moved out from living with my friend and she kept with it, losing another 65 pounds over the 120 pounds she'd already lost. when she comes around i feel inferior and like a failure. my weight hasn't changed much since april. in fact, i have actually put on about 10 pounds since april/may. i know my problem is overeatting and "handfuls of stuff" and even though i only eat good foods i really have chronic snacking issues. i feel very much alone and depressed about my weight. yesterday my boyfriend asked me if i was "going to workout" and i cried and wrote in my journal- something i equate with 15 year old emo kids, not a 31 year old mother of a four year old, ya know? i have seen a psychologist about my eating compulsions and obsessive weighing and working out. everyday i wake up and i am more depressed and sad than before. i feel like i am failing at LIFE... not just my weight loss goals. my support system went downt he toilet when my friend [who lost the 190 pounds] became so obsessed with her body that it drove a wedge between us. anyway- i seem to have a brain that is stuck on being in the 190s. i believe i am afraid of achieving my goals and i ahve no idea why. i could really use a friend who knows what i am going through... i hate that i've lost so much weight and can't seem to get it together about FOOD. i always try and start off my day with pilates or some strength training. i walk and run with my dogs for 30 minutes in the afternoon. but all of this is not in any way a routine. nor is eating because i am a terrible cook. what can i DO???? how do i break out of the damn 190s for GOOD?? any ideas? |
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| Vegetarian | Embarassing topic- gas | Aug 10 2006 16:04 (UTC) |
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| i think that if you're still eating dairy and eggs, common gas-givers, you might consider limiting those food choices to some degree. painful gas could also be due to a gastro-internal problem, in which case, it's always good to see your family physician and ask him about it. i think i can live with my gas issues because i am used to it and it's not painful or offensive [just loud at times, lol] so that's why i suggested living with it. now that you explain more about the issue, i'd definitely limit gas-causing foods and talking to a Doc. | |||
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