Posts by manda182

Um. I'm no health expert, and not even out of high school (haha), so I'll mostly second what everyone said above.  But ultimatums of divorce?  I think you should address that ASAP!!  Your husband is being totally out of line and un-supportive.  I'm sure there are extraneous factors and he's a good person, but you have obviously been through a lot and need support not threats!!  Sorry felt the need to share my two cents worth.  Anyway good luck on getting your period back; most of what was said above sounds like safe advice.  Congratulations on coming so far in recovery!!  That must have been so difficult, and it's good to hear you're at a healthy weight.  Hopefully the hardest part is behind you. (:

Honestly, I think you should keep using your machine even if it makes you extremely uncomfortable at first.  I think if you kept doing it you would eventually get over your "fear."  Which is important cause its not fun to live with so much insecurity.  Also if you don't you may come to resent your room mates.  I have similar issues but with eating.  Now if I am eating and my dad is in the other room I get really angry at him.  I think it'd be good if you try and overcome this fear now instead of feeding your insecurity.  Just my 2 cents.

I am definitely the type of person who tends to turn their life into a crusade (;

But I don't think this article is all that helpful.  I mean sure, in the grand scheme of things we are just blips in space and time.  But none of us live as an all powerful overseer of the universe.  For the rest of your life you are going to live with yourself, thinking inside your head.  I don't know.  I just think that thinking everything that happens to you is insignificant seems like a quick way to fall out of love with life, and wonder "what's the point?"

On the other hand a very anxious/overwhelmed/dramatic person might benefit from this.  Realizing that these expectations are all man-made, and we have to right to just float through life peacefully...  Hum.  I think I went off topic.  Oh well.

Binging is usually alone, secretive, frantic, and you barely even taste the food going down before you're looking for more. IMHO.

I think you just ate more than usual today, which is fine once in a while. (:

It sounds like you probably wish you could just stop binging and start calorie counting/losing weight again back to 105.  But from personal experience, trying to stop binging + trying to lose weight at the same time = disaster.  I think you should not worry about your weight and work on eating 3, square, healthy meals per day.  I find it helpful to also pick times that you will eat every day. (For example, breakfast at eight, lunch at 12, dinner at six...).  I just think if you try to eat like a "normal" person for a while you will be satisfied and able to ease out of the binging cycle.  Eventually when you have a healthier outlook you can lose a few pounds.  (not that you even need to!)

Just my 2 cents

Wow I'm in the exact same situation.  I went to the beach with my boyfriend's family for six days.  Typically I am heading towards vegan and mostly eat nuts, veggies, fruits, brown rice, berries..  I ate out twice a day almost every day, snacks, desserts, etc.  Lots of cheese, chips, sugar. Also went from running every day to not at all during the trip.  I thought I was going to gain so much weight so the night I came back (last night) I was really upset and binged on ice cream and cake! (a sickly amount of each).  This morning I weighed myself and it turned out I only gained two pounds.  Now I feel stupid that I went and binged.. and in addition to feeling mentally bad I feel physically sick and gross from it.  Hopefully that binge was part of those 2 lbs :/

anyway long-winded story but I just wanted to say everyone tends to gain a little weight on vacation (especially when you're trying to be a gracious guest), but its probably less than you think. And it usually comes off quickly. (: Good luck

I did it two? years ago.  It was actually the most fun 5K I have ever run.  There are people of every pace so don't worry and yes people walk.  Not sure where yours will be but for me it was also the flattest 5K i've ever run (:  Also they give out lots of free stuff, which is always fun haha.

thats funny i used to take tennis lessons too. then i joined XC and like it about 1000x more (:

The really good girls get 20/21 minute 5Ks. maybe faster but they're ridiculous.  I've never gotton under 27 minutes :/ I will this year though! (I'm on JV; we have a large team)

I agree with what the above poster said about switching up your runs.  If you don't make varsity this year there's still a good chance you could in the future.  I wouldn't believe what the tennis coach said about colleges.  I think they like to see commitment.

haha alright well thanks for all the help.

Hmm thankyou bunches that is a long list of exercises :) :) :)

I think it its complete and utter exploitation.  "Needing the money" is no excuse.  If they needed to shove their children into a reality tv lifestyle to support them, they shouldn't have had any children in the first place.  It's entirely their fault.

Thanks so much (:  I like the gum one; never would have thought of that.

And wow that is ridiculous.  I guess when it comes down to it, its just bothersome when others are not supportive of your lifestyle. *Sigh*

I'mmmm procrastinating. So (:

Favorite:

1) Almonds! (everything)

2) bird's eye asian medley fresh frozen vegetables (taste/feel/color/nutrition)

3) Bananas (taste/smell)

4) Apples (make me feel light not full)

5) Brown rice (so good)

6) Black Raspberry ice cream (though don't have anymore really 'cause i'm cutting out dairy grossness.  but this still tastes so good!)

7) Cucumbers (always have)

8) Chocolate hemp milk

9) egg whites (cutting out dairy but i kinda need this - for now)

10) Mustard!  (its really good)

Ew Foods:

1) meat, includes fish (im a vegetarian)

2) milk/milk products (ew EVERYTHING. i could go on and on about this.)

3) juice (juice and i are not friends)

4) wheat (though i do still eat it)

5) peanut butter (i think it makes my acne worse)

6) soda/anything carbonated (only had like 3x in my life. burns my throat)

7) chips, salty stuff that comes in bags, snacky things that are salty and leave your fingers dirty and your lips hurting

8) flaxseed oil (i have this every day and its very beneficial but oh my god does it taste bad!)

9) candy.. and strawberry sorbet (even the vegetarian candy. i'll admit some does taste good, but the red and pink flavours of like every candy tastes like the medicine i used to gag on as a child)

10) cake (the icing is a different story)

You look so good (: !! And much happier in the later photos.  PS your kids are adorable tooo (:

i've known i was bi since 7th grade. so i was twelve. its quite possible. some people are more in tune with themselves than others.

interesting question (: